Good evening, user. How are you feeling? Things getting you down? Need a hug?

Good evening, user. How are you feeling? Things getting you down? Need a hug?

Let's talk.

Don't really need a hug, don't want to go to work tomorrow though.

I mad today cause of bad dream

Oh boy. Why not?

How bad was this dream?

Hello! It's great to see you!
Tell me about this dream.
I don't want to go to work tonight! You're in good company.

Teaching at a shit school is a nightmare. Kids are cool but the admin is horrid. I've been trying to stay sober for a month but it has proven difficult.

Good to see you too, Mantis. Thanks for coming. Haven't been seeing you on Discord lately.

Damn, that sucks. Any chance the admin will change?

Bad, just showing me more that nobody cares about me or anything I love

Chek'd!
I'm still looking for a car. I think I found one tho. So I'll be on discord more regularly.

Found out yesterday I have breasts.

No, just one of those things. Last year there though, already have another gig abroad lined up, but god the next 4 months are going to be terrible...

That's your paranoia talking. Some people care, but maybe nobody cares as much as you'd like. Is there anybody you really care about?

Whoa, triple dubs. Good!

Sweet. Weird though. How'd that happen?

Aw yeah. Keep looking forward to it, user. Let the image of a better future motivate you.

Explain pls.
It's just a dream. It's not real. Just shake it off and move on. We all have bad dreams occasionally.

There is someone I care about, I want them to care but I don't know what's real with them, sometimes I want to leave but I just found out again I have no options once again

You're being all cryptic, user. How close are you to this person?

I mean yeah, what else can I do. Truth be told I don't think I'll ever be content where I go, I don't know what the fuck I'm looking for. If I could just eat, fuck, and sleep all day that would nice, but maybe I'd get bored of that too.

We gonna get married one day

I guess you have no real direction then, no life goals? Well, are there any old dreams locked up in your head that you could dig up and chase again? Any women you're interested in?

So, why do you sometimes want to leave? Are you not clear with each other about your feelings?

I spent a majority of my day at work listing out in my head every single flae that I have.....it was quite a long list

Every single flaw? Why did you do that? Do you want to feel bad about yourself?

Sometimes I want to leave because my head is messed and they wouldn't love me if they knew, and sometimes because they are just distant

It is pretty sweet. I've done a few things to them. I pump them occasionally, took a few supplements. I went to an endocrinologist and (while she wouldn't prescribe me anything) gave me a breast exam. I wear a bra, it's the first time anyone saw me in it and had an exam as a male person, so weird lol. I'm a tranny and she won't give me HRT. Did set me up though for a specialist.
I'm like
>I'm overweight it's just gyno
She's like
>lol that breast tissue
I have tiny nipples though.

Are you sure they wouldn't love you? Are you really sure? Maybe they love you more than you think. Everybody can be distant sometimes.

Okay. That's cool.

My week has been slowly going downhill since Sunday and my depression is getting the best of me....

Your head is messed in what way?

I am really sure, my life feels like a lie

I have life goals for sure, and have seen through plenty. And I have a woman. But with all things in my life I just get bored so easily. I'm well traveled, well read, young, a decent 7-8, hung...ect. I wouldn't consider my life bad in many regards. I always wanted to break out and do my own thing but never have because I don't have the luxury to fail, really nothing to lean back on. So I just go through the motions. But who wouldn't just want to follow their passions? I don't think my desires are much off than anyone else's honestly.

>tldr whiny millennial

>Sad because I had my first day of school but was kicked out of one of my classes because it was too full and I was one of the last to sign up.
>Can't see classes with roster anymore so I have to crash classes until I can find an open one by chance.
>Even if I somehow manage to get in I won't have money to pay for it.
>Try to find a job to better myself but I'd rather die than do some slave work and be a peon.
>I just want to kill myself
>I'll never do it because I find suicide stupid.
>I have a great girlfriend, I literally had 2 girls take me out to lunch today and they payed for me, I love learning, I'm a fast learner, I'm a nearly pro tennis player, I'm a tennis coach.

