Please tell me my sweet user

Please tell me my sweet user.
Do you were molested as kid? How it changes you?

Did you molested anyone?

Extra points for Greentext

Do you were molested
Did you molested

Sorry, i'm from the caribe and grammar is not my thing

I see, someone molested you

Yes. It broke how I saw sex. I did. Up until I was in my 20s, I didn't even realize half the sex I had was predatory and even rape. My mind was in the school that when she is "reluctant" and you get her wet and horny, it was her body telling you "yes." You won't believe how many ladies at the time thought of it as them changing their mind, not a hormonal reaction to predatory sexual behavior. I saw and regretted my behavior when I was 25 and raped a cougar in her own home after she changed her mind about sex. She said "Well, that was good. I'll forgive you for raping me this time." When she saw I was genuinely offended and confused, she entered mother mode. We spoke. She explained I was broken and clarified what sexual assault included that I thought was fine. Beautiful cougar changed me for the better.

Nice trips you motherfucker.

And yes, something like that.

I'm a shit greentexting but gonna try

>>be me 9yo male
>>have a aunt 24yo
>>Very Skinny and single
>> She Babysitting me all the week
>> Both parents work very far away in the beach
>> Aunt baths with my
>> "user, i'm gonna clean you and you clean me"
>>She Soaps my pee-pee so much
>> I try to do it but is different
>> wtf is this hairy shit?
>> "user, you have to rub with soap"
>> I'm afraid but try.
>> She make do it every day
>> It lasted for 2-3 years

Well, that sounds very hard dude.

Do you stay with the cougar on a relationship or something?

I need more info regarding this.

Currently, I'm 21. I lost my virginity to a girl of 16 years who grew a crush on me just 4 months ago.
She wasn't a virgin but very, very inexperienced, and she had been used and tricked.

We're in a relationship and at first, it was absolutely consentual, with both of us ripping each other's clothes off like animals in heat.
Later, when we grew more trust towards each other, we got more experimental.

Sometimes she teased me and immediately quit, just to play a bit with my feelings, to naive and non-abusive degrees.
Often my answer was to overpower her, get her horny, dominate her and dick her down.

I considered this natural, her being lustful towards a healthy young man, and me tapping into the fierce desire to be dominant, to be a leader and conqueror.

There's been times where a gentle "nooo~" was followed by a "NO! STOP! I'M SERIOUS!" which was like a safeword for me, making me stop immediately, politely say "okay, hey, it's alright" and cuddling or kissing her to show that I'm not upset and to bring her mood up again.

What can I conclude out of this?
Did I "rape" her on some occasions, or was it all just fun and play?

I wish to stress again: I always listen to her body language and tone of voice.
I'm too much of a faggot to be an asshole towards women, I'm more of a bob marley kinda guy:
>You don't need to be a prick to be masculine. A man can be nice. Manhood is about self-respect and confidence, not trying to be a macho.

Continues

>>We sleep together and sometimes she kisses me
>>Sometimes put porno in a old VHS
>>"Do you like user"
>>Sometimes we play "baby"
>>she sings me and made me suck his nipples
>>"user i really love you"
>> i feel loved and special
>>"Please don't say anything to anyone user, or i'm gonna have to go far away"
>> feel weird but don't wanna make aunt sad.

years later, she go to US seeking American Dream
More than 15 years about that and now she talk to me in FB ocassionally but never ever mentioned anything.

Now, i masturbate reading stories about molested people and cannot stay in a relationship for too long.

