I've been thinking about it for a long time now, and I think maybe tonight is the night I genuinely kill myself.
I just don't want to keep doing this anymore, you know? I can't stand being around my friends and family anymore, I can't stand having to face another day of responsibilities, bills or general day to day life. I don't even enjoy my hobbies anymore. I only feel a sort of directionless anxiety and nervous energy, and I can't ever escape it.
Ive been on meds for awhile now and they aren't helping. Talking to people isn't helping, self medication isn't helping, nothing is helping.
So genuinely, I think it's time I just remove myself.
Isaac Sullivan
Microdosing Lsd/shrooms did the trick for me in your situation
Dylan Campbell
don't do that, random Sup Forums guy. If you die now think of all the hentai you'll miss
Sebastian James
Right behind you op. I love the earth but i hate the world.
Gonna move my on/off switch to off
Lincoln Roberts
Im going to macrodose on bullets. Probably while in a kayak out to sea so i do the ol' sinkeroo
Dominic Gonzalez
I'll tell you the real secret that isn't a secret any idk how no one knows it. Stop fapping all the time, work out as much as possible, and work hard at things. I promise you this will remove your depression. Don't say shit like I've tried it because if you did and stuck to it you wouldn't feel depressed and sad. It worked 4 me and it will for you. Don't do it user anon there is alot to live for
Jonathan Morgan
When i feel like that I think about all the starving niggers and niglets and how they do anything to survive and by giving up and commiting suicide it makes you infinitely more pathetic than them.
Tyler Roberts
Do not cast yourself into darkness, brother!
Hope lies only a short distance away. Stop fapping, start working out and start going to church. Seek out those who you know care about you. There has to be someone you can open up to!
Lincoln Gomez
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Levi Gonzalez
Are you healthy? I feel the same as you, but on top of that I have peripheral neruopathy in my hands and feet as well as scleroderma. I have chronic pain as well as a disease that will eventually kill me. I'm 26 but I may only have 5-10 years give or take. Pain sucks but mental pain can be overcome, you just need to muster the strength to conquer it.
Don't give up just yet.
Austin Reed
I feel like this, can't find work, too cold to go outside. Ditched all friends coz they're shit. Sold all my belongings. Oh and no help at all.
Now I'm just depressed. But I know working hard as I can on anything I can do will help.
If there's no reason to live. That's a shitty reason to kill yaself, coz there's no reason to die then.
Juan Gray
Good advice, but it just wont work. This user or anyone else wont go through with this, bc the problem is exaktly that energy is messed up and will sabbotage his progress leaving him even more devestated failing what "would" save his life, now left with an idea that he cant do what it takes to feel good.
real question is probably what ideas in your life are you trying to achive that are so important they are mentally affecting you so hard you become suicidal?
i know myself i had alot of them, and when i finally dropped them i had easier time atleast somewhat doing what you wrote.
Jason Mitchell
>Pain sucks but mental pain can be overcome, you just need to muster the strength to conquer it. Yeah dude it's easy, why aren't you just being strong op LMAO
Tyler Taylor
Kek. Mah nigger.
Zachary Green
What meds have you been taking OP? Also, have you tried drugs or alcohol?
Eli Nguyen
Become muslim and submit your will to Allah.
Angel Ward
>stop fapping kys jew shill
Justin Cook
Suicide doesn't fix anything, just ends prevents any chance of anything better.
Throw yourself towards what you actually want to do. If you fail you shouldn't be unhappy because you're doing what you desire.
Brandon Evans
so he can take some infidels with him when he offs himself huh
Aiden Thomas
Who's gonna be your last fap?
Julian Flores
>stop fapping that'll remove your suicidal urges xd Nah, the world's fucked man Just make sure you take care of everything you need to before you do it if you care enough about certain people in your life
Chase Hernandez
user - I am not OP, but I feel much like OP. I am going to try your advice. It makes sense to me.
Mason Hernandez
post nudes if over 18, you're gonna be dead tomorrow, who cares?
Jaxson James
If that were true you wouldn't be posting here
Sebastian Jenkins
There's really no real answer to what you're asking, it's your choice at the end of the day and it won't impact any of us internet randoms Just think about people in your life and whether or not they'd be affected whether or not you still have anything you care enough about to pursue in your life
Jack Reed
I know how you feel, I feel the same way a lot. But if you're going to do it anyway, don't die a meaningless death. Your death can make a diffrence in a world, a good one. What I'm suggesting is that you kill Ajit Pai. You'll become an internet legend, not much of a comfort I know, but I also know that if you're serious then there is nothing any of us can say to stop you. Good luck user.
Jordan Collins
You don't need medication. Befire you do something stupid try this: For 3 months, no more junkfood, run at least 4 times a week for 30 minutes, and cold shower after getting up. You will feel better 100% Society wants you to forget your roots and innert mechanisms that make humans happy. Don't let them.No drugs, no meds, no alcohol, no fap in the time you reset yourself. Do it and become happy.
Luke Roberts
I've tried this, this only works for people who are already healthy. This is like telling a depressed person to just stop being depressed.
Andrew Murphy
don't do it OP. think of all the drugs you will miss.
i was dont with it as well, so i started living on other terms. now i use everything i can get my hands on. whenever i don't need to work the next day.
it's fucking amazing.
Sebastian Fisher
you don't need to do all the excercise shit, just get off all the SS/SNRIs, they fuck you up in subtle ways
Tyler Moore
Go get a trip somewhere south america or the Caribbean. Killing yourself is also a waste of time, you need something emotionally fulfilling that helps you move forward otherwise you won't move. Just livivng for yourself should be enough, but if it does not suffice then give yourself to others(spend more time around people). This may be meaningless at the end of the day but it's all we got going for in our lives.