None of this matters.

I have a bad form of ocd it's like hell in your mind everyday, doesn't affect what I do tho

Why does it feel like a lie? Trannies get that a lot. What about your life feels false?

Did you write down your good points as well?

Hey fenn drunk eve guy here. Hows it going tonight

i dont really hate life, im just not happy with it, im 24 next week and havent accomplished much by my standards. yet i wont go for anything higher than what i have which honestly isnt that bad, idk i have many conflicting emotions and im not sure what to think tbh

I feel like im hiding everything from people

I'm just kinda worried about a big change in my life, and yes, a hug is always welcome.

I want to bend over and let OP go balls deep into my ass.

No....they're arent any good points about me....in literally a walking cosmic joke

Fuck you.
You're in college and have a gf.
/edgy/ nihilistically suicidal.
Go be a peon for a while and fill that class. Just have a little self-respect and brains. In that order.
Fuck your gf.
Enjoy life.

I love your Nausicaa images.
I've only got two real things giving me anxiety; girl problems and having ideas locked up in my head. I'm willing to spill the beans about either one if anyone is willing to listen and give some input.

Nonsense. Tell me two things good about you right now, right off the top of your head.

It happens, man. Maybe things will start to look up again over the weekend.

Well, there's a solution to that. There might be more than one, I dunno. The most obvious one is to talk about this thing you're worried about, this problem with your head, despite what risk there may be. To resolve your doubt.

I wish I could say I had that kind of success. The lack of danger is the problem, it seems. You have nothing to be afraid of. Is there something you could try to do that nobody has ever done before?

How can you get out of your comfort zone and start feeling alive again?

So, if you're successful in tennis, why keep going to school? Are you not making money on it?

Having a job is important, user. Attaining the level of maturity required to stick to a difficult job is also important.

It's going alright. How about you?

Keep thinking and make a decision. Will you stand on what you've got or go for something more? I think you can do more than this, you can be more than this. And you should.

*hugs you tightly*

What kind of change will it be?

No.

So what? You're brave enough to talk to strangers on Sup Forums. You have a job.

You seem like a wonderfully cool feller. Would you have any room on your Discord friends list for an ol' sulky person such as myself?

Throw 'em both out here and I'll do my best.

I can't think of any.....

I want to hope so but.....lately the times where I felt happy have become much shorter and farther apart....I'm becoming more and more of a depressed piece of shit

I have massive anxiety and some odd neurological issue no one can pinpoint. Might be some intersex thing. Chance I have an extra chromosome.
The anxiety only effects the things that require concentration. Else I might be a tad more irritable. It is quite horrible. Haven't read a good book in years.

Yeah. Fenn#4548

Here's an invite to the server too: wCf3b

It happens, man. Sometimes it just gets worse and worse and doesn't get better. I wish I knew why. Can you talk to a therapist about it?

What are you hiding?

I'm a hebephile.
I own 2 breast pumps.
I'm a tranny.
I jerked off to my sister having sex.
That's everything, in order, I'm absolutely embarassed of.

I can't listen to music because my mind goes off on the most retarded tangents and I get angry so yeah I feel u

I'm hesitant about going.....I know they'll just stick me on some medication that I'll get dependant on and when I eventually forget to take it because I'm a forgetful fucking retard.....it will make everything worse

Well, you're very polite with me, which I appreciate. That's one. You are good with the English language. That's two.
If this depression is getting worse, I agree with op, in that you may want to see a therapist.

Nonsense, my life is not one to envy, I've left mostly everyone behind to survive, you don't want that burden on you.

As I said I am leaving the remainder of everyone and everything I know behind in 5 months in a far off land where no one knows my name. I can be a new person entirely if I really wish to, an escapist's dream. I fear however that whatever the fuck I'm running away from is still going to be there in SE Asia as well, and no matter how fucking far I run and re-image myself I'm still going to be a miserable cuck.

