I just drank half a mug of bourbon in less than 20 minutes ask me anything

I just drank half a mug of bourbon in less than 20 minutes ask me anything

Why are you posting and not killing yourself?
Just fucking do it. We don't care. Bye.

Because any friends I might trust enough to message while I'm this drunk are offline
Jm Not killing myself cause I know at least two of my friends that need me to stay alive or else they might do the same. I'm in love with one of them, and the idea of her dying makes me see red.
If you didn't care you wouldn't have taken the time to post, even if it took less than a minute. I know Sup Forums is basically normie central but you guys aren't a hive mind, not yet anyway

wow you're hardcore

11/10

How am I hardcore? What are you even referring to? I just made this thread so I'd have sokmeone to talk to

Hi. You plan on jerking it or what?

full cup of triple distilled vodka under 4 minutes.why world is so cruel? also op love you for not killing yourself

how old are you what you do for living whats your dick size

Yeah this

Thanks for being nice.
I don't, I was just having a rough night and all of my friends have gone to bed. I'm curse toy playing The Witcher 3, for like the 5th time, that's as far as I've planned. I don't think I'm gonna jerk it tonight.

Props for being able to down that, I was hurting just from my cheap bourbon. Thanks for the encouragement, I've tried before but I'm a slow beeder so cutting my wrists didn't work

I'm 22, I'm currently a student, hoping I pass these last two classes this semester, and my dick size is small. Idk the exact measurement cause I don't really wanna know. I'm a sub tho so I prefer my tongue to my dick

no amount of pain can heal us. "Man cannot remake himself without suffering, for he is both the marble and the sculptor. Alexis Carrel" live on live strong. whats hurting you ?

an hero

Can a man be an island?
And what do you think, if there would be life in cosmos, intelligent life, could it be possible that they got a completely different math system but still reach the same goals?

what are you studying? got gf? bf? u are you happy with the relationship?

Your quote is completely right, I know I can't remake myself without suffering, but my daily life is suffering so maybe I'm remaking myself.

Since you aren't involved, I'll tell you. I can't tell anyone else cause the girl I love doesn't share my feelings. We're both adults, I'm 22 she's a few years older than me, I think 27. I don't really care about the age gap, I'm naturally submissive so I think someone older than me is naturally more attractive.
Anyways, she and I are long distance friends, she's told me things that she hasn't told her IRL friends, like her fetishes and her relationship goals. The reason I'm hurting is that I'm hardcore crushing on her, but she only sees me as a friend and has feelings for someone else. She's told me this, because I've told her my true feelings. I know it was my mistake to do that, but it felt right at the time. Anyways, she wants someone exactly like me, someone that's crazy about her that would never cheat on her, that thinks she's the most beautiful person in the world. Meanwhile here I am, completely smitten for her, and I mean I can't find a single thing wrong with her, unlike my other crushes from years ago that I would have said "I can deal with these flaws" about, I love every "flaw" she has, I think she's the most beautiful person alive, and despite knowing her for only a few months, I'm convinced she's the one.

tl;dr: I love someone that's looking for someone that fits my description but for some reason she doesn't love me back.

So basically 6 shots, that's honestly not that much, OP

how much is half a mug?
what kind of stupid measurment is that.
also what kind of bourbon ?

Yes to both of your answers. I assume your first question is metaphorical, meaning that a man can be alone and still survive and exist. I firmly believe that there are men out there that would enjoy life as hermits, cut off from society entirely and living their own lives away from the rest of his species. If you meant that literal, then yes I suppose technically a man could be an island.

As far as the maths question, I don't even understand our maths beyond college algebra, let alone another species. But yeah, I do think they could come up with different formulae and still reach the same conclusion, be it through different numbering systems or through logical comparisons, I think it's entirely possible. I mean our kind are still coming up with new ways to figure out maths.

I'm studying Human Resources. I know it sounds lame and is hated by most people but I think I can change that, at least in the company or branch I end up assigned to. I understand people and also business tactics, so I think I'm uniquely gifted in that way, since most people either lean one way or another.

I don't have a gf, and I'm straight so the bf doesn't apply to me. The gf thing is why I'm drunk, if you've read my other posts you know why. I can't tell any of my friends since she's asked for total confidentiality but you're all anonymous and I don't think either of us could be identified solely from the information I'm posting.

six fl oz which is equivalent to six pussy shots or four normal ones

That's fucking nothing you little bitch.

I'm still relatively new to alcohol so I don't have a super high tolerance. I haven't gotten to the point that I'm throwing up yet, so I think that's a good sign.

I'll admit I'm not sure how much the mug can hold, but it's at least 10oz. The half I filled is just a bit smaller than my coffee mug which can easily hold 16oz, so I'd estimate maybe 12oz. I didn't expect to drink that much but by the time I was done pouring it was halfway filled and I figured I'd deal with it.

