hardcore feels thread
>be me
>be 14
>live in shitty town noone cares about
>be in a really shitty and toxic relationship with some horse-faced cunt from the big city that was like 28 km away from my home-town
>one night i get a friend request
>oh my lord.this girl
>ginger bangs
>a lil` chubby
>the prettiest face i had ever seen until then
>she lives in a shitty town as well, a little closer to my home-town
>ohmygud.jpeg
>dump horse-face the night after
>for a month i try to get her attention as much as possible
>try to addapt my personality to her`s so she likes me
>after a month of awkward compliments and chatting online we finally meet up in some mall in the city
>be really nervous about our little "date"
>she gets there befroe me
>waiting for her by the front door of the mall, smoking a ciggarete to try and calm myself down
Hardcore feels thread
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Type more quickly, OP
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cont
>keep in mind that this was in december
>i quietly smoke my cigarette waiting for her to come out
>make up elaborate plan on how to kiss her
>this short, adorable girl burst out the door with her arms spread, wearing the most warm, true, and beautiful smile i have ever seen screaming "ANOOOOON"
>ohshit.jpeg
>forget everything
>abort abort
>i hug her and we go inside
>we walk for a while
>we go into the chidren`s park and sit down on a bench
>the sun was setting, chirstmas carols were playing and kids were playing around us
>her face
>oh my god
>her face
>i remain stunned with her beauty for a couple of minuntes
>she is silently scrolling trough her phone and texting some of her friends
>have a brilliant idea
>elaborate it for like 2 more minutes
>i say fuck it
>tell her "dude" and than lean in for a kiss
>it actually works
>after that we go to starbucks
>she gets a hot coco
>asks me if i want any
>"no thanks i don`t drink coffee"
>what the fuck is wrong with me?
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Am intrigued
please continue
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>after that date we start off our relationship
>for the next 3 months i was gliding
>she was the most loving, caring and just perfect human being
>teenagelove.mp3
>ohfuck
>i will never be able to describe to you the way i felt
>fast forward a couple of months later
>we start arguing a lot more often and we slowly drift apart from each other
>still tougheter for the sake of what once was
>a year after our first date
>things seem to get back in shape
>i`m attracted to her again
>can`t say the same for her
>it`s out aniversary
>she gets me a framed photo of the two of us and a ring
>a month later,in january she dumped me for some gym faggot in our high school
>5 years later diggin trough my old stuff
>find the picture, the ring, some love letters and a lot of other stuff
>start crying like a faggot
>she was the only one to bring me true happiness
>i never loved again
the ring is just as tight as it was back then
still fits tho
i guess i never gained weight `cuz i was a depressed faggot
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the framed picture of us
fuck, i was happy
that's some depressing shit user, you need to move on there are plenty of girls out there waiting for you
fuck off, get over it already. "tis better to have loved and lost than to cry about it on Sup Forums"
yeah but it`s never gonna be thesame
never heard that one before
fuck off, let me be sad
ouch mmy heart :/
It's all downhill from here user.
Life sucks then you die.
Thank you for playing.
Game over.
Read it and weep.
Time makes fools of us all.
Keep your chin up.
It's all for the best.
Dont make the same mistakes i did.
Everything happens for a reason.
Time heals all wounds.
Alls well that ends well.
Plenty of fish in the sea.
You should start lifting user, you got a pretty good face
Used to be depressed. Lost all my good habits and shit. I'm in a good school now but I can't even muster up the willpower to study. I believe I have avoidant personality disorder. Things that gave me great joy now only make me feel a tinge of happiness. It's like I have build up tolerance to feelings. I feel an intense fear of screwing up when I want to socialize so I mostly avoid socializing. I sweat so fucking much it ends up wetting my pants.
What the fuck am I supposed to do to fix those?
never go in without an escape plan unless you want to be a martyr
-filo user
But this means you're like early 20s, right? Don't worry user, one day you'll grow up and find a girl who youll actually be compatible with