Nah man, that's a psychiatrist. A therapist can't do that. A therapist will talk to you about it and help you find ways to deal with it in your head, without drugs.

The veil that keeps earth and hell separated? Idk

youre right i can be, but multiple issues are getting in the way and its not that i dont want to fix them its just that its alot of fucking shit to comprehend on top of the shit i deal with personally and professionally at my job, shit i cant even take a vacation to get away from it

it's my 21st birthday and i'm spending it browsing Sup Forums

I don't know if this is the same op with these threads every time, I guess it really doesn't matter. Seeing these threads makes me feel happy someone cares enough to take time out of their day to help strangers.

Hardly a burden if you don't care, but okay.

I dunno man, if things get hard you may grow in ways you haven't imagined. Who can say?

If you can't do it, you can't do it. That's okay.

Happy birthday, user! *hugs*

Could be worse. Got anything to drink?

All the Nausicaa OPs are me. Glad you appreciate it, user. Sometimes I try.

What if they can't help me.....or they give up like everyone else I'm my life did

I guess those count....wouldn't exactly consider them good just....normal people things

I can't often listen to the radio if I'm driving especially if I have a passenger in the car. Passing under traffic lights and overpasses puts me in a panic attack. I haven't driven in some time, it's too stressful.

I am so deeply depressed that I think I am going to the doctors tomorrow to hopefully get something prescribed that stops suicidal ideation. Legit not going to an hero but very up and down a lot
with seemingly no stable mood, either up as fuck or down as fuck

I spent my 19th doing basically the same thing I would recommend celebrating with some alcohol. Happy b day user.

That's the risk you'll be taking. Do you have faith in them? Try to give 'em the benefit of the doubt.

Have you talked to a therapist?

That's pretty bad, user.

When I am in a car I feel like that Jeffery dahmer comic... I want to drive tho

Right right, who can say.

no booze unfortunately, i enjoy your chill threads though

I'll try.....it's hard to trust anyone anymore....I've been betrayed and hurt by so many people

Step one is wanting to get better.

So I have a friend. She's 4'9" and super adorable, and I've just kinda fell in love with her. There's a few problems tho.
First off, I'm not some sort of social outcast that doesn't know how to talk to girls. I'm the kind of guy where if I find a girl cute, I might hit on her and see if we can hook up.

The way we met was rather odd. We were both hanging out at the city public library, when we started to chat. Eventually we started to talk about content that was more and more personal until she told me her story. She's a rape victim, and not one of those false claim feminist chicks, I mean actually had someone break into her house and forcefully steal her virginity just a year or so prior. We had actually already known each other for a good three years already, but never before did we have any sort of bond, we were just acquaintances. She told me I made her feel safe, and we would hug and hold hands and such. Eventually, we went out on a date.

And then things just kinda went to shit.

Long before the date, she had told me two things: She's polyamorous tho not into sex, and she doesn't view me romantically/sexually. She just wanted a friend who'd protect her. (It's also worth mentioning, she may have some small mental issues, may have been a sheltered child or have a minor case of autism. I bring this up because it was clear she genuinely meant what she said, not in any way that she's trying to use me.)
After the date, I thanked her, we agreed that we should do it again soon, and we parted ways to what seemed like a normal night.
The following day though, she told me that I made her feel uncomfortable.
Then the following week, she started to close up and become more shy towards me.
Then at the end of that week she grew hostile towards me about my religious views and how I have a habit of praying very frequently.
And then after another week we just stopped talking entirely.
A good four weeks passed...
(Cont.)

i dont want to accept that i cant do it. its the quickest way to getting lost. i guess all i really want is some advice on how to self start. like really get yourself motivation to move on and actually work towards what you need/want in life. i do know what i want, its just the possibility of depression and add that might be stopping me, im no doctor so im not saying i have these things but my family thinks otherwise so idk it may be worth a doctor visit?

