How do you tell if you were sexually abused as a kid if you have no memory of it?

How do you tell if you were sexually abused as a kid if you have no memory of it?

My therapist suggested it. I laughed at first, then jokingly pulled up a list of traits in adults who were abused. I had a fucking ton of them. Like a shitton.

As a kid I had serious issues with neglect. Like my parents were absolute garbage, but not in the direct hitting way. More like in the absolute failing way. Anyways I went to a catholic school and wanted to be priest. But one year has much fuzzier memories than the years prior, and I remember wanting to transfer to a public school. Next year I was going to a public elementary school.

Thing is I have a ton of childhood issues but they stem from neglect. What if on top of parental neglect they fucked up and let me get diddled by father bad touch? How do you tell? Cause a lot of those red flags could just be growing up exposed to Sup Forums and ytmnd. Like how do you tell actual abuse vs just being a filthy degenerate like most of us?

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What are some of the traits?

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-Dissociation, or feeling detached, confused, or feeling like your reality is not the same as everyone else’s are quite common feelings.

– You may experience trouble with trust, whether it be not finding yourself able to trust, or trusting too easily.

-You may have trouble establishing boundaries in relationships due to the fact that your boundaries were compromised at a young age.

Low self esteem is common in adult survivors.

-You may experience isolation, or a fear of intimacy with partners.

Many people contemplate or attempt suicide or self injury.(not acted upon just considered)

Victims often anticipate an early death.

-Extreme anxiety or panic attacks are often caused by childhood sexual abuse.

-Difficulty concentrating, comprehending, or answering simple questions are symptoms.(rarely but could be anxiety or other stuff)

Many experience feelings of social withdrawal, or the inability to relate to others.

-Sometimes adult survivors have sexual fantasies about raping or abusing others.

-The opposite is also true – many experience fantasies about being raped, tortured, or abused.

Depression is common.

-Feelings of extreme anger or inexplicable rage are very common.

Gastrointestinal distress, nausea, and chronic pelvic pain can be present.

-Headaches are common among survivors.

That's just one shorter list. I can get the longer one from another site if interested. But one of the biggest things is an extreme fascination with humiliation of a sexual nature. I'm big into bdsm top or bottom and stuff. But it also leads to feelings of guilt. By itself I'd say I'm just a degenerate like most of us here but given a pattern of extreme neglect as a child the possibility my parents did a bad job and someone else exploited it is there.

Oh, and I also drank heavily for several years, and often use masturbation as a way to reduce the anger. Like meditation has np effect on the pervasive anger, but masturbation does. Is that normal that only jacking off to humiliation stuff reduces anger?

Eh where else can I ask? It's Sup Forums. May have been taken over by porn(for better or worse) but its still better than plebbit.

I have most of those symptoms and I was never abused

90% of these things could apply to any type of trauma, just like astrology traits.

These symptoms are also common to other disorders, so I wouldn't be so sure.

Repressed memories are not real. They are not a real thing. Repressing memories is not a thing that happens. It has been scientifically disproven. All of those people who came out saying they had repressed memories of abuse from their childhood were actually just being tricked into doubting their memories by their therapist. Please do not go down this road user. Many lives have been ruined when people have been tricked into believing things that did not happen, happened.

You dumb fuck the therapist is just setting you up for continuous appointments.

>change you name to Dumbfuck Graveytrain because you will *always* need the therapist, just ask them.

>Extreme anxiety or panic attacks are often caused by childhood sexual abuse.

>Sometimes adult survivors have sexual fantasies about raping or abusing others.

These are the only real signs, the rest could apply to anything.

>Headaches are common among survivors.

mfw

I had my asshole violently tongued by Hillary Clinton, but nobody will ever believe me :'(

We live in a time where fucking everybody has the feeling of depression, loneliness, anxiety and all the other shit.

Why do you want to remember if you were abused? What do you gain from that knowledge except more of the above symptoms.

okay. OP fuck you i've been trying to avoid this, but I think I need therapy. I'm really worried I was touched and have no memory of it. But every time I hear of kiddy diddlers I get really pissed off. Not only this, but I keep having realistic nightmares of me being molested. These nightmares of me being molested happen ALOT. i'm really worried there's a memory being repressed in me and i'll never know.

Where’s the camera that took this photograph?

Are you a huge fag now? Have you hungered for cock since you were a kid? Have you looked through the videotapes your dad has hidden in the back of his sock drawer?

thats gotta fuckin suck, bud

you were probably diddled

You have a demon, turn to Christ or it will never truly be solved. Don't force yourself to be trans-disabled just because a Jew in a cozy room told you to.

