Feels thread guys, I'm currently heart aching if this shows enough interest I will tell you my story

Feels thread guys, I'm currently heart aching if this shows enough interest I will tell you my story

I'm afraid to go to sleep

Let's hear it OP.

why

Tell us a story, dad

Just not ready to fall into the clutches of my anxiety tonight

sleep is freedom from that

Do normal people use Sup Forums?

Everyone has their own reason to come to this autistic site. Normal or not, this site is judgemental yet not.

>inb4 you're a faggot

I probably am for thinking too much on this, but they don't call those posters/tripfags normies for nothing

self harming as we speak, I hate how unfair life is

>be me
>be 12
>horn-monal edgy teen
>6th grade
>not interest in girls, not gay but just no action
>new girl moves in
>entire school: "target acquired.png"
>best friend hooks up with new grill
>be whatev, dont care for women atm its all about that metal gear solid
>unbeknownst to me, friend takes grill into woods and gets bj
>weeks later school knows this grill, and friend breaks up with grill
>she starts talking to me
>recommends me to one of her shit friends
>i date her friend for a total 4 hours
>she talks to me constantly
>first grill ive ever really bonded with that isnt part of my graduating class
in our school we have a rule, and thats to never date someone in your graduating class.
>become friends
>she likes me
>she wants the BBC
>we hang out constantly
>old bro who got bj tells me he feels bad
>ask why
>doesn't say
cont?
There's a good reason we have that rule.
cont?
not op btw

Sleep is a break from anxiety. Fapping can help too, but that probably will make you regret things more afterwards.

Self-harming isn't worth it user, do something else like a hobby that no one should have to know about.

Man I never thought self harm would be thing I would be doing. But when the pain just gets too overwhelming, there needs to be an outlet. I think it's because I realized I am too much of a pussy to actually kill myself. So I hurt myself instead.

tell me your story op, and ill share the rest of mine.

Con5

That pussy attitude of yours that's stopping you from killing yourself is also what's stopping you from accomplishing something great.

>normal people
This definition only has purpose for insecure people

>7th grade rolls around
>start getting into weed b/c entire family does it
literally my entire family has smoked weed or still does
brothers, father, mother, grandparents, ect
>me and grill take it steady
>don't really know what to do, as im just figuring out women and what they like
>buy her gummy bears alot
>bitches love gummies
>one day i ask her if she wants to be together
>"omg i thought you would never ask"
>"i was starting to think you were gay user"
>mfw dont care finally got grill
>hot topic at school for next week
>we go steady, but there's a serious problem
>she is mega attached to her cell-phone/iphone
>me, being pothead in training, cant find phone 90% of time
>case being she's very anti-social
>i don't talk to her over the phone alot
>phone is her main source of communication
>she cant live without her phone
>i unfortunately can
>this leads to a degeneration of our relationship, despite us really hitting it off
>one day, after easter, she says she has feelings for someone else
>"i'm not gonna hold you back, do your own thing"
>tfw im a beta cuck
>tfw cry myself to sleep
cont?

Kind of gives me hope that you think that I can do something great despite not knowing anything about me. But I think that's one of the only things driving me. Proving the naysayers wrong and honestly just living my life for me and nobody else.

here's the thing op, nobody will like what you do, no matter what you do, so just keep on doing, because people will always hate you, no matter what you do

Cont. user, you're a fucking degenerate and a cuck but I feel for you.

Exactly. You do you user, just don't be too much of a selfish degenerate when others need help alright?

>one day, break my phone
>doesnt matter, i have weed to comfort me
>summer between 6th to 7th
>be lazy peice of shit over summer
>one day mom hands a new phone to me
>her old one, she's getting an upgrade
>0w0 a phone?
>whats this?
>log back into snapchapple and other normie apps
>send her message
>"omg i missed you so much"
>we fought constantly and she says she missed me
>breaks me internally
>ask her why she likes me, despite me being a total cuck
>ask her why she doesn't like me
>ash her why she broke up with me
>"i never liked you user, i never really wanted to be with you. you're just not my type"
>being a hormonal 13 year old, this is first time getting cucked
>smash mom's old phone
>drift away from her
>old bro doesn't like me because i dated his old woman
>have no friends for a period of time
>8th grade hits
>reconnect with old bros, hit it off with another girl
>she gets SUPER jealous, like stab you jealous
>newgrill is suicidal, probably gonna an hero anytime soon
>we hit it off, doing drugs together because fuck society
>old grill's new bf texts me
>we become bro's after some CoD
>he tells me he's been dating my old grill for 2 years
>2 years
realize im an omega cuck
>tells my newgirl that im a cheating bastard
>newgirl checks with me to confirm
>being betacuck, i fuck up the question with a retarded ass answer
>she breaks up with me

Yeah, I haven't lost all hope in people. I just hate how naive that I am sometimes with others.