> be me
> 6 years old
> dad called me to his room
> dad makes me suck his dick
> tmw he did this to my four other sisters as well
> be 27 sister is 33 she's diagnosed with PTSD and I was diagnosed with ASPD
>tmw you can't say feels bad man and mean it

Got molested as a kid, don't remember. I shut it out all i remember is trying to forget and the reason i remember was I did something really sexual with another kid inside stall at school at a really young age and while haveing a conversation with a friend about the gayest shit we ever did I told him my story and he said why or how did i know about sex at that age. I reflected on it and i pieced it all together. Glad I don't know who "done it" but I know it fucked me up somehow because I've been a nymphomaniac all my life

mums boyfriends were always cunts but the one when I was 4 was a real peice of shit
beat the fuck out of me and terrorized me throughout the day, forced me to suck his dick at night
fucked me up pretty badly

What happend with him?

Well yeah I did molest my kiddy nieces but the picture you presented OP makes me wanna dump some americunt dragon

I did for a few years until she moved on to another young guy. Was great while it lasted.
When the body language said "no" along with her words, I would restrain her and strip her. I learned early on how to turn women on, physically speaking. When their body started getting aroused, I would use that as "proof they want it" and they almost always gave in or resisted less. I made sure to make her orgasm. Back then, the physical reaction confused said women into believing they were into it and keep quiet out of shame. I am not justifying it. That is how I thought at the time. If it wasn't for that cougar, God knows how many I would have abused before being thrown in prison. I did learn about safewords and how to clarify between rape play and rape.

And now. Do you feel consecuences? He paid for that?

Tell me the story user. And nice image btw

i take hormones to make guys like me more
it affects most aspects of my life especially my sex life
he got away with everything

Hormones? You are a male?

shamefully yes

>His nipples
>Aunt
I think you're hiding something

Nothing he got away with it

Don't have shame dude. It's ok if you are happy with that.

Sorry user, as i say. I don't have good grammar at English

Do you tell your mother or sisters about that?

>Do you were molested as kid?
Yes I do...?!
I was my uncle's little lover from age 7 and until I hit puberty at 12-13.
>How it changes you?
While I definitely enjoy sex, it is a commodity for me. I used it to gain male attention throughout my youth, and I worked at a brothel during my university years. I am unable to have a normal healthy relationship with another person, and as consequence I am a single mom.

Tell me more about you being his little lover.

I know that feel i can't stay in a healthy relationship. I don't have kids but my "longest" relationship was 6 month longer and end with violence

Post a Pic of yourself plz

Does being brutally raped, beaten, and left for dead count as being molested? Then yes. The biggest change was that I dislike going out in public, even 30 years later. I'm paranoid about personal security. I don't let my kids outside without me there to keep them safe. I have aggression problems that I'm slowly working through. I tend to angrily over-react whenever there's another male that I don't know in the area. Making friends with guys is difficult as I tend to overreact to some imagined slight and beat the shit out of them. I also suffer from anxiety and depression. My official diagnosis by my therapist was "severe androphobia with chronic depression and anxiety"

I've never raped or molested anyone though, so I've got that going for me.

Maybe. I don't know. I have repressed memories from childhood which is a clear indication of suffering from childhood trauma.

Fuck! That sounds really like a hell.

What fucking happen?

Yeah and that's what I do from time to time.
When she got me horny, I would grab her, toss her on her bed, turn her on her belly, sit down on her legs, and then it'd sticky and hot:
First, I'd push her hair aside and kiss her neck, let my hands touch her weak spots, getting her all nice and frisky, until she gets stops fighting and starts playing along, grinding her hips on mine and such...
Then I'd forcefully pull down her pants and panties in one go, take a good look at that beautiful ass for a moment, then grab it and get her on all fours... then first a couple of licks while spreading her cheeks, getting my dick even harder than it already is, and then slide it in balls deep, pushing her down on the mattress and locking her legs with mine...

I considered it all consentual, because I explained to her that I like to be dominant even before we got sexual, but idk if she just lets me do it because she doesn't wanna let me down and lets herself look like the guilty one because she teases me beforehand.
She knows I'm a man with needs and she doesn't want to risk leaving those needs unsatisfied, so idk if she's really enjoying it or just letting me have a go at her, since she can be quite dominant as well sometimes.