Yeah. I have bipolar depression, and anxiety issues, so the massive comorbidity makes the whole thing kind of a crap shoot. There's other traits I missed too. I had a bigger list earlier but I lost it. Things like fucked up sleeping patterns, irrational anger towards women(lel).

Uh, when I was first sexual I discovered I was *extremely* good orally. Like that's allegedly a sign of learning skills and not knowing how but that might just be me being a badass /humblebrag.

Oh, and I don't have a full blown split personality but my dissociation levels are way higher than average, to the point where I have 2 parallel emotional threads at all times. Like I always feel 2 emotional states concurrently.

Did you see his heads between your little legs? Big long licks with his rough tongue? Did he tell you were a bad man? Did he make you touch his cock? Did you think it looked like a pickle?

Did you say "it huuuuuuurts!" but he kept going? Did he keep doing it while you cried until it felt warm and gushy? Did he tell you to shut up, or he'd give you something to shut up about?

Tell us. And make it sexy.

>How do you tell if you were sexually abused as a kid if you have no memory of it?
You make up stories and pretend they're real. You sound like a spoiled little pussy.

If you were under 5 you would have enjoyed it, found it fun and boring as fuck, when you have sex as a kid you see it differently as you had no idea what sex really was , because your brain at the time woulndt have seen sex then anything else then "play" you could easily ignore and forget it, hence you can't remeber the details of sex you had as an adult.

Ignore the crying victim shit about childxsexyal abuse.

I had sex with adults and teenagers from toddler to about 10yo and I'm fine.

Not everyone cries or feels bad about it. Just weird.

Repressed memories are shit but forgetting stuff is real. Basically if you can't remember it now you're not GOING to remember it, but you can still find circimstantial evidence of it happening. I've been seeing this therapist for years for other issues and she knows not to go down that shit. She's pretty critical of the idea herself and said don't try to dig at stuff but if anything comes to mind let it come.

Therapist is fine. I already see her a shitton due to bipolar and a childhood of neglect.

Eh I don't want to. But I'm trying to sort through my sexual anxiety and if it were a factor it would be good to know.

I'm sorry. Find a good therapist. I have been seeing one for other issues but a good therapist is worth their weight in gold.

Gingerpuss aka Puddems, the sexist redhead alive. You're welcome.

I'm. mostly straight. I don't find guys physically attractive, but I've sucked dick on several occasions. I have a strong desire to please sexually, particularly using my mouth. Could be my bdsm streak but I dunno. I also have a lot of weird dental problems?

>christ

ecks dee

OP here. Consolidating my replies for ease of reading.

i think it was my aunt..she used to be hot from pics i saw, but she's so old now it makes me sick whenever i see her. i also have a milf fetish

This is a demon (best word I could use to describe them), they're metaphysical parasites that feed off of your confusion. Don't give in to the bullshit doctors feed you and get a priest. You might find that these 'mental illnesses' stop afterwards.

Evolutionary gene splicing and nitpicking on an atomic scale caused us to have specific traits to that of an open diary, parts of our brains can be accessed and edited. Even your brain structure can be slightly altered over time.

God, where were you when I was in my early 30's. All you hear now is "blah blah blah you robbed me of my childhood blah blah blah mental scars blah blah blah i can't have normal sexual relationships". It's fucking neverending. You go full penetration with a couple girls and it's nothing but My Chemical Romance albums, cutting and shitty poetry followed by legal threats.

Truly, you're a breath of fresh air.

Therapist..........The Rapist

>MY GOD GET OUT OF THERE user! GET OUT!

The only damage that's done is social and cultural, after I had sex as a kid I was fine, those feels are real.

The only "abuse" is not feeling chill too talk about it as a kid or when you get older.

The metoo shit is just for celebs who want attention, most people don't cry, I never cried as a kid after sex, I'd just go do something else.

Peds should still go too jail for weirding kids out, but not for sex, sex with pedos is physically harmless.

You just gotta admit you enjoyed it, you wernt hurt by it, but was weirded out by it, the being "weirded" out is the "damage" bit that's easily fixed by talking about it.

Most rapes are non volient, its just weird and unexpected.

As a preteen you would have seen any sex play as fun. Unless it was forced, its very rarely "forced"

>Gingerpuss aka Puddems, the sexist redhead alive. You're welcome.
I asked where's the camera which took the picture, dumbass

Wait, you had sex with a semi-hot woman when you were a kid and you're bitching about it?