Xavier Wright
I don't take meds, I got weed, solved my problem for the most part.
Justin Turner
I made tinder and met a chick who made me fall in love, in the end she rejected my ass hard but in the week that we constantly talked i genuinely felt love for her and the anger from the rejection kinda reset my stagnant year-long depression and made me not want to kill myself. Workout also helps.
Be strong anons.
Parker Bailey
If you're willing to hurt many people just to alleviate your stress, then I suggest you use the last of your money to fake your own death, move to a different country, and start anew. It sounds dumb, but it's less dumb then taking your own life because there's too much shit piling it up.
Brayden Richardson
well, since nobody in real life would care you come here to bitch about it that is 2018 soy boys
Andrew Wright
"a while" is two words, not a compound word.
Might as well go out learning something.
Asher Nguyen
The fact that your posting this thread and not doing it shows that you're crying for help. Get some help man
Isaac Edwards
Yes, this one actually works, the key is that it requires an effort that you probably don't have. But any activity, any change at all can work. In the past I've actually become less depressed just by the act of preparing my own suicide. Once all the prep was done (I made poision) I felt great, so I just left it on the fridge for about a year. Looking at it sometimes, it made me kinda happy to see it up there, my deadly jar of poision, my safetly, my instant escape plan. Still here so obviously you know what happened.
Easton Russell
This too!
John Jones
seriously. go to a psychiatrist. what'll he do? kill you?
Ryder Rodriguez
Or instead of going to some tacky tropical getaway you could go visit cool shit, like the ruins of ancient cyrene or something.
William Davis
Agreed bro!
Angel Hall
Nothing will help you. Go find nature in the middle of nowhere and do nothing, think of and about nothing, breathe lots of that nothingness into you. And of you want to die, do this until your soul withdraws from your body up your spine and into your head where under no pain or panic you will simply leave life without trying too hard, good luck.
Luke Mitchell
FFS stop feeding this attention-seeking faggot.
Saged.
Logan Hughes
Go raw vegan, diseases are false understanding
Jacob Jones
That sounds completely retarded, tell me more.
Tyler Cruz
Allopathic medicine is symptomology with doctors names applied... Health is the bodies job, ill health is our bad choices. Before fire we ate like every other animal, raw. Cooking food is a devils bargain. Check John Rose juice feasting.
Parker Taylor
This guy is retarded and probably doesn't know much about biology or human history.
>before fire we ate like every other animal
And we weren't anatomically modern humans back then either, and our digestive system was better adapted to eating raw food. Modern humans are adapted to eating cooked food. We get more nutrients from it, it kills off the bacteria we are no longer well equipped to fight, and it even tasted better because our palettes are adapted for it.
If you want a general idea of what people ate before cooking, you're talking about seeds from grasses and other plants, non-toxic leafy plants, and things like insects and bird eggs.
Fruit and juices were extremely rare in the diet of early humans because most fruits hadn't been domesticated into their modern forms, and naturally occurring fruits tended to be used for things like fermentation.
Seriously, before you buy into that dude's fringe vegan babble, do yourself a favor and watch a couple lectures on early humans and the ways they lived. This whole "eat like they did" nonsense is just asinine.
Carter Bailey
>666 Satan approves of vegan diets
Andrew Gomez
Bummer.
Tyler Gomez
This guy knows his shit.
Gavin Murphy
Damn, I feel the same as you, but I'm not quite to suicide yet. I haven't been on meds/therapy yet either.
Hudson Ross
>asinine
Zachary Walker
Shut the fuck up, man. This is a shill, posting suicide shit all the time to keep it lingering in people's minds. Seriously, think about it. Every time someone posts a fucking suicide blog, that shit stays on the mind.
Fucking kill yourself, no need to post about it. It's that simple.
Cameron Williams
Don't. The moment you do it you feel nothing but regret and fear. I'm lucky I survived, trust me, it's not what you think it'll be.
Kevin Richardson
> DO IT FAGGOT! stop begging for attention, fuck off!
Isaac Ward
99.99% right is still right, he is a 100% if he is atleast 30 and typed asinine.
Nathan Butler
oh look! yet another thread about some suicidal faggot!
unoriginal, unfunny, repetitive welcome to the new Sup Forums for retarded millennials!
Jeremiah Ramirez
What if what OP wants to do is throw himself out a window? Would you suggest he throw himself at it?
Samuel Adams
propane
Xavier King
all i hear was just pussy talk... life is hard, stop crying about it, right now you are in a hole, and there is no way you can get out of there if you only want to look down, everything in your life is boring? then is time to move on, find other things, learn new things in your life thats how normal people do it, stop being such a little bitch and look up becouse is time to get out of that hole, trust me... if you finish, you will never get out of there, and eternity seems a lot
Jonathan Baker
Normally I'd comment some edgy pun or straight up tell you to do it but you seem serious OP, so I say dont. Face tomorrow like a man and punch that fucker in the dick. Time goes forward and no matter what you do you cant go back so try to make tomorrow a better day. Life is hard, we've all got problems. Some suck more or less than others but as long as you stay living problems can only get better. Look for better opportunities and chase them. Killing yourself wont fix your problems and it'll only make problems for others. Think about your friends and family and all the people you've yet to meet, friends you'll have, women you'll love, the children you could have and your legacy. You might not have the world but you're important to someone and in the future you could have grandchildren asking you about your life and you can tell them that you were brave and strong enough to not end your life. You have so much ahead of you. Power through today and it'll get easier as time goes by