Had a few "girlfriends" when I was really young, before knowing what sex was. Never had a girlfriend in junior high/high school because I spent ages 13-16 in juvenile for a crime I didn't commit (murder). Got sent back to public school after being released but due to living in a really small town no one trusted me anymore despite being proven innocent. (The real culprit came forward)
My dad shot himself in the head when I was 18, 1 week after I had a fight with him, told him I hated him, and moved out. My mom walked in on his failed suicide attempt and he died about a day later. I never got to tell him I didn't mean it.
Never had a job. Due to being falsely accused of murder, my lawyer got me a deal that gets me about $1500 a month for the rest of my life. It's enough to get by.
I haven't found girls close to my age attractive in years and ended up losing all interest in trying to get in a relationship or even get laid. I am however, incredibly lonely.
I've came to realize I still find anime/drawn girls to be attractive. I don't buy dolls, figurines, pillows, posters or any of that other creepy stuff but I do like loli content. I'm rather disgusted in myself and if my few friends and family knew, they wouldn't care about me anymore. I feel very alone, like society labelled me as a monster when I am not.
I know I was given the short straw in life and my fucked up childhood really screwed up the natural way of life for me. I never grew up sexually because of it and I'm stuck in the past. I would never hurt someone though.
Every day I think about killing myself. I doubt I ever will because i'm too weak.
I know this is a pasta but if you murdered someone theyd detain you in an actual pen. Not juvy
Brandon Phillips
This isn't a pasta. I just typed this. Sorry my life is so pathetic that you think it's a pasta. :(
Not when you are 13 years old, you go to juvnile in my state. They didn't try me as an adult, I was scheduled to be released at 18.
Lucas King
Dang. Sorry bro
Dominic Bell
I've decided to get myself a sex doll.
Alexander King
I've thought about it but the remotely good ones cost thousands of dollars. I also have no idea where i'd hide it from guests.
Nolan Jackson
women are basically just a waste of money time and nerves. just buy yourself a nice car you can look after or some other hobby. if youre lonely go make some friends, surround yourself with nice people then you will feel nice yourself. and if the sexual urge is present just jerk off to your anime tiddies like everyone else does in their basement at night.
Owen Hughes
Would you still get the moneu if you moved to another country? If so consider a cheap asian country where the women are submissive
James Parker
After my mom passes I will probably sell everything I own and travel in one last ditch effort to find happiness. I look after her currently, least I can do with how I fucked up her life and basically caused my dad's suicide.
Brandon Clark
You can get decent TPE dolls for around $1500. You can also get really decent (self-heating and shit) silicone dolls for like $2500.
Both TPE and silicone has pros and cons. I decided to go for TPE since it has proper boob physics (softer material) and I won't really mind the maintenance (doesn't hurt that it's cheaper also). Will also buy something to hang it in my closet, which is where I'll hide it.
Nathaniel Brown
>if the sexual urge is present just jerk off to your anime tiddies like everyone else does in their basement at night.
I do that 2-4 times a day, sometimes even more. The older I get, the more I need to do it. My friends tell me i just need to buy a hooker and get it out of my system, but I think it'd make it worse.
Gavin Howard
OP there's nothing wrong with you
Henry Taylor
Stop complaining and learn something difficult, like how to make other people happy.
Isaac Morris
You've got a lot of time. Don't let that 1500 dollars a month become a prison for you. That's a rat shit life.
Ethan Adams
Set goals. Expect more of yourself. That's why other people are so great. They hold you accountable so you can't make any excuses for the consequences of your decisions. Don't act like you don't get it. You're smarter than that.
Lincoln Collins
OP don't fucking buy a doll. Bulk up if you're fat and try to find a place where they hire felons if there's no place around that does that then just move.
Cooper Garcia
Or buy a fucking doll to rub your nuts on in the dark until you're old...because that's a thing now...
Levi Cox
If I can't make myself happy, how could I make others happy?
