Today's my 34th birthday. spending it alone, again. I'm thinking about killing myself

today's my 34th birthday. spending it alone, again. I'm thinking about killing myself.

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Youre ok buddy.

ok happy birth

sorry to hear that

Do it and stop whining.

Why so sad user?

Do it. Nobody would care. It's not like you're ever going to accomplish anything, anyways.

take as many out as you can none of this matters

I used to think I could somehow find some kind of meaning or purpose, or find a girl to be with to bring some kind of meaning to my life but there's just nothing, nobody knows I exist. I just don't know how much longer I can go for.

fuck just do it, i might do it too

32
no job
no gf
what i do for a living doesnt get a job
is freelance only
im screwed

>muh loneliness
Fuck off, normalfag.

Mine is in a couple of days. Same shit. 30 and has nothing to show for myself.
What is the best way to an hero in a country where you can't get firearms?

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do it faggot

Did you ever entertain the notion that you're alone because you made a choice to be alone?

My Bday was on Monday and I spend it alone and It was a blast, got stoned and played Wildlands on my ps4

Life is good.

I have had gf, they do not help. They actually put an extra pressure on your ass.

Happy 34th! Sorry today sucks, but things can get better. Hang in there.

I used to be able to do as you do, but somehow I can't anymore and I don't know why. I feel like I've run out of energy.

You're telling me you aren't sad 364 days a year but just because you were born on that specific day it makes you feel sad because you are alone?

The last person who asked me a tip on how to kill herself I called the cops on her and I had to pick her up from the hospital and we ended up being fuck buddies

You're 34 go make friends loser.

32 and still thinks life is only about a gf and a job, you aint learned nothing boy

happy birthday user, go build a beeramid!

do it faggot

It's called growing up, growing out of the lonely madman phase and realizing that you are a social creature and you need human contact and that video games get boring, dull and meaningless in the long term. This is usually the point where you either kill yourself, or go out and interact with other humans. I've been there too.

If pic related, then yes do it.

This will be the 31st christmas that I spend alone. I have no friends and no family which cares whether I'm alive or dead. I used to spend christmas day sitting on the railing of a bridge or with my feet hanging off the edge of a building wondering if this was the year I decided enough was enough, but now I just spend the whole day sleeping. You'll find that isolation becomes easier as time passes.

If you look up the "Pit of Despair" experiments with monkeys, you'll see that isolation causes permanent changes in the brain. At a certain point, other monkeys will begin avoiding and/or bullying the broken monkey, since it no longer has the capacity to socialize properly. This is an adaptation to allow survival in isolation. All of this happens quite naturally and without effort. You'll find that your brain will reprogram itself to no longer require any contact with others.

i got no friends too

hows life not about a job? how do you pay for house and food?

damn youre the niggest

No, I am actually sad all the time. Do not remember when I had a laugh last time.
A birthday is a day to relfect on a passed year. And it is shit. I am shit, to be honest.
The first part is that I am not alone and people care about me. And I feel like I fail them all the time.
I just can't have a life like this anymore and want to end it. But I have a strong sense of self preservation, so I would not be able to go out of window. I think of getting drunk and hanging myself.

Edgefag u should kys more than OP should

>You'll find that your brain will reprogram itself to no longer require any contact with others
How to expedite this? Smoke tons of weed?

He is actually quite rightwhy should I live a life of shit? Working dead end minimal wage job until the day I die?

>getting drunk and hanging myself
Good plan tbh. Idk if it's just me, but when I drink, suicide feels way less stressful. Also make sure u drop hang if ur actually planning on doing it, much higher success rate and less pain

No, it just happens through isolation. You can't stop it or speed it up. It causes permanent physiological changes in the brain.

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Wasn't saying u shouldn't, just that he should

Fucking this! Appreciate the smaller things in life. Playing vids and getting high sure beats being dead.

if you killed yourself that would be failing them x1000. how about you man the fuck up?

I kinda low key want to suffer, so I would go for suffocation

unless you live in a 3rd world shithole country like brazil, you can live quite good with a minimal wage.

Just go to a bar, talk to the bartender while you drink some whiskey, and fuck some hooker afterwards.

and the award for shittiest advice ever goes to....

if youre working minimum wage you cant afford to drink whisky at a bar faggot. let alone talking to a stupid bartender that doesn tgive a shit about you and fucking a hooker that doesnt give more of a fuck about you.

Just get drunk, go outside. Beats hanging yourself every time, if you're lucky you might get shot

Whatever, m8. I'm a multimillionaire with 3 wives and 11 kids. I don't even work, my money just replicates on its own.