>Tell me more about you being his little lover.
Told this like a hundred times before:
>dad leaves to marry his secretary, takes my older sister with him
>left alone with devastated and depressed mom
>she calls in uncle to help babysit me (actually just a university friend of hers)
>he is very affectionate, lots of hugging and cuddling
>starts touching me more and more and always finding reasons for me to undress
>eventually fingers pop inside me
>later licking
>introduces Mr. Peepee
>repeat and repeat until I start growing hairs and tits
>he loses interest in my around the time I'm old enough to be home alone anyway

>I know that feel i can't stay in a healthy relationship. I don't have kids but my "longest" relationship was 6 month longer and end with violence
Same for me. No relationship since 2003. No sex since New Year's Eve 2008 (which got me pregnant).

What is a represed memory

>do you were

The voids in your childhood memories where after the void, something is bugging you. The more voids you have in your memories, the more issues you have and for the life of you, you cannot remember why.

Yeah, i remember that history from a confessions thread.

Wow, it's incredible almost 10 years without sex

>almost 10 years without sex
I have a substantial toy collection though....

You mean to start to remember something and when it comes the interesting part suddenly the memory goes away?

Something where you remember that there was something, but you don't know what.
When it's mentioned, it feels like ringing a bell but the memory your brain brings up is blank, a dead end.
You know something happened. And your brain especially does.
Your brain just doesn't want your conscious, you, to remember it, because it would fuck with your personality or even your psyche.

I don't see the relation between getting raped and getting pregnant. Maybe you are the only one to blame. After all you only had to use protection, that's all.

Neighbors wife used to babysit me while my parents went to work

She’d make up excuses to touch my arm and she’d grab my butt constantly

I was only in junior high at the time

I was reading a book in a window-well at school (It was a saturday) and a sicko (who was in highschool) found me there. He kicked me in the face, flipped me over and tore my pants down. I don't remember much past the first few seconds of penetration because he hit me in the back of the head with a chunk of cement.

I woke up around dusk, crawled out of the window-well (It was 3 ft wide, about 10 ft long, and about 5 ft deep) and went home. My mother just yelled at me for fighting and made me take a bath. The water was dark red by the time I was done cleaning myself off. I tried to get her to take me to the hospital but she refused. Oh, that's another thing. It also gave me a deep distrust for authority figures.

It seems it never happened to me. I remember anything, nothing is blocked.

I think that i have a problem with that i feel really anxious if i don't have sex for two or three months.

But i really masturbate daily. And it's weird but i masturbate to that memories of being molested by my aunt sometimes

more traumatic than interesting. It's the stuff you reflexively start tuning out during and after the event, burying the memory.

Well, your mother is a failure. I'm sorry user. Worse than the rape if you ask me.

Worst was when I wore leggings, my butt was starting to get bigger and the fabric was see through

I couldn’t get 5 feet without being met with a hard smack at school, let alone at home

What happen to that motherfucker? Don't tell me that he got away with it

To have a repressed memory, you have to have been really fucking terrified in your childhood.
Trauma is closely tied with emotion.
When a situation is emotionally overtasking your mental health, it locks the memory of this situation away as a trauma.

It doesn't depend on what happened. It depends on how you felt during it.

A gentle sexual experience with a relative at the age of 6 may be remembered,
while a violent rape at 9 will most likely end up repressed.

Yeah, but unlike my rapist I got revenge on my mother. She's currently sitting in the cheapest nursing home I could find

Lol. That's good to read I guess

To my knowledge he got away with it. Not like I could have done much to identify him "White asshole with expensive boots and whispy facial hair" pretty much describes all the male teenagers in the area.

You a Dude or chick?

