I've smoked weed 12 times in my life. The 8th(?) time I smoked, I took 3 extremely big hits from a blunt...

I've smoked weed 12 times in my life. The 8th(?) time I smoked, I took 3 extremely big hits from a blunt. I started coughing profusely, and then started throwing up a lot of mucus. Ever since that day, my highs have never been the same.
When I smoke weed, everything is so surreal. Beyond surreal. It's a horrible experience. You see, I can't adequately explain what exactly happens in my head except that I see/feel/hear the 'truth'. For example, when I'm high, I *experience* evidence that reality is deterministic. I.e. no free will. Everything is determined because EVERYTHING that could possibly happen is happening in parallel. When I say everything that could happen, I don't just mean "oh if you do this action, then this timeline will happen vs another timeline", I mean LITERALLY everything. For example, things could be going "normally" (no such thing), the universe could just spontaneously become something else for a second and then go back to "regularly scheduled programming". A great equivalence is that "reality" is like the set of irrational numbers.

This is independent of who I'm smoking with, or the area I'm smoking in. (I know it's not laced.)

Ever since that day, I have smoked exactly 4 times, and each time has been the exact same. It's scarier each time. Worst part is everyone around me is high as shit too.

My question is: has anyone else ever experienced anything that seems even remotely like this?

I don't think you should smoke weed anymore bro. sounds like it can agitate your latent psychotic tendencies.

Kinda, it seems you're just getting extremely anxious when you smoke weed because of that bad experience and it turns into frightening thoughts in your case.
In my case (I once took too many hits too fast and started throwing up so violently I literally couldn't talk or move for about two minutes. Ever since then when I tried weed I get this very weird feeling of ice-cold threads pulling me to the ground. Just my probably worthless input.

I mean, I don't think I suffer from psychosis. I'm fairly normal, just a dab of autism (not real autism, like Sup Forums autism).
I used to have normal highs is the thing. Anyway, you're right. It's just hard when all your friends want you to take a hit REALLY bad.

Well, i smoke bosta do macaco, and i love the dogs jaja saludos xd

I thought the same thing too, however it seems to be very different than that. I've noticed that the last 2 times I smoked, I was in a very calm mental state. I thought to myself "Ok, if I'm as calm as I am now, maybe it won't happen." It happened regardless of what I was thinking. I would do stuff to calm me down, it would just continue to persist. Playing Sm4sh with the bros, listening to chill music, trying to go to sleep, none of it works. It's something that just happens, like a force is being enacted on me.

What's funny is that when it happens, my anxiety and heartbeat spike. (at least I think, i dunno if that's just me being high and thinking my heart's beating fast) In turn the phenomenon gets worse, and this just goes on in a feedback loop.

nice blog faggot
protip
nobody gives a fuck

well, the only time that doesn't happen is when I'm at home smoking alone or with my wife. Might be worth a try, idk.

Small brain: realizing that the post is based in seeking someone else that has similar experiences
Biggest brain: having extremely low critical reading skills and making low effort posts

Thanks man. I'll give it a try.