>emotionally beaten at this point
>new grill was molested, so she's on the an hero list
>new grill goes to PPI(pennsylvania psychiatric institute, basically padded walls and straight jacked)
>alone once again
>hellodarkness.jpg
>old bro tells me he got bj from grill
>the same day i kissed her on the lips
>wash mouth with soap
>two days later, trip balls on shrooms with brothers
>bro tells me before we trip that grill has done the same thing with me with like 5 other guys
>tells me she is a total whore
>she isn't even a virgin
>she is 12-13
>trip balls
>realize that she is just a leaf in the river that is time
>the river that flows endlessly, despite what happens to you while you flow with it.
>crashing against shores, cascading down waterfalls, even pooling into a creek.
>come to my senses mid-trip
tell her that she will pay for her damage, that the whole world will know what she is, and how badly she made me feel, and that i will never let this go, i will bring her down when she feels the most high.
realize that i'm the one that is still high
decided against texting her, i will plot my revenge in secret
cont?

Same, I honestly wish I didn't have to be so kind to others. Most of the time I get screwed in the end.

Cont. I genuinely feel bad for you user, no one deserves to get a kiss from a girl who just gave head unless you're into that kind of fucked up shit. Also say you have hereditary AIDS.

It all comes down to me though. I don't have much of a back bone.

Been lurking in this thread for a bit and wanted to help fellow bros with their problems rather than burden them with my own. Anyone want to hear my story or just need someone to talk to?

Then break your back until the broken bones forms its own spine for you. Courage and confidence are things you work up, not break down.

applause for those digits tho
>9th grade rolls around
>highschool, fresh with new women coming to their senses about sexuality
>grill has a new boyfriend
>what else is new
>get an idea
>the most devious idea, the most petty and most horrible thing i probably will ever do
>hack her phone, get all her old boyfriend contacts
>even find a list of her boyfriend, and how she rates them
>i was a 4
>even find a sex-tape of her and one guy who was obviously over 18
>brick her phone, and destroy all evidence
>over the course of 3 months, contact all her old boyfriends, and arrange a meeting.
>we talk about her misdeeds, and how she wronged us all.
>i tell them my idea
>they all agree
>of the 15 people i organized, about 4 were in my school
>christmas dance at highschool
>this is gonna be good
>day before dance, contact her new boyfriend
>tell him my and her story
>he tells me to fuck off
>show him evidence
>he comes to it
>"how can i help you user? want me to break up with her?"
>"no, i just want you to be prepared for tomorrow"
>the dance rolls around
>gather the warriors
>the school has this"invitation" thing, where you can invite a friend to the dance as long as you have parents permission
>there isnt a set limit on how many friends you can bring
>most people only bring 1-3 as they bring their out of town bf's and grills
>arrive at dance with my army
>the school set me to find a DJ since im so "reliable"
>DJ is one of my puppets
>midway through the dance, we have the music switched for the sex-tape
>the screen we use for presentations in the gym is always down, it takes awhile to put it up so they don't bother taking it down a lot
>showing some cheesy shit like flowers for dance
>give the signal
>light the beacon of gondor
>sextape is blaring full volume, warriors storm into the gym
>everybody is stunned
>a mixture of laughing and whispering breaks out
"is that grill?"
"oh my god thats user and grill!"
cont?

Cont., I hope this isn't bullshit.

Even the narcissistic faggots of /fa/ have feels too

>DJ books it out of school
>doesn't get caught since he used fake ID and school didn't do full background check
>warriors surround grill who is crying
>we announce to the entire school what a slut she is
>dead silence as principal turned off sex-tape
>go around the circle telling everyone how she humiliated us,
>comes to me
>i walk toward her
>look her bf in the eye
>he simply smiles
>he knows my pain and suffering
>"go for it dude."
i don't know exactly what i said, but i let out my reservoir of hate and depression for this woman
it very may as well have been just a tardspeech roar
>i come to my senses
>she is stunned
>gym is silent
>she runs out of dance crying
>warriors quickly gather shit and book it
>i was suspended for 2 days for inappropriate material, would've been expelled if i hadn't told principal my story
>her old bf was arrested for being a pedo, corruption of minor, and a whole barrage of charges
>they searched his home, found heroin
>grill was also doing heroin
>she was dating him because he did drugs
>she was doing the same to me
>she an hero'd two days later
>i come back to school to standing oviation
>i am hailed as "Thot Slayer" by school
>never had a problem with a grill again

...

Here's the story

>Now, this is a story all about how
>My life got flipped-turned upside down
>And I'd like to take a minute
>Just sit right there
>I'll tell you how I became the prince of a town called Bel Air
>In west Philadelphia born and raised
>On the playground was where I spent most of my days
>Chillin' out maxin' relaxin' all cool
>And all shootin some b-ball outside of the school
>When a couple of guys who were up to no good
>Started making trouble in my neighborhood
>I got in one little fight and my mom got scared
>She said 'You're movin' with your auntie and uncle in Bel Air'
>I begged and pleaded with her day after day
>But she packed my suit case and sent me on my way
>She gave me a kiss and then she gave me my ticket.

...

i hope your mother dies in her sleep.

rip dead bread?

i look back on this moment, because it is one of those moments ive come to cherish, simply because it made me a man, whether i liked it or not. I am grateful for that experience, though i would never go through it again.