Juan Gray
26yo, lost my virginity yesterday. Met a girl a few weeks ago on a datin app, we really hit off. Having a great time with her.
Sex is great. We continued in the morning today.
Kayden Ortiz
You're still making it about you. First, find a therapist that you like. It may sound scary, but it really helps.
Angel Morales
save money, go to east asia or some shit, you get a fresh start, no one knows you, you can live for like 10 bucks a day there, and there probably isnt an age of consent
Carter Watson
Is it pasta like the other guy said? Idk BUT, giving up on actual women because you like loli porn and hentai and its hard doesn't change what you want.
Sounds like you want companionship, and for that you gon have to lern 2 love boy. Yourself despite your past, and people despite theirs.
Hard for me to believe you know you're a pedophile/only are attracted to girls because you've used loli porn forever and molesting a kid is the kink you're stuck on. You may have conditioned yourself. Just saying.
Landon Ortiz
Kill yourself then.
Balls up, read Meditations by Marcus Aurelius How to Win Friends and Influence People Start working out NoPorn NoAnime Coldshowers
Then come back to Sup Forums in a month if you still want to kill yourself. You are living in the most pleasurable time throughout all of human history, you're the lucky 0.01% and you want to trade it in? Do you have a bed to sleep in? Do you have food to eat? Fresh water to drink? To bathe? Then you can improve yourself every single day, every single hour. No matter your circumstances, you are lucky to be alive.
And if worse comes to worse, help the cause, go on Sup Forums
Jordan Gomez
Don't listen to this guy. Lots of positive reports on getting a doll.
Isaiah Ortiz
You ever try jazz?
Gavin Price
If that is too big a first step, find someone you TRUST and RESPECT. Explain to them your goals. Then think about how to achieve those goals. Check in with them every week and explain what you did to meet those goals. Do the same for them. It will be very hard at first. That's why they say "life is hard" Achieving your goals and producing something that helps others IS life.
Andrew Nelson
I am not a felon since I was proven innocent and released. I dropped out senior year like a retard because of the peer pressure of everyone assuming i'm still a murderer. Looking back on it, should have just told them to fuck off and finished school.
I'd need to get off my ass, get a GED, and go to college to stand a chance at getting a decent career. At 31, I feel like I already missed the boat.
Juan Kelly
Don't listen to this guy. Literally having a sex doll around is an explosion waiting to happen if you manage to get some really pussy around your place and she finds it. AND HAVING SEX WITH SOMETHING THAT ISN"T FUCKING YOU BACK
Brayden Rivera
These guys telling you to go to SE Asia are all basement dwelling buttholes. i have lived everywhere you can think of and the truest advice I ever got was WHEREVER YOU GO, THERE YOU ARE. You take your neuroses with you. It's all in your head. Remember: you are capable of working all this out. It will challenge you. Are you going to give up? FUCK NO
Brayden Lee
There is no boat, that is a social construct. It isn't a real thing. There is nothing stopping you. WORK FOR YOURSELF. I have 2 degrees and no criminal history. No one would hire me, so I moved to a place where I thought "this is where fucking 'cool me' would live" and I started hustling and working online and putting things together for myself. It's out there. You will find it, but you have to take a leap of faith.
Connor Smith
I spent most of my younger years on lots of prescription drugs and in therapy while in juvenile. That scene is what I believe fucked my life up. It works for some people, but since I was innocent and everyone told me I need to "accept that I killed someone" it forever ruined therapy for me. I actually started to believe I did commit the crime. I still have nightmares about therapy sessions.
Thanks for the advice but I will never do therapy again.
Isaac Anderson
alright your life has a few downsides you get fucking free money forever so you can live your life without working ever like come on holy shit i want that
Kevin Morris
You will NOT see results QUICKLY! Don't get discouraged. Focus on being a NICE as hell motherfucker
Ryan Ortiz
How hard is it to google? This is a pasta.
Jeremiah Howard
Dude, all due respect, a state therapist in juvy is not my idea of someone who can help you in an environment that feels safe. You need to choose the person you TRUST and RESPECT.
