So, this is it. I got 24 beers (my stomach can't handle wine or strong liquor) and will end it tonight/tomorrow morning. No, I will not do an hero on stream. I will go quietly and unnoticed. Thanks for all the fun over the years, Sup Forums Sup Forums and really Sup Forums which is the real Sup Forums nowadays. I have a brain-fuckup causing me to get more and more anxiety every year, and the only solution is to either drug myself braindead on benzos, or just end it. I'm tired. I don't want to be a zombie. I used to be a very social guy, I was a semi-pro swimmer, had a good life. But every day now is pure torture.
Just to make sure this couldn't get traced by mods/staff, I am making this post via Tor. It was hell finding an exit-node that wasn't banned.
Thanks for all the joy. Over and out from a fellow Sup Forumstard and originalfag. Believe me, I will be better off this way.
Well shit. I hope you don't do it. But if you must go, enjoy the peace and silence of the dreamless sleep.
Carson Powell
dont do it user i belive in you
Tyler Williams
>Sup Forumsack has brain problems
Not surprised tbh
Christian Price
Enjoy the afterlife user
Blake Lopez
>dubs
Parker Roberts
I'm just gonna grab my beers, hang a bit here and Sup Forums, enjoy some youtube and get shitfaced and then be over with it. I am very set on what being done, as my clarity in the writing should show. I'm just so tired.
But thanks for the sentiment. I'm just going to enjoy my drunk evening for now, then be gone.
Just a casualfag though. Not even lurking daily.
Not going to reply more since my anxiety is making me fucking paranoid of mods/staff calling this in to "help me"
Gabriel Jenkins
> not looking into drug trials and alternative therapies Coward.
Wyatt Peterson
user, I know the general consensus here is to egg you on, but I strongly urge you to reconsider. You probs have already made up your mind. I've struggled with depression my whole life and I know how you're feeling, I've been there. It's corny as fuck, but it really does get better. I never believed anyone when they told me that, but hopefully you are smarter than me. Think it over a bit more and ask yourself " How will this affect the people around me?" Best wishes user. That is if you aren't already lying in a pool of your own blood, piss and shit.
Connor Harris
>24 beers
You'll be an hero to nobody.
Have fun with your moderate hangover
John Richardson
Not the beer that is ending it, that is just the tool so I don't chicken the fuck out
Oh, I've tried it all, including experimentals. Shrooms kinda helped, but not in the long run.
I guess I am replying ...
Adam Brooks
Expected someone with some terminal shit. Shit like this really blows because you can win the fight against your own mind, it's entirely in your hands.
You threw in the towel instead, bye I guess..
Nathaniel Thompson
>Implying mods can't smell b8
SLIDD THRED
Leo Clark
I'll miss you. user stuck in the same situation here, so I know what's like. Fuck, my best friend did the same thing 2 years ago and I still miss him everyday. Hope you find peace.
Andrew Perry
While not physically terminal, my case is so bad, I got recommended moving somewhere where assisted suicide is legal. I am on a type of disability that allows for moving abroad and still keep the money, so my psychiatrist suggested I move and get the help I can't get here. He wants me drugged down on benzos if I didn't do that. I think this is the easier way though.
David Adams
I know ... it's why I've held back so long. It hurts people.
OK, now I'm not doing any more replies, think I've said all that I wanted to be said. Thank you for all your stupid fun over the years.
Isaac Bailey
Many mental disorders are chemical. If you literally produce less neurotransmitters than others, you are unable to feel happy or you experience anxiety. Same would be to say to someone with autism: bro, you can win the fight against your mind.
It's bullshit.
Easton Long
op why dont you just abandon ur current life and go traveling in some cheap asian country. just sell all ur shit and leave. a coworker i know went to something simular and he did it. hes happy now
Liam Flores
Come on mate. At least stay on for a bit. We all sure as fuck have the time.
Julian Lopez
Where abouts you from user?
Jace Morgan
Later alligator
Elijah Lewis
Sorry to hear things aren't getting better user. Really hoping you find a different light out of the tunnel, but if this is how it has to be then it's been fun. See you on the other side.
Grayson Campbell
My friend didn't hurt me at all, I loved him. I didn't mind his nervousness or twitches, I saw who he really was and loved him for it. Even if he would stay in his room all day, too afraid to go out, peeing in a fucking bucket to avoid people, he held no one back. But it's not about anyone else, it's about you. If you feel you can't go on, there's no shame in that. Love you OP, whoever and wherever you are.
Justin Miller
Sleep tight, friendo.
Juan Reyes
Dont do it user. I love you stay strong.
Hunter Morris
Take moar shrooms. I've heard they do help long-term. There was a study on cancer patients and they experienced positive effects years after a single dose. Maybe try weed under doctor supervision. If this is where you're at might as well try them.
Jeremiah Smith
>I got 24 beers and will end it tonight youre going to be so bloated
Joseph Price
Could mental disorder develop over time?
I feel like my anxieties, paranoia and such was developed through my childhood from my parents.
It's not severe but it's definitely there.
Gavin Foster
I guess I am still replying. What the hell else am I gonna do, getting drunk and nothing new on youtube ... I'm in Norway.
I've discussed getting psilocybin (shrooms, truffles) with my psychiatrist, it's just too hard to import even with a prescription, despite he absolutely is on board with it. But my experiments with it has for me just been temporary escapes. All good trips, but nothing lasting.
