Alright Sup Forums I want your opinion on my position (incest story)

Alright Sup Forums I want your opinion on my position (incest story)
>When I was young (5-10/11) my sister (7 years older, so 12-18) would make me do sexual stuff to her,
>first memory of it was making me put a pencil then a hairbrush handle in her vagina
>remember times of being alone in her room, sucking on her breasts/nipples, and massaging her back
>At that age I knew my penis would get hard, but didn't know why, or what sperm was (i wasn't cumming or anything)
>Had to carry this all my life, I've been scarred, remember it ruining my sexual labido in my teens. I used to perv on my aunt at that age because of it
>Long story short I told my parents and everything, but they still want her as a daughter. I don't consider her a sister
The problem is I'm so sure it happened, and she's just playing the "he's lying what it this all about?" but I'm kinda feeling not 100%. Is there any way I could have imagined that shit as a child? I can remember some of the times so vividly.

Or also what should I do now? She's gonna be moving in for a couple months with me and my parents, and I'm pretty sure some shits gonna go down while she stays. I'm 19 now so she's 26, but she acts like a spoilt child.

why did you tell them

you are alone in this

no you didn't imagine it

Its a long story, if you're alright to strap in

>get my first proper gf last christmas
>do sexual stuff
>get kinda flashbacks to the tastes/feeling of when I was a child.
>I ended up telling her about it halfway through the year, which made me feel sick, someone knowing my secret.
>She comes with me to visit my uncle, who I tell this to (and a whole other bunch of shit like serious physical bullying and such)
>He's on my side and believes me
>One night sister and mom get drunk, come into my room giving me abuse
>Sister ranting on to my dad (sober) about how I think i'm some big man, when I'm just a loser. And that I don't know what loss really is.
>>Sub thing - I lost my grandparents who I was attached to very much not that long ago.
>I get super fucking pissed at her and start ripping into her infront my my parents (My moms gone at this point)
>look my dad in the eye as I tell him that he didn't know what she used to do to me
>whole can of worms opened
>mom didn't remember
cont?

So how did that scar you?

Was she forceful or completely careless about your feelings? You didn't consent?

Go on im here for you user

Gimme more

Is she a munter?

If not. Fuck her again. Who cares.

continue

I had no idea what I was doing, and when I found out in sex ed I stopped. Really careless, because I've always felt like a toy only used for pleasure. I can only get off to pleasuring women, as I realised when what I did with my gf was pleasuring her rather than me. It also makes me sick, as all my mates would obviously be like "oh your sister's fit I'd do her" and i'd have to be like yeahhhhhh

>Spend a week with my uncle away from family. My dad recently had a catastrophic breakdown, so i've had to look after him, but leave him to my mom.
>Dad has to keep it a secret from my mom for the week, tears him apart.
>Sister and mom don't know i've said to him.
>Sort shit with uncle and have a week to kinda find myself
>Come back and tell my mom and dad fully, while he's present at my house.

Ok, I see she was abusive and is an overall cunt.

So, you've decided to attempt to utterly destroy her.

Why not just get your own life and live it?


What is it you found out in sex ed? What did you learn that caused you to need to stop?

>Parents are in kinda shambles, don't know what to do. My dad has another break down as he can't cope
>Sister is kept out of the loop, as my parents want to let me have it out with her just on our own. She calls my mom everyday (she's moved out) and for a week she's suspicious of my mom
>mom can't take it so she gives me the phone. She was threatening my parents with the whole "Im gonna cut off entirely unless you tell me whats going on"
>i'm put on the phone and she's crying asking if someone's dying. I calmly and harshly say i've told them what she used to do to me, her tone immediately changed to harsh and defensive. Which I took as a sign I'm telling the truth.
>she storms over the next day back to the house, and we sit across from eachother

Yes
Psychfag here
False memories are pretty normal. You coulve had a dream about it and then remembered that dream but as a false memory of abuse in the past. If the memory is inconsistent then you may be remembering something incorrectly

I'll explain the destory bit in the next story segment.