Jacob Murphy
Everyone's telling you what to do, OP.
What do you want? And how do you imagine yourself getting there?
Easy choices, hard life. Hard choices, easy life.
Andrew Russell
>women are basically just a waste of money time and nerves Only if you're bad at getting them.
Owen Brooks
Sounds harsh user, sorry that happned to you.
And eh it's not shocking you like lolis, they're cute and innocent and given that you pretty much didn't have a chance to be with anyone during your puberty years (when you generally start to look at older developed women sexually) you've simply sought out younger ones in anime form
If you have a decent income and don't need to work maybe start exercising and studying to do something you'd like to in the future? Then go on a trip to Japan and hook yourself a wifu
John Bennett
I am not a pedophile, nor would I ever molest someone. Fucking sick.
I am attracted to slender bodies, smaller busts, etc. Loli tends to have that, and they are fake so no damage done. Women in their 30s and beyond generally do not have features I am attracted too. Age is a shitty thing.
I do find lots of 18-22 year olds attractive but I am way too old for them at this point, so I don't even try.
Sebastian Torres
Sauce on dat gif tho.
Lincoln Hernandez
Google. This isn't a pasta.
Sebastian White
Find an asian
Austin Murphy
You try living off $18,000 (before taxes). I lost a large chunk of my teenage years, and the money does not make up for it.
Caleb Allen
Not him but yeah while the money doesn't make up for the lost time you still have money, you can never work another day in your life if you choose to live that way or you can start going to college, learn a hobby that you can work into some form of trade maybe and make even more money. Oh and save to go to Japan to find wifu
Jace Cook
I wish. I actually do find quite a few asians attractive because they are usually more petite than white women.
Justin Jones
...
Joseph Parker
to love-ru
Henry Sanders
Realistically just take care of your mother the best you can until she eventually passes. Take all the money u have and give it to a good cause then take your own life. I think thats what i would do in you situation. Serious post
Levi Bailey
Should I go with the 137GB torrent?
Dylan Parker
The show has so many OVAs/Specials it takes a bit of reading to get it all. If you just want the nude bits, fapservice has compilations.
Frankly i would if amazon or other places delivered stuff here. And Gotta test if i even like it
Wyatt Morales
>paying for animu What sort of filthy degenerate are you?
David Jones
>I still find anime/drawn girls to be attractive >I do like loli content
Hi, fellow comrade. Loli is the best!
Michael Gutierrez
The first season is kinda different than the other 3, just a fair warning. They put stupid semi-transparent clouds over the tits even on BDs, Seasons 2-4 don't.
Jason Gonzalez
Don't listen to this clown. Are you fat? If yes then try to lose weight. If you still don't have a job, try to get one in the countraction. It will be hard for you I'm sure but there is a chance. Try to be more open to people. Stop watching anime and that weird shit or you will lose yourself in it. Your life isn't over yet.
Asher Butler
motherfucker you get 1500$ every month for doing nothing thats like a dream move to thailand vietman or whatever and live like a king for that money
Christian Sullivan
I buy that shit, rip it to my server, rip out the garbage english dub and then resell the discs for basically the same price.
It's like 5GB an episode, vastly better quality than the BD rips you find on torrents.
Justin Robinson
Listen to this guy. Get a sex doll and work out using it to lose weight.
Nolan Butler
>5GB an episode It's more than it has to be, lol.
Alexander Collins
When will japan grow up.
Ryan Hughes
I actually can't move out of my current state or I lose that money since it's state money that pays for the court's fuck up. At least, that's what my lawyer has told me.
Easton Gray
I've done comparisons though, I always download fansub anime BD rips to see if I like a show. If I like a show a lot, I sometimes buy the discs.
On a 65" TV, 1GB vs 5GB 1080p rips is a huge difference. I'd imagine if you are watching on a monitor it wouldn't be.
Brandon Perry
Well duh the extra bitrate in 5gb ones help with bigger screen.