I live in Russia, so yeah
You ain't shit here unless you got some money
I can't man up, that is the reason why I consider myself a total failure.
I can't even sleep anymore. I sleep every other night for like 4 hours.

Well well welp

Man life is far too full of bullshit .... learn to let shit go and consider enjoying what life has to offer then have what you love destroy you then again if you are days from already dying from health complications then ohhh welp

I was really depressed when I was 25-28 OP...
I thought about ending it...

I didn't. I'm 39 now. Making $90K a year. Great kiddo. Awesome life.

It gets better.

oi before you kill yourself you shold donate and help my family

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You do you, buddy. Just make sure to livestream it for us, if you really go through with it (but I doubt you will tbh, just sounds like you're having a bad year, you'll hopefully get over it). Anyways, that's what I'm gonna do, just gotta wait a week or so... ;)

i feel you my dude. i feel like i having nothing to hold on to and just feel like a slave working so other people can enjoy life but fuck it im gonna enjoy what i got and thats it.

Hang in there dude. Maybe try some volunteer work in another country. Travel/helping others/ getting out of your own head. Worked for me. Change your scenery, step out of your comfort zone. You will not regret it.

I would do it in the woods. Do not want to do it at home, I have heard that it reduces the value of property. So no Livestream for you, sorry.

you are absolutely retarded, probably a dirty br

Livestream it in the woods, my dude?

Get your ass to the scrip club, buy some blow, and get some hookers to rub themselves all over your cock.

And quit being a pussy. If you still wanna kill yourself tomorrow go ahead, but at least go out with a band.

I used to think the same. But I managed to get a gf who is super successful and loves me and believes in me for some reason. So I made an effort to achive something and I failed spectacularly. I feel very ashamed and think of living her and offing myself.do not want to drag her with me.

you think a bartender or a hooker cares about you while i have actual girls that care about me despite having no friends and no family? I'm not the one that's retarded buddy. You probably have "love dont pay the bills" posted somewhere on your social media , just kill yourself

why cant you man up? or sleep? whats the problem? maybe you need some help?

Happy birthday buddy.
Why don't you go hang out at a bar or a club or something this evening? You might finally find a friend. Just let the alcohol give you a personality and talk to people. Just say something cheesy ironically but not too creepy if you're talking to a girl.

Trust me it works. Used to be like you.

Also dont mention its your birthday right away.

It just doesn't feel right. I am embarrassed if myself, that is why I want to end it. Livestreaming is like an opposite.

Well then Happy Birthday user

why do you have such a bitch boy mentality? if you fail at something, you go at it again with more effort, wtf.. if she cares about you then she would be really sad if you did that

the older you get the stronger the urge to die becomes hold out until your 70's then do all the drugs you can get your hands on #worth it

Try some supplements like fish oil. They helped me. If not then I'd say go off the rails use heroin for a few months then kill ourself. No sense in wasting away. Live life while u can

I can't man up cause I have no will power and too afraid if life. It has got worse as years passed by. Now it is hard for me even to eat or to brush my teeth.
I can't sleep cause I am afraid of the day to come.

start walking faggot, when hunger sets in you'll realize what your purpose is.

Same, but who cares what others think, if you're gonna be dead like 5 minutes later

alright, let's take humans for an example.

we are floating in an infinite space. maybe someone knows about our existence, we just have no idea. some day randomly, we will be hit by a random asteroid and die, or we will just die of time (the sun runs out of energy), either way we are going to die. so, we need to expand and colonize another planet, but if we stop there, then we are going to die again. So the moral is, always keep going, because when you stop, you die

You have to have at least a little bit of faith in success to try again, I do not. I blew my chances, I am done.
She would be said, but I do not want her to spend her time on me, she deserves better. Now she is on a very high level, I think she would be a VP in a couple of years in huge fmcg company. And what an I? I am qualified to jack shit, literally unemployable.

Try nutritional supplements to get you back to baseline your numerous transmitters horomones and tons of other things are made from vitamins and minerals. Try probiotics. Bad bacteria and yeast cause depression try taking a lot of shrooms it can be drastic fr some people

>You dile
That is like the point if this conversation

love is all that matters my dude i dont know why youre being so obsessed with being financially successful especially since your wife already is? who cares .. just do whatever the fuck you want

Do not want this to be newsworthy
The last faggot who streamed his death was on TV for a week. Do not want to do this to my family.

I turned 42 years old on Monday, I just got a few text from family me members and I don't tell anyone of fb when is my bday.

