Why do my thoughts loom so large on me?

Why do my thoughts loom so large on me?
They seem to stay, for day after day
And won't disappear, I've tried every way

But she smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
And said don't worry
Oh no no no

Where does she keep it inside of her?
That keeps her peace most everyday
And won't disappear, my hairs turning grey

But she smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
And said don't worry

Its because youre a fucking faggot

"There's nothing in why or when
There's no use trying, you're here
Begging again, and ov'are again"

That's what she said so softly
I understood for once in my life
And feeling good most all of the time

But she smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
She smiled sweetly
And said don't worry
Oh, no no no
Oh, no no no
Oh, no no no

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That's all there is and there isn't anymore.