Oh cry me a fucking river, Fauntleroy.

You say that now, but you won't be laughing when you're an incorporeal being trapped as a permanent foodsource for the 'serpents of hell'.

If people like you put so much faith in science then you might like to know that religion and science are that of the same mold.
The bible is nothing but testimony of events that happened but were not comprehendable to the people witnessing: hence 'magicks'.

Like showing a monkey a card trick.

But who was the phone?!

But yeah does overeager desire to use mouth to please red flag as fuck or am I just a degenerate like most here?

im saying it could be her...it could also be an old man. i never see the face in my dreams. i usually wake up sweating.

imagine being this incomprehensibly stupid

As a child my mom would make me and my siblings take "vitamins" before our nap time. In reality they were some sort of sleeping drug. She used to cheat on my dad and fuck some dude at our house and we'd be fast asleep. There's no telling if one of these guys had their way with us while we were knocked out. Apparently she was abusing pain killers and shit at the time too.

I had oral sex with my mom, but I only really remembered it well into adulthood.

It's really fucked with me on a sexual level, in a lot of ways.

Well of course. It's a very sexy dream.

I swear to fucking christ I will molest every one of you niggers if you keep circlejerking over his sexy aunt jesus.

So you weren't abused you just fantasize about it. Right.

Imagine being this incomprehensibly ignorant.

Instead of trying to find logical explanations for things you completely reject them altogether. Do you fap to traps, perchance?
Might I remind you that we have 99% ape DNA, our evolution took millions of years, we're the only evolved life on this planet, and we have chins, It seems like you have a few extra though.

Whether by a priest, a parent or another kid - you were most likely exposed to a sexual situation before you should have been. Most likely mild since there is no clear memory or anything more severe like a rape or pervasive molestation. The fact that you feel guilt comes from wanting, or being told in the moment, that it needed to be kept secret because it was bad or something of which you needed to be ashamed. I lived 30 years silent as a survivor - it can fuck you up majorly. I'm glad to know you're in therapy.

Evolved to this level of intelligence, not you though. Ayy lmao*

Tell us more, user. Who sucked whom?

>we're the only evolved life on this planet

this is why you cunts arent taken seriously

yknow sometimes i wish your god was real so i could spit in his face after death for the atrocities he would have to be complicit in if he did exist

fuck youre worthless

You weren’t

This pls

You'd remember man.

I didn't mean that we were the 'only evolved life', I meant that we were the only hyper intelligent beings on this planet, apparently you're an exception.
God isn't just some man in the sky you moron, he isn't the creator of the universe either. He just found our planet along with his angels after a nuclear war, he then did experiments on our rodent ancestors and made us.

Your anger towards your creator is unnatural.
I can feel them trying to poison you as we speak, don't be afraid, fear gives them a tighter grip on you.

Oh some more I just remembered. I started masturbating at a fairly young age(though I was doing it sorta wrong using pressure before I could even get erections?). I always wear more clothes than are needed based on the weather. People joked about me wearing jeans and hoodies in summer. For most of my teen years I got weirdly anxious at the sight of my own reflection. Not horrible just a weird anxiety whenever I saw it, particularly if I was happy? I also always locked my bedroom door. Like always.

simple sniff test should answer your questions.

I'm chronically congested with no sense of smell. ;)

hey OP, question time

ok so my sister is under the impression she molested me, I have no memory, have many of these issues, but her therapist said it was "probably not a real memory but a though"

honestly i'd bang my sister too. is this the cause? was i molested do you think?

Damn nice stretch

have a friend give it a sniff. If your finger smells funky something probably went down. If not you're in the clear.

You have inspired me to share my story of abuse in a four part green text. I like = 1 prayer.
part 1/4
>be me, 17
>memorial day weekend
>my family is visiting our aunt/uncle/cousins in scottsdale
>memorial day comes, everyone is in the yard doing activities
>I'm hiding out in the basement playing vidya with my cousin who we'll call Mike
>mike asks if i've ever jacked off with a bro
>i tell him no, awkward silence
>Uncle comes down the stairs
>tells us to come outside for a little while
>fucking normies
>go outside and get in the pool
>swim for a wile, swim up to the side of the pool and start talking to my female cousin who is 18, let's call her Megan
>How's school, yadda yadda
>Feel something grab my cock
>it's mike under the water
>try to act normal while he starts sucking my cock
>mfw it feels incredible, can't bring myself to stop him
>can't help it, cum in his mouth
>few seconds later he surfaces and spits my load onto megan
>WTF mike! Mom, mike spit fucking snot on me!
>mikewtf.mp4