So that's where you start. Those two things. And now I want you to think of two more.

gonna have to sort something out, cos cracks are starting to show for sure. therapy or meds, anything that helps bring it on.

huh, im the opposite., i cant drive without music especially with passengers, the silence is uncomfortable., im not a good conversationalist.

Greentext nigga

Go get some tomorrow!

Glad you like 'em. Sometimes they're a lot of fun.

Be careful in who you trust. A therapist is easy to trust.

Okay.

I dunno man. If I knew how to self-start I wouldn't be here. Are you determined enough? Are you confident? Confidence can be a substitute for pretty much anything.

Oh yeah. You can't do this on your own.

It's only been 17 days, but so far, this year has been absolute shit. Feels like everyone I know (both 'family' and "friends" alike) are either out to get me, have it in for me (purposely work to sabotage my plans and/or punish me), or otherwise alienate me. So far, the only 'decent' things that have happened are
>had yakisoba bread for the first time
and
>saw Star Wars: The Last Jedi twice (in a theater)
Had a bit of a nervous breakdown earlier because everything just sort of caved in at once on me.

Can I have a hug please? I dont have any problems, i just want a hug.

Your friend belongs in the looney bin. She's not worth it. Drop her.

you're cool for answering all these folks.

nope. kek, i lack confidence more than anything,

Kinda sucks, but you seem to be handling it okay. Can you just get away from those people? How hard are they trying to mess you up? What exactly are they doing?

*hugs you tightly*

Of course you can, user. And if you want to talk, I'm listening.

Sometimes I try.

That's what you need then. That's what got me on my feet last time I was down. Not sure exactly how you get it- I think I did by overriding the instinct to second-guess and started doing things without thinking.

thanks for the hug OP, it's always appreciated.
my day's beed pretty good, it was a quiet enough day at work so that was nice.
i got off work at midnight and now it's my birthday! yay me, havn't killed myself yet.
apart from being happy that it's my birthday i'm happy because i've just moved house and my new house has internet, i've been cut off for about 8 months.
even though i'm happy on the outside, i''ve been having a growing painful sadness about everything in my life changing so fast, and the fact that everyone i love doesn't seem to care i exist anymore.

I *can* get away from the 'family and friends' bit, but not so much the coworkers (whom I see 5x a week). The former group has been actively alienating me anyway in a number of ways; the 'family' itself doesn't even check up on me or invite me to anything, and even my parents have agreed that they'll have a "talk" with "all the [young] men" of the 'family' about life, parenting, etc....without me. Guess I don't qualify as a 'man' in their eyes because I'm not where they think I *should* be in life right now.

But they're withholding key information I need in order to properly function, and only now are they thinking to actually tell me bits and pieces that they should have told me at least 10 years ago.

Ahh the silence is bad, but if I know the words to a song I don't want to listen to it's crazy I anticipate the words and it causes an attack. I've gotten a little better at socializing. I'm a white neet but I hung out and hit blunts/did coke with a bunch of hood niggers last summer. As a neurotic nerd, I felt like I had become pretty skilled in not spazzing around new people. My one friend was crazy, did sone greentext worthy shit. I was nervous most of the time but pulled through really good, even had a few chances to lose my virginity. I declined, cuz tranny.

how would one achieve that? im not denying that i could definitely use some changes to my looks, but i dont think anything fits me so i end up looking like an unkempt mess

Kill yourself you faggot fuck

no bully

Hey OP, you're really cool for doing this stuff. You probably do a lot more good than you realize.

I'm probably not super special in this but in the last few months I've just felt incredibly lonely. Being with my friends can help for a while but even when I'm with them sometimes I still feel alone I don't know how to alleviate this ather than maybe a gf but thats not very possible in my situation.