I found out what it's purpose is, and why it'd be wrong for a brother/sister to do it. At that point the next time she tried to bring me into her room and started undressing, I said no more and left. She kinda begged me as I remember, saying she'll give me a blowjob (Saying i'll suck on your willy) or she'll let me put it in her vagina fully.

>She kinda avoids the whole subject, says she's having a shit time in life with stress of work, she found out she can't have kids (which I love), other shit
>She asks if I want to destroy her life
>I simply say yes, infront of her and my parents
>She storms out crying, saying she's gonna kill herself. My parents are screaming and crying, she isn't answering her calls.
>I know she's just being dramatic.
>Now she's moving in for a few months, until her new house is built

I can remember it so vividly though, and the tastes. Like when I sucked on my gf's breasts, I remembered the taste. Also I remember certain things from my childhood where it was brought up (really specific mentions/comments of my sister that made me choke up)

my diagnosis: you're a pussy

Can I get a second opinion?

perhaps, psychfag, but I believe his memories and his story.

ah, I see.

Sounds like she was very horny. That's typical of someone going through puberty.

So, you really never had a good relationship with her, huh? There was nothing at all that could be called sisterly or brotherly affection between you two?

You were strangers to one another, and nothing brought you together, ever, besides this strange activity which you knew had to be kept secret, though not knowing why?

Is there nothing at all about your sister that ever made you feel somewhere inside, she cared about you as a brother?

Thank you btw, this means a lot to me.

No i've always despised her. To me she's never been a sister, she's quite manipulative and spoilt. I never felt cared about and longed for someone who was close in the physical world (as in live in the same space) and cared about me, which I kinda saw in my gf? Ex gf at this point.
I never felt affection towards her in a sibling way at all, I always loathed her presence.
She always used me in other ways, like using my brain for certain tests/homeworks and things like that, I never felt appreciated or that she ever did anything for me.
My parents disagree but that's their view, they listen to her every word.

That's kinda just opened up my mind about my ex too, thank you. It's all weirdly interconnected in my brain, but that's helped me there too.

pedophiles have very high suicide rates.

I know I wouldn't kill myself in her situation, but that's because I work hard to have a strong foundation of understanding why I am alive and what my purpose on Earth is. My purpose is to live a life of love, and to help others find happiness.

It takes a lot of determination and personal-growth, through learning from books, experiences, and dreams, to have that kind of foundation.

Be careful, user. Don't think she wouldn't.

I don't know very much, but I imagine that maybe your parents' grief and distress is also related to the idea of your sister's suicide.

There is that part too yes, I understand hearing she was going to kill herself was traumatic. But this comes back around to another point
I've been dealing with depression for years, and only last year did I go for councilling. The councillor made me tell my parents I felt suicidal, which I had been (for a mix of reasons) They didn't cry when I told them, they didn't help me at all, they forgot and went on about life. If I had done it any time, they'd have done nothing to help. And yet when she says it, she gets all the tears and works. That pisses me off too.

shut up and go fuck her as hard as you can. take back the power/control.

No problem. I am glad to be able to help, even if it's just a little.

Alright. Let me again stress that I know very little about your situation.

I see. You weren't appreciated. This is perhaps the biggest trauma upon your life.

No parent is perfect. Most mothers, most fathers, are themselves children who find themselves forced to raise another human being. Age doesn't bring maturity.

If I could speak in the place of your mother, of your father, and speak from their heart and from a desire to express to you their remorse for not having given you what you deserved in life, I'd say, "Son, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not giving you all of the love you deserved. I'm sorry for letting my job take me from you. I'm sorry for not being the best I could be for you. I loved you so much, but I let life, I let my past, I let my friends, -- I let them distract me. I wish I could change that, but I can't. You deserve everything in the world, you are my world. You always were."

nigga you're a faggot but this is the era of equality and people need to know that females can be--and are--just as shitty and evil as males. we're all the same species after all

but i had an incident like that with my older sister when i was like 6 or 7 and it didn't do shit to me. all we did was touch each other's junk for a few seconds

if anything i thought it was cool. not hot, though, b/c irl incest is gross if you actually have family. ironically i am totally into incest porn though

That's touching, thanks. But I get the feeling that you're going through some stuff too? That seems pretty specific, so it'd make sense if you're using that as an outlet for yourself.
The world does need more people like you in it. Thank you again