part 2/4
>aunt comes over and yells at mike and tells him to go inside
>i dry off and go look for him a little later
>back to playing vidya
>uncle comes down the stairs again
>"Mike, user, are you down here?"
>tells us the prank was uncalled for and that we're in deep trouble
>He drops his pants and says "which one of you bitches is first"
>Mike immediately drops on all fours and says "me daddy fuck my butthole daddy"
>uncle spits on his dick and starts plowing mike
>staring in disbelief
>Uncle tilts his head back and shouts "come here faggot"
>he pushes me on my knees and covers my face in cum
>his cock smells like shit
>Mike starts fingering my asshole while my uncle crushes up some pills and snorts them
>my dad walks downstairs followed by my brother, both completely naked
>uncle says "you boys gon learn today. let's begin the three legged race"
>we all form a train with each of us licking the asshole and pulling on the dangling dick in front of us
>we all go up the stairs and into the yard like this
>when my mother and aunt see us they start screaming

part 3/4
>Mike's licking my ass, I'm licking my dad's ass, my dad's licking my brother's ass, and my brother's licking my uncles ass
>Uncle breaks from the train and fly tackles my aunt and starts smearing his shit coated dick all over her face
>mike and my brother start to 69 eachother while my dad tell me to fuck his ass
>Megan comes outside and her and my mom are screaming and crying
>mom pushes me off of my dad and he farts a little when my dick pops out of his ass
>dad grabs her by the feet and starts spinning her in circles
>he trips over my brother and mike's blowjob pile and sends my mom flying through the living room window
>megan runs after her
>my uncle runs, bounces off of the trampoline and lands on me, slamming his dick into my ass
>several vertebrae in my lower back audibly snap
>my legs and dick go numb, uncle pounds my demolished anus
>broand Mike are spitroasting my dad
>Megan comes outside with her dad's gun and shoots my uncle in the head
>he pulls out, blows his load on my buttcheeks, and falls over dead
>Megan turns the gun on herself and blows the right side of her head off
>"Mike shouts "AGGHHH I'm gonna cum, pulls out of my dads ass and runs over to Meg
>thrusts his cock into her exposed brain and cums
>some drips out of her nose
>hear sirens in the distance
>Mike goes to the shed, get's a can of gasoline and pours it up his ass
>lights a match and explodes, starts raining ground beef
>My brother finishes in my dad's mouth and my dad starts gargling it
>dad puts brother on all fours and starts fucking him
>hear his balls slapping
>dad says "that's the ticket you lil' slut lol ride that dad dick lol"
>my mom, bloodied and limping, emerges from the house and limps toward the fence gate to leave the yard
>a SWAT van smashes through and crushes her
>police pile out and order everyone to show their hands
>my dad puts his hands up and keeps fucking my brother
>brother can't move his hands because he's getting fucked doggie

The list of traits you posted, I have many of them, and I can see where they could seem from rape.... but I don't have any lost time, I didn't start disappoints n g till my 20s. I'm still a mess, but I'm certain it's not from sexual abuse. The more conventional verb a l abuse and too much empathy on my part, means I pick up on other people's trauma.

You have to ask yourself, would it help any, to know that you'd been raped? There's a strategy for getting less tucked up, that's a tough row to home no matter what the cause. Good luck with it.

part 4/4
>the cops shoot my brother about 25 times
>dad's still thrusting away
>just then aunt comes to and, confused, starts to run and shout
>cops blow her away
>they reach my dad and pull him off my dying brother
>he too farts when the dick is pulled out of his anus
>they put him on his stomach and cuff him
>one of the cops reaches me
>"we've got a live one"
>realizes I'm paralyzed
>"his legs is done in but that mouth sure looks like it still works"
>all of the cops put down their weapons and start getting undressed
>it's dark out by the time I'm sucking off the last of the 25 officers who arrived
>they're all laying around smoking cigarettes trying to get hard again for round 2
>last officer farts a little as he blows yet another massive load down my throat
>I've lost control of my bowels and am farting a steady stream of semen out of my ass
>he zips up his pants and turns around
>"gotta hand it to you, that boy of yours has a mighty soft- wait a minute!"
>dadhasdissapeared.jpeg
>They all pick up their weapons and start searching
>Hear a noise from the house
>dad has been in the basement making a skin suit out of all the pieces of our family members
>they all open fire but there are too many layers of flesh and skin to penetrate
>he casually strides through the hail of gunfire towards me
>I see my aunts lips move but can hear him mumbling beneath them
>"I'm gonna get my nut off"
>he rolls me over and I puke literally a gallon of mixed semen
>he pulls his dick out from under a flap of my uncle's stomach and lubes it up with some of the puke semen
>he grabs my limp, paralyzed dick and pulls my dickhole apart
>he jams his dick into my dickhole and starts fucking it
>"we gotta do this again next year" he mumbles from within his skin suit
>he let's out a muffled fart has he cums and creampies my dickhole. He gets up and runs into the night.
>I'm in a wheelchair now. They never did catch my dad.