It was significantly more than I normally drink, and I've also had at least 3 shots since then to keep being drunk.

To no one in particular, thank you all for responding to this thread, it's nice to have company, even if I don't have names associate with posts.

My freshman year of highschool I was a 5'6" 115lb scrawny little shit. It still took me at least 6 shots to feel even mildly drunk

Its 11 am and i havent sleep a damn
What do i fuckin do now?

I do that three or four times a night on weekdays
Weekends are crazy

I'm not here to have a pissing contest with you user. You must have some genetics that allows you to have a high tolerance of alcohol.

My heart says you should sleep, unless you have plans today. My head says you should start working out, no matter how /fit/ you are. Whichever you choose, godspeed user.

How much do you do on weekends? I'm actively trying not to become an alcoholic so I'm trying to limit myself to once a week, max.

you are not submissive rather your child hood designed you in this way. you have that calm but loving and efforting personality. you suffered enough but i am sorry to say she is not the one you deserve better love is two way path and we all been there chasing a dream a crush "she dont love you" then why you have to suffer? what are you less of human? your feelings matter you matter love and your love for others matter.sweet heart you are young continue

I cant*
But youre a drunk ass so its fine

well the people telling OP to kill himself are right but he wants to sit there and have a fucking conversation

don't feed the troll. troll the troll. Lets start posting random shit to derail this.

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Oh no I'm definitely submissive. Even the idea of doing something a dominant partner would do makes me feel bad and wrong. Unless you meant "naturally submissive", in which you may be correct, I can't know that for sure without outside help in the way of psychologists though, and I don't care to waste so much money and time on that. I'm submissive, and quite frankly I'm comfortable being submissive so there's no problem there.
About the love bit, I think I can glean what you mean, though I am still drunk and can't fully understand because you type in what seems like broken English? I mean no insults, that's simply how I perceive it. I do 100% think she's the one for me though, as there's nothing that I dislike of her, aside from her interest in someone else. I absolutely adore this person. You may be right, user, but my heart disagrees.

I've tried killing myself but I think I explaine dthat I'm not real good at bleeding. I cut my wrists down the arm but not enough blood came out. Stained my bedsheets and I felt woozy the next morning, but nothing more than that.
I'm too cowardly to attempt any other way of becoming an hero, but if there were a woman that would choke me to death I'd happily allow it.

a female friend asked me to make her and her lesbian gf a kid, i dont have to pay for it or anything else, just sleeping with her and i can see the baby sometimes when i like.
What do you think about rhat deal and would it make myself more happy? I mean i reached one biological part of life then and dont have to stress myself with getting kids anymore

you are young.please go ask any physiotherapist dick size does not matter we should be sorry for making size matter to sell pills. you are using alcohol to cope very normal in your case of depression.human experience is most difficult one try this self help therapy "rewire richard o'connor" and find someone that loves you and cares for you. no more crushes

>but if there were a woman that would choke me to death I'd happily allow it.
Are you me?

I don't know you user but if it were me I'd do it to make my friend happy.
Based on what you said, I think you're tempted to do it but afraid because you don't want your genes out there without your input. Ultimately I'd say do it, user. Godspeed.

I appreciate your kind words and intentions user, though I've gone my entire life without finding someone to genuinely care for me. I had two girlfriends in high school, one cheated on me immediately and the other simply never showed any form of affection. At age 22 I feel that there's no other explanation than I'm defective and something is wrong with me that allows me to be a friend but not a boyfriend. I don't know what it is, nobody will tell me, even if they do know, but that's the conclusion I've come to. I'll look into the book that you've mentioned, I promise, but beyond that I cannot promise anything. I simply do not feel I am capable of being loved.

Honestly user I'm wasted enough that I could be, what color is your hair?

sorry for broken english not my first language . being submissive in long term will give you financial and emotional problems. since i said i love you i dont want you to get hurt further more. every feeling you have its worth more than her breath you deserve better

nigger rape

your condition is called "self destructive behavior " consider a giant hurricane thats you. you suffer from depression and CBT these are behavior disorder no medication can fix that only therapy or self therapy .

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Your words are very kind user. For English as a second language you're doing better than my friends that know English as a first language.
It's hard to say that my own feelings are worth more than hers, she's a very kind person, even to the people of /r9k/, where I met her. I know you don't want me to hurt more, but I feel that my life is nothing but hurting.

I do enjoy CBT but I was being serious when I said I'm small. I'm maybe 3-4 inches, I haven't measured girth.
I know I'm depressed, but I don't know how to fix it beyond getting a girlfriend that loves me.

Let me explain in the only way I can. Let's pretend life is a video game, I'm sure we can all relate at least a little. My main quest is to be loved romantically. That's the main thing I want, everything else is secondary. My depression stems from what appears to be my inability to be loved. I know what caused it but I don't know how to fix it beyond getting a gf.