>When I was about 5 my mom got a new job
>She worked late so my neighbor watch me
>Normally the mom watched me and the daughter
>One day the dad watched us
>We played on the slip and slide
>Go inside and given just a tshirt to wear
>the girl had a fancy princess bed
>It had really tall bed posts and netting over the top
>We are playing on the bed and dad comes in
>He pulls a chair up to the bed
>Then he asks who can kick higher
>I only had a t-shirt on but I tried kicking
>He kept saying he didnt know who was kicking higher
>He got us to do it a bunch of times
>Then he told both of us to hold on to a bed post
>The game he said was to see who could hold on the bed post longest
>He at first hit us with a pillow
>Then he tried tickling us
>I remember wanting to win
>I also remember the bed post had tiny scratches all over it
>He got us both to stand on the bed then hold the very bottom of the bed post
>At first he pinched our butts
>Then he gave me a smack on the butt then smacked the shit out his daughter
>She let go to cover her butt
>She lost and he said that I won but he wanted to see if I could pass all the tests
>He was saying stuff like "No one has ever been as good at this game as you are"
>The daughter got off the bed and he made fun of her saying she always lost
>He told me to go back to standing on the bed and hold the bottom
>He acted like his fingers were a little person and started walking on my back
>He would stop and make the fingers jump and make a boing boing sound
>He did this all the way down to my butt
>He got close to my butt hole and I reacted by covering it with one hand holding post with other
>He got angry and said "BOTH HANDS ON THE POST"
>Then I felt his fingers go into me and he made the boing boing noise
>It hurt so bad and thats when I noticed the scratches on the post
>It wasnt scratches it was writting
>It said reply to this post or your mom dies in her sleep tonight
>she didnt die but i did get my asshole fingered

you are the big gay

>I don't see the relation between getting raped and getting pregnant.
Never claimed there was any. Just stated that the last time I had sex, i got pregnant from it.

>I think that i have a problem with that i feel really anxious if i don't have sex for two or three months.
I'm way past that by now. but I enjoy the lack of relationship drama in my life.
>But i really masturbate daily. And it's weird but i masturbate to that memories of being molested by my aunt sometimes
I have gone full circle with that too. I embrace my memories and sometimes masturbate to them as well..

You seem to naturally know where the line is drawn, I had a warped view of where it was before that cougar explained it to me as if I was a child. I miss her, she was like a sex goddess and a mother in one package. Believe me, you have nothing to worry about. Kudos, Sup Forumsro.

I was molested by a neighbor. It never went as far as penetration. I think I was just old enough to say things like "why would I do that? That sounds boring" but not old enough to understand what was going on.

I don't think it impacted my life at all. It's "a thing that happened" in the same way playing videogames was a thing that happened when I was a kid.


The molester knew that what they were doing was wrong, and tried to get me to leave / never return. Because I didn't understand what was going on, I cried and my parents made sure I could still hang out over there. (They were one of my only friends, at the time, despite being so much older)

Whenever someone brings up how molestation is always extremely damaging and leads to this-and-that, I don't mention my counter-example, because I don't want anyone to know that it happened. Especially my parents.

Anyway, other than not wanting to talk about it non-anonymously, I don't think it did anything else. I am very happily married, I don't suck dicks, I don't want to molest our daughter, and I hardly ever think about it. This thread is probably the first time in nearly a year. It just wasn't an important or defining factor in my life, at all. I much more often think about staying up with them watching The Maxx. Damn that show was awesome.

>Around 8 yo
>Always play with teenage kid (Carlos) from the hood cuz hanging out with older kids is cool
>We out playing with other small kids
>Carlos tells the other kids to wait and takes me behind an abandoned house
>Tells me it's time to do fun adult stuff
>I don't know anything about sex or sexuality
>Lays me down on the grass and pull my pants down
>Feel the cold air, seconds pass
>Feel his big, throbbing, hot boner against my butt chicks
>Spreads my ass apart
>dickpushesasshole.jpg
>Hurt
>Laugh and get up saying shit is weird and my ass hurt

So, i was just a bottle of lube short of being fucked in the ass by a neighbor, i think i liked the feel of his hot dick back there, it's weirdly comfy

I were molested as a kid but I didnt know, I thought we were playing wrestling. then one day I was boring thinking about it and I was like... that fucker always bend me over and touch me. and he always locked the door.