I'm not sure I entirely believe this.

you weren't, but unethical psyches will let you pay them to convince you otherwise

Which part?

100 percent true. The fake news media won't report it because it doesn't fit the narrative but it happened. Scottsdale AZ, 1998

>"a gallon of mixed semen"

that's fucking ridiculous.

But who was phone* please shove flash shards down your dickhole newfriend

Nigga I aint a newfag just a retard. Big difference.

2dum2troll

Repressed memories aren't a thing. The question is how you're framing the abuse, and a well-meaning but misguided therapist can convince you that completely benign events were actually abuse.

For example: When my brother was rather young, 7 or 8 years old, the neighbor boy that was 11 or 12 convinced him to play the "let's compare penises" game. Nothing untoward happened, they didn't touch each other, they pulled down their pants and compared dicks. My brother's therapist convinced him that this means that at 7 or 8 years old, my brother was molested by the older neighbor boy, and he didn't realize that made no goddamn sense until specific questions such as "Did he touch you? Did he make you touch him?" were answered with "No."

Similarly, teens that are told by their therapists or counselors that their parents are abusing them are being lied to 99% of the time. Physical discipline is not the same as abuse. Being beaten black and blue is. Being sent to bed without dinner is not abuse. Not being fed for days at a time is. But when therapists ask "Did your parents ever hit you?" they're not framing it as "Were you ever spanked/were you ever cuffed/were you ever pinched," they're taking ANY answer that is "yes, my parents used physical pain in the process of raising me," to say "You were abused you need medicine and your parents are horrible people and you should cut all ties with them."

And teenagers and young adults are completely retarded, and trust their therapists, so they do just that.

Obviously there isn't a way to tell. No way at all. I know you have issues, but that question is genuinely retarded.
Spend less time grasping at threads of sweet fa and more on bettering yourself.

you’re creating false memories op, it’s like the hypnotic craze in psychology with repressed memor. don’t ruins your family’s begause you’re making shit lol, you can’t forget abuse easily especially if it’s sexual fucking idiot

last week i remembered a repressed memory about my big sister abusing me as a kid and now i read this list and pretty much have all of it. fuck

>making shit

I have damn near absolutely no memory of my child hood and scaring on the tip of my penis. I also had a constant discharge from my penis.
So that and a bunch of little things just added up.

Buuuuuuuuulllllllllllshit.

Trouble trusting others? That's an extremely common thing just because of today's society. Not unusual.

Trouble establishing boundaries? That just means you're afraid of confrontation, and you're constantly told you have to make your partner happy and you've got a piece of your brain going "Well if you establish boundaries they won't love you anymore."

Low self esteem is common in most people that are intelligent enough to realize that in a world with 7 billion people, they're average at best.

You may fear intimacy because you've watched porn your entire pubescent life and know that you can't compete with that.

Anybody with enough self-reflection will ponder whether life is worth living. It's probably the greatest question of philosophy, and if you're gonna ponder the idea, you might as well ponder methods.

Early death? That's vague as shit. From suicide? From sickness? From getting murdered? What constitutes early? 40? 50?

Anxiety and panic attacks are caused by being surrounded by a million things demanding our attention each and every day, and knowing that deep down we kind of suck at dealing with them, but we know that if we CAN'T deal with them then we're going to be a failure and possibly die. Nothing to do with sexual abuse.

Difficulty concentrating or comprehending? Have you considered the fact that they might just be stupid? Stupid people tend to overblow things a lot. Like the corn farmer that saw a light in the sky, and was 100% sure it was aliens.

Everyone has sexual fantasies about raping or abusing others. That's called a power play. It's about being dominant and powerful in a situation that harshly judges you on performance and taking a resource that is generally off limits. "Oh, she'll never have me - I'm slightly socially awkward and not that great looking with no money - but I'd love to just hold her down and fuck my seed into her."

Inexplicable rage is a sign of brain damage.

But you were.

4/10 would not read again

thx m8