I know that's probably a cringey explanation but that's the best way I can explain it.

“When you have a persistent sense of heartbreak and gutwrench, the physical sensations become intolerable and we will do anything to make those feelings disappear. And that is really the origin of what happens in human pathology. People take drugs to make it disappear, and they cut themselves to make it disappear, and they starve themselves to make it disappear, and they have sex with anyone who comes along to make it disappear and once you have these horrible sensations in your body, you’ll do anything to make it go away.”
Bessel A. van der Kolk

Who is that person? That's very close to me, except for the sex part. I don't have sex with anybody unless I really care about them. I'm not into casual sex.

you hurt enough to seek love romance from every where. so what its small? there are medical procedures and you will not be the first or last guy to go through. average length of female vagina 4 to 5 inches porn star removes there internal organs so they can fit 10 to 11 inches. sweetie complete your studies stay with therapy you will fail in first week but keep trying once you are financially stable you can change size. you matter your life goals matter are nothing more than help we will be gone when thread dies but you love never will be alone take the first step when you are sober

Sure i will do it, else i would be a faggot and a bad friend.
But do you think it stops some biological pressure? Im in mid 20.so i have time to make kids, but if i do it now i know even if i cant fight another right girl i still shared my genes

I have no intention to get surgery, I don't really mind my own size because it gives more encouragement to use my tongue, which I think I'd enjoy more anyways.
I greatly appreciate your encouragement user, I'll keep going as far as I can. I haven't even begun therapy because it's so expensive and anybody covered by my insurance is over an hour drive.
What's the first step, user? What do I need to do when I'm sober? I have a good drunk memory, but just in case I'll screencap it.

The worst thing that could happen is that you spread your genes. I don't fully understand that desire but I know it's important to men, so do it. Your friend picked you over other candidates for a reason, you must be something special, user.

and thats so nice of you.try free art you are so in tune with your emotions. also your way you will never get stds. sex is a mind game does not matter what you are packing when sex happens all your emotions feelings no male would get erection on climax every single neuron light up in brain thats the reason human body produces so many white blood cells and its healthy fuck a prostitute it causes depression

less worrying okay. you are 20 you have so much to live for so many girls to meet . you are looking for love not for crush and the girl that will fall in LOVE WITH YOU i promise you she will not care for penis size or looks she will love you for what you are.A beautiful soul. these are not just words but scince of love

Cbt is cognitive behaviour therapy you ass.

Seriously, you're young. Don't be dumb and start getting help now.

sweetie you are special i am just voice your rational side your reasoning nothing more i will be gone soon but you will make some girl really happy but not her she is kind and all but dont confuse kindness with love

in med terms its still called CBT behavior its mind fighting with CB hence called CBT its on going processes when it fails usually occur in suicide or faild CBT

I've been told a lot that I should try some form of art but the closest I can get is planning events for my friends. Like birthdays and stuff. I'm very good at making them feel important, and I think that's my creative outlet.
I'm not sure what you meant to say about prostitutes, would being with s prostitute help or not?
user you're so kind to encourage some random person on Sup Forums but the way I see it is that I have no reason to believe I'll be loved that way. I'm 22 and haven't even felt that in high school. I've been told I'm awesome or that girls would date me multiple tijmes by girls, but I've never actually been on a date, so entirely by precedent I don't really believe that I'll ever be loved.

I'm sorry user I browse /d/, when I see CBT I think cock and ball torture. It made a bit of sense with what you said.
Either way I can't afford therapy right now, though I wish I could. I'm not sure what they could do for me though.

It's not kindness, user. I've been around kind girls before, several of my best friends are kind girls. With her it's different. She falls asleep on the couch, she gets too anxious to go to the grocery store when she needs food, she absolutely adores her kitty, she loves the outdoors and camping. With every other girl I've had feelings for I could have said "I'll deal with that" but everything about her makes me wanna be with her more.

I know I'm all fucked up and a nolrmal person wouldn't feel this way, I'm oddly self aware about it from what I understand. But there's not much I can do myself, and idk how to get help without going into sever debt and also driving an hour away at least once a week

NO you are not fucked up. you are depress and its very normal in your case alcohol is coping mechanism and you got free session download this book from piratebay "Rewire by Richard O'Connor" its self help psychotherapyor try to get from audiobookbay.......and you still think she loves you then tell her you lover her...but keep a bottle of burbon near you so you can sleep afterwards also try the therapy it will change your life

I'll read/listen to that book, thanks for the advice user. I'm gonna try and get some sleep now since the sun is coming up where I am.
Your English is very good user, keep practicing and you'll be fluent in no time at all.

also try art drawing keep it personal and draw your feelings and no it dont have to be perfect just draw what you feel like its cure for your sensitive nature

love you and good morning sleep well