>Wake up every day just staring into the monitor >Can't get a job or even an interview to save my life >Can't get any line of credit or accepted into any kind of financing because of a "lack of credit history" >Just wake up every day and exist until I go to sleep to repeat the next day >Almost 30, bad hygiene, nothing going for him
I have to be honest, I have no idea why I keep waking up. I just sit around all day waiting to get tired, to go to sleep and repeat the day. Everything feels hopeless and like life can't be fixed at this point. I've accepted it at this point. I will never have a normal life. Why do I keep doing it? Why do I keep waking up only to stare into nothingness on my monitor? I have a little over $200 to my name and that's it. I thought sobriety would make me happier, healthier and more motivated. It did the opposite. Now instead of playing vidya all day drunk I'm just sober, depressed and contemplating my existence all day.
Depression is common among heavy alcoholics when they quit. The good news is, most of you Relapse within 1 to 2 months so you'll be back to gaming in no time!
Gavin Howard
I sincerely doubt it. I will never go back to drinking like I was. I woke up with non-stop panic attacks, severely bad withdrawals and felt like I was on the brink of death if I hadn't had a drink in 2 hours. I probably was according to my blood tests.
I'll jump off of a bridge before I go back to that and after you've gotten sober, withdrawals are more severe than the first time. They were pretty fucking bad the first time. Not doing that again.
Carter Richardson
Yada yada I used to work in a detox facility. Everyone says they're done for good until they get out. We saw the same faces, most of them court-ordered come in there two, three, four and some even five times.
Asher Reyes
Hold fast.
Things ALWAYS can get worse
Cooper Davis
shhh let the alchy drink himself to cirrhosis. one less burden on society
Carson Perry
are you me?
Logan Morales
You need to be 18 to post here
Benjamin Morris
udemy .com u dummy. Its called will power . Start running everyday. Watch Gary V. and Grant Cardone. Your wasting time mother fucker
Henry Gomez
CHECK OUT THE EDGE ON THIS ONE LADS
Aaron Myers
>Gary V lul I can talk out of my ass too and pretend I'm some righteous douche who's an inspiration to people. Anyone who's a quick talker can do this. Alcoholics deserve zero fucking sympathy. They're plagues and need to be put down.
Angel Williams
went for auto body in school. been working since I was 16. top in my field, make great money.
Alexander Davis
>edge I worked in a detox center for quite a few years. I've seen them all come and go and every fucking one of them says they'll never get back on the shit again. We'd be much better off if they were all put down.
Isaiah Kelly
OP, you and I are in basically the same situation. You have to force yourself out of it. I am doing this slowly. As part of the process, I actually went to a doctor a couple of days ago. He informed me that I may have a condition that hinders my body's ability to convert folic acid into l-methylfolate, which is in turn used to make seratonin, dopamine, etc. In my 20+ years dealing with depression, no other doctor has ever even mentioned this possibility, so perhaps it is the clue that I have been waiting for to finally get better. I ordered l-methylfolate supplements from amazon and it was about $20 shipping included. You might try it, too.
like every other alchy and junkie probably lives with grammie or mommy.
Benjamin Clark
you first
Oliver Miller
He's actually rich as fuck but okay.
Kayden Cox
>great money >mechanic pick one
Adam Nelson
So what are you studying to make yourself more appealing to an employer? What goals have you set for yourself?
Logan Morales
not op but I jerked off three times today to random pics in my fap folder and I ate a bunch of slim jims. how am i doing?
Thomas Hall
This is funny shit, because you can't find a job to save your life, but I have a job where I make 81k/yr but the amount of effort I have to put in is probably less than a fucking burger flipper at McD's. I mean, I'm at work browsing Sup Forums right now. I just spent the last 4 hours writing Doki Doki Literature Club fan fiction on my work computer because I'm a retarded weeb. Life's great.
Nathan Sanders
Congratulations, you've taken the first step to not being a fuckup who ruins his dopamine receptors every day. It will feel depressing and take about 6 months before you start feeling normal again, but it will happen.
You have to start educating yourself, learn negotiation skills, learn to avoid pitfalls like porn and video games and start trying a million different things. Saying I've accepted my life will never improve despite anything I do is defeatism, surely you can do more than consume alcohol and play games. You're just making excuses for yourself instead of trying new things and failing at them until you stop failing at them.
Robert Lopez
Masturbation kills your testosterone, as does sugar. Start cutting refined sugars out of your diet, stop watching porn and masturbating for starters.
Liam Barnes
>6 months Most people never make it to that point. Nearly 9/10 of early recovering addicts relapse within the first month.
Colton Ramirez
Post your resume bro. Without name and shit obviously I guess. I might be able to help some.
Brayden Gonzalez
Are u me nigger?
Isaiah Morgan
Eliminate the problem.
Your life sounds sad as fuck, pointless.
