So today is my Birthday. I turn 20. I live alone, I have nothing going for me, at least I have my own place...

So today is my Birthday. I turn 20. I live alone, I have nothing going for me, at least I have my own place. My parents don't talk to me. I bought a gun a few weeks back. I have no friends to speak to, my job is mundane, and I cant afford to leave. I want to die. I just might go out for a nice drive to somewhere remote...

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dont do it

For what? I live in hell. There is nothing I wake up for.

hey man, living in hell is still living.

embrace the struggle. wrestle it down and rape it to death

I don't ask for much. All I ever wanted was happiness. I am so tired of catering to others needs. I honestly cannot remember when I was last happy. I mean this. I had an abusive relationship with my family, and it made it hard to speak to people. Here though, through Sup Forums's anonymous system, I feel as if I have a voice.

No point in killing yourself. Tons of shit to do in this world, why waste your chance to be/do something great. You put yourself into this situation, now get out of it. It wont be easy but trust me, its worth it.

> just wanted to let you know, today's my birthday!
> just wanted to let you know, I'm not getting you anything

So
>call your parents.
>get a room mate and stop wasting money on guns and shit you don't need.
Then you can save some money and get an education or work on getting a job you enjoy more.

Don't you have any reason for living?

But yeah, you should kill yourself

Still trying to find a reason to wake up. It just feels like a chore, a requirement. I just wake up, go to work, go home, sleep, repeat.

Like I care.

Got a job delivering dildos and sex time in Manhattan. It sounds like you have a lot of on-the-job training already

Fuck you guys.

Im out

Try hard drugs? Go to Sandniggeristan and do what ever it needs? Donate organs? Serve others?
Good luck

I know those feels. 100% depression for almost a decade. Been good for about 5 years. I'd say talk to any counselor/friend/stranger who will listen and get some help. At very least you could work yourself to death trying to be the best X you can be.

You don’t need a fucking bullet in your head, you need a hobby dude. And a trip to a therapist once or twice. Sounds like you really need someone to talk to. Just try it, you might as well.

I bet you won't live stream it you coward

So do something about it! Quit your job and explore the world or something. There are endless opportunities, you're just being closed minded

Right? Shit worst thing that happens is you max your credit card while finding therapy doesn't work. Finances wont matter if you already have an exit plan.

Real shit, lemme tell you something OP, something you might want hear. Life's hard I get it, but live and let live man. There isn't a single day that goes by without the thought of suicide for me but try because I know I die eventually. So I try to get the most out of life, not saying I won't ever do it.

Yeah OP. Literally just sit at a park or train station and make conversation with strangers and let everything that’s on your mind out. It’s cathartic

Op we both know you won't because your a scared faggot dying is just like before you were born one less beta fag won't make any difference

Go out in a blaze of glory, kidnap someone and kill them, if you like it kill another, kill them in a death penalty state or shoot yourself in the head eventually.
We havent had a good serial killer in a while

Like self lubricating cathartic?

Shit son. Stay strong. I've got intrusive thoughts where even when I'm not depressed, my shitty brain will go "hey, 9mm is in the bedroom, you won't have to go back to work after lunch". It's gotten a lot better over the years so its not everyday, but that's the fucking worst when you're happy and still can't escape.

I agree user. If Op kills them self they will be Sup Forums hero this thread might get archived

It's called routine, maybe you're just boring of it, try finding a thing you like to do like other Sup Forumsros suggest.

Give this a listen OP
youtu.be/Hw6rP_DjgK8

There are so many newfags here v.v it sickens me

Haha. Fucking USA.
>haven't had a good serial killer in a while
Literally nothing on the news except mass shootings/terrorist attacks/serial killers

Get your head out of your self loathing ass and better yourself. Go find a job you like. Do things you find fun. Put yourself out there and get laid.

>I have nothing going for me
> 20
You really ARE a dumbass, aren't You?

If you're writing this kind of crap, you're already gone. It's just a matter of time until you an hero. Why make yourself and everyone around you miserable while you wait to summon the courage to do the world the favor you're destined to do it. Man up and just get it over with, cunt.

not this gay shit

Mass shootings don't make someone a serial killer it makes them impulse killer you fucking degenerate
A serial killer is like someone who kills over 8 people at different times

If you off yourself give me your steam account

Kevin Welp, he just launched his gay porno career Spacy

Did he really come to Sup Forums for help or attention

>20 years is nothing

kys old dirt faggot

How

I'm literally in the same boat ad you but am not depressed. All I can say is find something you enjoy to distract yourself. For me that thing is animating. I love it. Figure out what your thing is and work towards it. You're only 20 for fucks sake

Today sucks, tomorrow might not. Only way to find out is to stick around