Try nutritional supplements to get you back to baseline your numerous transmitters horomones and tons of other things are made from vitamins and minerals. Try probiotics. Bad bacteria and yeast cause depression try taking a lot of shrooms it can be drastic fr some people. Watch the paul stamets joe rogan podcast. I wouldn't try shrooms until you try the supplements. I was incapacitated by depression and anxiety and still have it to some degree but I'm miles from where I was because of supplements. Multi vitamin b complex fish oil msm B6 zinc D3 probiotics iodine to name a few. I'd be interested to know how they effect you. It was overnight for me

I think it has something to do with abusive narcissistic father. I do not have a sense of self worth.

Like I literally suffer every moment cause I am a piece of shit. Can't even distract myself from these thoughts

Ez
Dont be a asshole pussy
Be a fich

are you me?

yeah well clearly most people on this thread have some kind of mental disorder like depression or something.

i used to be like you and im not gonna lie i still am lonely af, no friends, no family. but at least now i have some girls that somehow care about me, because i didnt give up and you should consider at least giving life a shot before ending it. pretty sure you cant understand this when youre in a depression but this is like a cry for help you need to get some people to help you that's all you just need people in your life i know how you feel

SHRROOOOOMMMS

are you fuckin retarded? Do some cool shit why the fuck would you kill yourself, do you have that bad of an ability to extrapolate?

I understand you palo
But hey, if youre not a big asshole piece of shit with a bad reputation you actually have a oportunity

don't be a faggot, stay alive

Man, what do you mean by giving a life a shot?
I travelled a lot - drove mustang coast to coast in the us, smoked hashish in katmandu, made a pilgrimage to mt kaylas in Tibet etc
I went skydiving, scoobadiving
I worked various jobs - HTML developer, agricultural manager, managed a production line on textile factory, worked as a human rights defender in fucking Russia
I have friends and family, great gf
And I am fucking miserable every waking moment and f my life
I am in agony, in pain
What else can I do besides suicide?

Please don't try you might end up physically or mentally handicapped with a lot less control your life. I never thought I'd end like this. I was 19 depressed I was a virgin. Now im a 25 year old quadriplegic who cant masturbate burden of state cant own more than $2000 worth of anything. I used to dj I could have been amazing. Now I'm literally stuck.

No GF is not the worst thing in the world. it actually frees you up quite a bit

No job? go find one! scrub toilets suck dick, go make a buck

Living? Motherfucker go find yourself a cheap van deck the shit out of it and go live on the road.

Life as a hobo is still a life and if you're living that's good too.

holy shit dude, what did you do?

Holy shit, nice unholy trips for my post

Good point, satan

it's your birthday?
that's great, I'm sure you'll do great things in the future, try to have fun with random things and happy birthday: D
(LOL, it's funny, my birthday and my brother's is also today xD)

When I turned 34, I weighed 320# and was unemployed and living with my mom and dad, sleeping on the couch until 4 PM. I had one friend and made enough money to buy Starbucks by cleaning my parents and grandparents friends' yards.

I spent most of my birthdays between 29 and 37 by myself, not telling any casual acquaintances what day it was. I told my mom not to bother making me a cake or taking me out to dinner.

Ten years later, I make $150K. Don't lose hope. But, you will finally decide to pull your shit together and don't push people's help away. I pushed people away for ten years. Accepting help from people made all the difference.

>Ten years later, I make $150K
Money can't cure loneliness.

Hey man, I push people away all the time. The worst thing is that I actually greatly enjoy socializing. But at one point I just barricade and stop answering them on calls or messages.

So, I guess that no one has advice on that.
Well, no other options.

Is OP your brother? You should call him.

Jumped headfirst from a moving truck..twice. second impact shattered my neck vertebrae. Woke up 2 days later in icu on breathing machine

Nobody can help you off yourself now?

its not about caring you fuckign nigger sperg.

its abotu having a conversation, anyone can benefit from that, and the bartender woudl also like it, presuming hes not a sperg like you.

you shoudl kys more than anyone here, dirty br nigger.

No, the OP is not my brother, I am not good at writing in English, I must have written the structure of the message wrong, sorry for the mistake; 3;
although if I could, I would like to call him to wish him a happy birthday :D

>Jumped headfirst from a moving truck..twice

twice?

HB FAGGOT

Solitude is fucking awesome though

Why do people who consider this never decided to go out like a fucking boss

quit your job like a fucking legend to be told for years to come for all new hires to your shithole of a workplace.
max out credit cards get expensive ass car no money down vacation have a super expensive orgy go raw(fuck it if you really are gonna off yourself right?) an just do some legendary an hero shit.