>cont?

okay young'ns and newfags gather round, oldfag here is going to learn you some Sup Forums shit

Literally every time a post ends with "cont?/continue?" it's because the faggot on the other writing it needs to know if other fags actually give a shit about his or her fake bullshit enough to continue making it up

these incest topics always go that way, though i admit it's quite rare to get an incest topic where the female is actually older than the male. usually it's like "derrr i was 18 my sister/cousin was 12 derrr" and it's so obviously fucking bullshit

i get that people can get off to stories and fiction but i mean come the motherfuck on at least try to make it somewhat believable or else i can't fucking get immersed enough to give a fuck

in short, fuck you op you weird fucking faggot nobody wants to hear your shitty short story smut

Did she ever hurt you physically through violence or was it just sexual abuse and physiologic warfare?

user, end her. That’s sick and she is sick for doing that to you.

This was repeated long exposure to it, over many years as I said (Ages 5-11) I know i'm a fag but at this point I don't give a shit, I just want to know if what I say makes sense and sounds true, because then I can know people will actually believe me.
This also helps me realise certain shit about situations and the world too. So thank you actually

Sorry I did actually want to know if people were listening and cared, it's not bull.

In a sister/brother kinda physical way I can kinda remember? But nothing serious, just sexual and physiologic. She'd also just call me fat and a loser most of the time, which I didn't give a shit about

Thanks user, it's good to hear that rather than the "oh you're a faggot this is bullshit"

How about you fuck off instead you worthless pile of horse dung. This isn’t like all those wincest stories people post on Sup Forums. This guy was sexually abused by his sister and it did shit to him. And then you come here thinking you have the audacity to say “Fuck off, no one wants to hear your shitty fapfic.” Go kill yourself you miserable excuse of a person.

jeez fuck i let the fact that you're too stupid to know the proper possessive form of it (its not it's you fucking shit) since 90% of the world is in the same boat of stupid as you are there, but you can't even fucking spell COUNSELING? Counciling? That's not even a fucking word your phone or browser should have pointed that out to you with impossible-to-miss red squiggly lines you unbelievable fucking dumb shit

Gosh damn it I fucking hate people like you. And you had the fucking gall to say your "sister" (who doesn't exist) used you for your "brain"

nigga shut the fuck up i just want to punch you in the fucking stomach you just strike me as a really unlikeable smug, soft-ass douche--which is why i'd hit you in the stomach and not your dumb douche face b/c you'd prob cry harder

how about you come make me little bitch. come to oklahoma

I don't get it? You come onto this thread just to criticise how I write at 3am in the morning? And tell me my shit is bullshit?
I don't know why you're actually that sad enough, you should take a step outside and get some fresh air, and calm the fuck down a bit dude

>3am in the morning

OOOOOH you're not american, that makes more sense.

Sorry but I don't give a shit about anyone that isn't american

by the way you're welcome for us letting you us our invention of the internet, fucking eurocuck

Also I'm mostly trolling because I'm really on edge and pissy b/c of lack of drugs. don't take anything i say too seriously

(cept the american thing. i truly don't give a fuck about any other country anymore they're all cucks. america is #1 and i'm proud to be part of it)

Yeahhh you can smell the troll a mile off. You get used to taking everything with a fucking pile of salt online

and what help you fuck the family goat? kys okkie faggot

You don't have to believe this, but remember it:

The trauma didn't occur when she did these things to you. It didn't occur when you were used for pleasure. It also didn't occur from "being raised wrong." No one is raised right, and we can't let our past dictate our future. We decide our attitude going forward.

You started to develop the trauma when you learned that society utterly condemns incest and pedophilia.

Your depression is due to your decisions, including your decision to live in the past and to have hatred and resentment in your heart.

You accept that law, the law which society has told you: pedophiles should be executed.

You accept it deeply into your heart.

Your parents didn't raise you well.
Your sister didn't care much about you.

You don't have to forgive them.

Society will back you up.

It will approve of the crushing of her heart.