Gavin Bell
OP here, in my case, it is physical. Not cancer, but my brain is fucked, and my future is grim.
Ethan Jackson
Long term weed smoker here. Don't. If you struggle with anxiety you should stir clear from weed. Try shrooms under psychotherapist supervision. There's a psychotherapist in Switzerland who is legally allowed to use shrooms, look him up and see if there's someone similar you can reach out to. If you already made your decision that you're finally tired of life go ahead and end it. You'll make a lot of people sad but it's your life and thus your decision, and after the initial hurt I'm sure they'll understand
Ethan Bell
OP here. Weed actually increases my anxiety to insane levels, even strains supposed to calm you.
Lincoln Cook
EAT MORE SHROOMS YOU FUCK.
TAKE SOME DMT BEFORE YOU FUCKING KILL YOURSELF OP.
IF YOU SMOKE SOME DMT YOU WILL LITERALLY EXPERIENCE DEATH AND COME BACK REBORN NIGGA.
CMON BRO
TAKE MORE PSYCHEDELICS BEFORE YOU TAKE THE ULTIMATE TRIP: DEATH.
Brody Gomez
I hope you got to experience a little joy in life before you go. I’ll probably be heading down the same road as you in the near future if things don’t change for me. Good luck man, I hope you find peace Also if you’ve got a wife or kids, don’t be a fucking pussy and try to weasel your way out of life. If theirs people that depend on you your times not done yet
Chase Parker
Ah. I can't imagine what's that like.
Whatever choice you make, hopefully it's better than whatever you are going through.
Logan Reyes
I've had a very good run. No wife or kids. I have x's that I still love and still love me. I had to break up with my latest wonderful x because I could only hear her cry so many times out of frustration. I would be on the kitchen floor crying in fear, while hearing her cry from not being able to help me. I broke it off. We still have contact though, and I help her on shows with her dogs. Again, one of the reasons I've put it off, is because I have great friends and family. But I've finally come to the point where I don't think I should suffer for them any longer. Call me ego, I don't fucking care.
Adrian Perry
That's a lie, I care. Just not enough to live for others.
Levi Myers
Seems thread is dying. Thanks for replies. Sup Forums can be kind when they want to. I will miss you, if there is an afterlife.
Brody Cooper
You can't be that much of a faggot posting a superior girl like that. I'm sorry for whatever led you to thiis point. We are all here for you user We'll remember you
kek I don't care about your suicide. I only posted so I could bypass youtubes age login bullshit.
Dominic Richardson
Good. Sup Forums is back to form.
Nicholas Howard
24 beers won't kill you.
Jose Jenkins
How new are you to the internet
Fucking 12 yo kids have fake youtube accounts
Brandon Collins
as OP has said before, It's not gonna be the beer that's killing him.
Connor Ramirez
As said below, the beers are just the tool so I don't fucking chicken out later.
Ryan Gonzalez
And on that, I'm getting drunk faster than I thought, only into my 8'th beer and think I'm soon gonna fire up the car. I am taking a loooong time to make sure I am not making typos here. I think I'll take another two beers. Maybe I'll make a goodbye-selfie in the car. NO, I am not gonna speed adn kill anyone, tube from exhaust.
Carter Gutierrez
did you fucking listened to Scatman?
Hunter Sanchez
And nothing of value was lost.
Alexander Cooper
Thats the quickest and painless way to go out tbh
I'll tell you to stop and not kill yourself but it's your choice. It pains me to know you want to do this, I am an eternal optimist when it comes to other people and it hurts when people take their own life. That being said, only you can know when you've had enough. Know that I love you(no homo) and wish things were different...
Aaron Fisher
You know what is really sad? What really breaks my heart and I know will hurt my father and is a big reason I need to get drunk? I asked my father to get the tubes because I lied about getting a new airconditioner, and it needed tubes to vent out .....
Parker Morales
Fucking hell I hate myself sometimes, please forgive me
Jayden Mitchell
Damn... he's gonna be heartbroken when he finds out
This is a chance to back out, you don't have to do this.
Jaxson Garcia
Hope u pass out from the alcohol before getting in the car. U sound like a smart dude. Be a zombie on mess until u level out and feel normal again. It may take time but I will look back and be thankful u didn't go through with it...then u can help other anons into not doing it
Jaxson Hall
Oops autistic stroke messed up grammar. Don't do it OP. Just go to sleep██████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████████
Matthew Fisher
damn I wish ending it for me was as easy as just drinking some beers
Caleb Hill
Again, the reason I haven't done it so far, is because I have wonderful friends and family. But how long are you goiung to torture yourself for others?
Again, original post is misleading. The alcohol is just a tool so I don't chickem out, but I'm already getting kinda drunk
Jacob Cruz
I understand that... is there no hope of improving your situation though? Why not torture yourself for your own sake?
Gavin Peterson
At least go columbine
Jackson James
I'm not sado ... and no, according to countless tests the only option is heavy drugs. I used to self-medicate on heroin to get peace just once in a while (not an addict, I used it maybe once every 3 months), I have no wish being addicted to anything
No thanks. I don't want to hurt anyone.
AAAAAAND, with that, I'm out. Getting drunk. Might post retarded selfie in car in a couple of hours
Camden Phillips
See ya space cowboy
Chase Bailey
This thread will be dead by then. No one will remember you user. Goodnight