Unplug your pc and leave it that way. If you have a smartphone stay away from Sup Forums for a while, especially/b/. Start taking care of your hygiene and start exercising. Go out for walks and experience the life youre missing out on. A lot of people will think this is bs but just do these things and return to Sup Forums when you can safely say that your life is improving.
Ask yourself what you need to do in order for an employer to WANT to hire you. How can you seem marketable? Are you worth their time and money?
Life is difficult but its a whole lot harder when youre looking at it through a screen connected to the internet. It houses the best and worst parts of life but fails to mention that real life is work. Happiness will come from the work you put in. Do you want to fall into the trap of being a useless human waiting to die? Or you can go out and work hard in every aspect of life and see what that gets you. Worst case scenario you end up back in the same spot and realize your actual purpose was to take up space.
Grayson Young
Well yeah, obviously. You need something you'd rather do than masturbate and watch porn. OP is at the point where he is out of money and he's going to end up homeless to get man-raped every day. I think he doesn't want get man-raped by hobos, so that should give him the motivation to start looking for ANY job that is better than hobo dick up the pooper.
Watch Jordan Peterson and Stefan Molyneux videos. I went from deadbeat gfless guy with a sleep cycle of 36 hours awake, 14 hours asleep and living in a daze of masturbation and video games to AI programmer in 2 years after dealing with all my issues through introspection insights from Molyneux and the Self-Authoring Suite by peterson. Gorilla Mindset by Cernovich was alright too, didn't explain enough for me but effective nonetheless.
Alright fine, I'll try to be helpful: You have access to the most powerful resource in the world. Stop applying to those shitty fucking jobs to make a mere $200 a week after taxes. You have $200 to your name? Guess what? A domain and hosting cost $25 to get up and running. Start a website.
>Flip people's websites, sell them better designs for dirt cheap $200-$300 and just convert the site to Wordpress or hire Pajeets for $20 a site and keep the rest >Start a writing freelancing site since you can write coherent English and charge $100 per article >Sell a make money online eBook and just write a few dozen pages of bullshit and make yourself sound like an alpha
Seriously, I don't get how people can't make money online. Anyone can be an authoritative expert on ANYTHING today without proof. If you seriously don't have $25 to your name to start a site, hit up paid survey sites. I know how bad they suck and how long the grind is, but it's better than nothing and it's definitely fucking better than taking orders from some mid-life career long McDonalds worker and getting paid minimum wage.
Stop listening to depressing music, pump yourself up Get into the right mindset and brainstorm something you want to do Eat healthy and get plenty of the B complex (it helps make you not a whiny depressing bitch)
Everyone who isn't born into fame thinks they'll never be one of those people before they make it. You probably can't see a life without alcohol at this point but if you're alone with your thoughts all day and nothing else, that's your life. Do something about it.
Asher Gutierrez
Any momentum towards something positive is better than none at this point. Drinking is essentially a fast-forward, an off-switch for the mind to get to the end faster.
Jackson Myers
Do u need a cs degree for ai? Plz im at the same point at OP. im 25 and working at a lil above min wage so i could afford uni
Thomas Turner
Start drinking again. Problem solved and you don't have to read the massive wall of texts in this thread. Ez
Jordan Cooper
College is a waste of goddamn time, because in the end when you apply all these recruiters do is look at your skillset and give you a programming test, which is an IQ and aptitude test combined.
You should also realize the internet is FILLED TO THE BRIM with resources. Free tutorials, open standards, entire booklibraries for pennies via the humble bundle, which is a Leftist company but at least it's cheap. There's dozens of explanatory videos on youtube with graphical representations of what you want to learn. You can literally become anything if you're intelligent enough, that's the real limitation.
This is the language I learned, I came from an Android background which I taught myself for around a year: learnprolognow.org/
Don't waste 4 years on a worthless college degree like I did. A month on the job is about equal to 1 year in college, if you apply yourself and study hard. Prolog programmers aren't exactly in high demand, it's a very niche thing inside of a niche. If you want people clamoring for your skillset, go for Java or it's successor, Kotlin, in combination with the Spring Framework and Postgres. Hell, even just Postgres database management skills will land you a job so fast it'll make your head spin. Even with ~70% income taxes in the Netherlands I'm still making 2k euro as a junior, and it will only go up as I get better.
The best advice I can give you since I know nothing about you: Look at job applications, see what they are asking for and ignore the experience part for now. Start trying out which language you like best and then do open job applications to various companies. If they think you're ambitious and promising, they will likely at the very least give you an intern position so you can learn.
If all else fails, you can write apps or do anything else with computers because your computer knowledge will far exceed normie standards. Good luck!
Connor White
If you aren't reading for at least 6 hours a day, you aren't ever going to make a lot of money without selling your ass, your soul or both. Just look at hollywood!