Have you spotted the signs. the crystalline folds in the sky. I will shed a tear so long as you realize. 2 0 1 9 9 1 0 1 1 2 3 3 9 0

Not believing it happened is really common for shit like this, especially if the offender denies, you probably didn't imagine it of your telling the truth, you were raped by your sis, which is pretty hot. If your lying tho then that's still pretty hot, just not as enticingly so

that's great dude, but stop fagging up threads. Let's create a great Sup Forums culture. For Earth.

Don't stay hooked on drugs. Do psychedelics without doing other drugs, and on your own in a safe enough place in nature. They can help you get off drugs.

Read personal development books.

is she hot

Thanks for this, again it kinda ties other shit in my life together too. I'm trying to be more forgiving but my anger and hatred is pretty deep at this point, but thanks anways

This guy. But OP is a fucking pussy

you sound like an arkansas fag trying to project b/c everyone knows it's those states that are known for that shit

oklahoma is like wyoming in a way almost nobody in america even remembers it exists.

anyway come catch these hands you little faggot i'll be waiting

lmfao underage spotted. you'll understand why drugs are so popular and used by literally every adult in some way or another when...wait for it...

you actually become one yourself! don't worry little Timmy, you'll be 21 in a decade or so

Yeahhh I pretty much am but I'm getting there don't worry. Red pill and all that shit, I'll be a hard ass cunt in no time

You're not a pussy

I've kinda had this same thing happen with my memories, I had gotten into an argument with a person. I was so ticked off I couldn't stop thinking about it. A day later, I thought about it so much I thought that I made it up and it was all a dream. Later got my friend to confirm it for me.

I've been laughing at this image for a solid 2 minutes

Same lmao

OP, please hear what I'm trying to say here.

Forgive her and move on.

Tell her you've forgiven her and move on.

Pedosexuality is not evil. It is natural.

Killing is evil, and is also natural.

The difference is that children CAN and DO consent. Only when the adult in the relationship takes on the very big responsibility of educating and caring for the child's needs, including their need of being able to live a life of harmony despite being different from other people, can the consent be real and true and not traumatic to them in the future.

Are secrets good or bad, Timmy?
"Secrets are bad!"
That's right, Timmy. When you keep something a secret, and it's because someone hurt you or you hurt someone else, it is bad because it stays in your heart or in theirs, and it keeps hurting. You have to tell someone who loves you and cares about you, like myself or your mom or dad.
But you know, there can be good secrets, too.
Sometimes two friends can share a secret, and it's something they don't feel bad about. In fact, they can enjoy what they do and can find it very fun! But some things that friends can do and have fun doing, other people might think is wrong or bad. If the two friends know they are not hurting anyone, it's not bad if they keep what they do a secret. So they can keep it a secret, and smile every time they meet or when they think about it, and always have this special connection.

ok so that's a little example.

i could only read like half of that before my autism radar went off and i had to nope out of there b4 i contracted assburgers from your post

not OP by the way, i'm sure he will enjoy your gay post

Holy shit this isn't even pasta.

OP I'm the dude that asked all those questions, and all that.

I know I should learn boundaries, and not over-step my welcome so much...

but I have a very different viewpoint from most people. Even from most anons. That's why I wrote what I wrote, above.

The little dialogue I gave is a very basic idea of how to develop an understanding and some level of consent and a healthy relationship with a little one.

My point is: your sister also had to deal with a lot of grief over her desires and actions. Most people have a great amount of grief and remorse in their lives. I also have my share of it, and because of some discipline which I have applied to my life, I've been able to educate myself about the things which involve me.

Start having faith in people, OP. Start giving.

It will pay off so much. Believe that it will.

Sayonara.

>dude you're not the victim lmao

I forgot to add, after I said, "my point is:"

OP, your sister didn't and probably still doesn't know what I know. That's why I'm trying to understand better. I know she wronged you.

I'm just trying to say that part of the reason she wronged you is because of her ignorance. Her ignorance to your beauty and your worthiness of love, as well as her ignorance of communication.

Many pedos accept what society says, so much that they never even try to disprove society.

Kind of like a juvenile delinquent who has always been called that. He believes it himself, and no longer dreams of being anything else. He no longer believes that he can be good, that someone like him can be good.

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