It's worth clarifying that, "she told me that I made her feel uncomfortable," referred strictly to the date. She felt like we were too mushy mushy and like I was going to make a sexual move on her.
Anywho

...A good four weeks passed with no communication beyond her waving at me when we saw each other in public once (it's a small town) and me shooting over a message to her on New Years.
Fast forward to about a week ago, and we start talking again, albeit casually. There isn't an ounce of us flirting or getting closer or talking on a really personal level anymore. We talk for maybe five minutes at most a day, and it actually starts to bother me. Then Friday of last week rolls around, and I was too busy to even talk to her. Then she's gone on Monday and Tuesday (yesterday).

Now it's today. We spoke briefly about basically nothing.
I don't want this. I do not want to be stuck in this level of a "friendship" with her.
I want to tell her how I feel, about how she's grown on me despite our previous agreement that there wasn't any romance involved, about how I regret getting too close on that date, about how I want us to move forwards as close friends and not some stagnated anticlimactic drama. I don't even want to date her, I just want to fix whatever is between us. I want to respark whatever it was that we had all those weeks ago when we were hitting it off.
She isn't just some thot with a bunch of other friends and guys to choose from. She's shy, and she opened up to me and what I saw was beautiful. I know its corny and talk is cheap, by it changed me; I didn't want some loosely tied fuck n' dump relationship, I had found someone I treasured.
And now there's something wrong. And it's my fault. I don't know what to do. That's what I'm here for.

hey guys, there's a guy over on this thread who needs a bit of this threads love, he's taking care of a friend with cancer.
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Really bro?

hey man, i'm not OP but i'm in basically the same boat as you.
i've got a good job, a loving family, but i feel eternaly empty, i had therapy but it didn't help and now i don't know what to do, everyone says life gets better, but does it?

Hi OP, i've been kind of down today, my computer it's not responding, might be corrupted of something and i don't want to reboot it, i have projects, work, everything in there, i'll lost a lot. Tomorrow i will bring it up to a friend, hope he can manage to find a solution.
Wish me luck!

good luck user! hope everything's alright with it.

Aw, nice! Things are good!

But the feelings are bad. Things do change fast sometimes, and it can be hard to adjust. Do they not respond when you text or call them?

Well, that is a little obnoxious of them, but it's hardly crippling. You can find this stuff out on your own, or look it up. Anything they have to tell you is not crucial information, and certainly not vital to your functionality.

Looking good is not necessarily the key. A good self-image is important, but it isn't everything. Shower and shave every day, try to fit in style-wise if you can. Style isn't too big a deal, don't stress over it. Jeans and a t-shirt work 99% of the time. A haircut can help a lot. Experiment with gel and some different styles until you find something you like. It's okay to ask for input from your friends, too.

Okay.

Sometimes I try.

I get those lonely spells too. Dunno why. Maybe it'll pass on its own. Maybe getting a girlfriend would help.

So, tell her how you feel. Be respectful, don't be a creep. You'll be fine.

I'll try to get there, but no promises.

Hey, it's a valid suggestion.

Maaan, that's scary. Good luck. He'll probably be able to do something about it.

>certainly not vital to your functionality.
I had to learn about things like credit, debt, insurance, and 'retirement' on my own. I've only just recently learned what a 401K is, and why I'm right screwed for not having one.

That does suck. But you can deal with this, can't you? It's just going to be difficult for a while.

makes sense, youre not wrong, guess its mainly trial and error. anyhow, i and other anons appreciate what youre doing here, keep doing gods work OP

from thanks OP, life's just a but unsteady atm and i'll get sorted out soon.
nah, they all stopped responding to me after we left school, i've invited them out dozens of times but they never want to, i guess they were 'friends' with me because i had nobody else, i kinda shoehorned myself into the group.
also thanks OP, you're a real good user.

Hey OP, I'm doing alright I guess. Just feeling bored with life, how are you?