I was gonna freak out but then I remembered thats why normies get traumas because they make a big deal out of something that happen years ago and people pitty you so that makes you feel bad. I forgot about it the next minute and continue my life like nothing happened.

No, I didnt molest anyone

No

What did you think at the time, when you were being molested? What do you think of it now?

Absolutely the same.

> "Hey user, have you ever played strip poker?"
> "Never with a girl"
> everyone looks at me really funny, conversation ceases. Nobody ever mentions it again.
> tfw you realize you were molested as a child

Followed by, years later

> tfw you realize you were molested as a child and didn't whine about it
I understand that I was molested in a "less severe" way than a lot of people. I can understand if you had physical trauma which caused long-lasting injury, that being a generic childhood trauma. But a *lot* of molestation comes down to "they watched and told me to touch myself" which is just such a nothing thing. I don't think I could be traumatized by it if I tried.

>What did you think at the time, when you were being molested?
I'm an Asperger, so I just went along with what he told me (that it was completely normal, but it had to be a secret).
>What do you think of it now?
He didn't force or hurt me, though there were definitely some manipulation involved, and a lot of it was pleasant enough. So, it was actually mostly over before I fully realised how wrong it was. And then I spent the rest of my youth thinking that it hadn't affected me.
I have since had therapy, and now I just live with it. Meh.

I was most def moslested as a child. My dad and I lived alone after my mom went do do drug shit after my dad left her. He molsted me almost daily. Made me wear girls clothes and sit on his friends laps when they came over

What happened to your uncle, and do you ever talk to him? Did you tell anyone in your family what he did? Do you ever wish it didn't happen?

>Be me: male, 7 years old
>I share a room with my 16 yr old aunt
>She's pretty hot in my opinion
>We go to bed one night
>She can't sleep and neither can I, so we talk about stuff
>Eventually she starts messing with her hands making signs
>She asks if I played with myself randomly
>I say I have, but not sexually, just messing with my penis because lol penis are floppy and stuff
>She starts to touch it
>I like how it feels
>She continues and it feels really good
>She stops and lays back and asks me to play with her vagina
>I look at it surprised at how weird a vagina looks like
>She tells me to rub it and lick it
>I do and somehow I was rubbing her clit even though I didn't know what a clit was
>She moans and she lifts her shirt and tells me to play with her breasts
>I do so because I enjoy playing with my aunt (I legit thought it was a game or something)
>She likes it and I start to feel my first boner
>Eventually we hear someone shuffling at the door, so my aunt says stop immediately
>She told me to keep it secret
>I agree
>We fall asleep and go on to "play" more times in the future
>one year later, my family gets evicted for a stupid zoning law
>My aunt goes to live with my grandma and I go with my mom
>My aunt and I never have talked about it since and I visit her sometimes
While there were times where I "played" with my aunt, I also "played" with my uncle and I even caught my aunt and uncle make out before. We still don't talk about it and I think that they think that I forgot. One day, I will bring it up, but I want it to be in person because what they did to me was vile even though I enjoyed it a lot.

Why do you now think it affected you? Did a therapist convince you it had?

>What happened to your uncle, and do you ever talk to him?
He drifted somewhat out of our lives after he stopped "babysitting" me and he moved to the other end of the country for a new job. A few years later he got some aggressive stomach cancer and died within the year. Haven't talked to him since...
>Did you tell anyone in your family what he did?
No.
>Do you ever wish it didn't happen?
Of course.
I also wish I didn't have Aspergers
And I wish that I could understand and interact normally interaction with other people, that I was able to live a normal happy family life, and have a loving husband and friends.
But I get by with things the way they are.

You obviously care about her to consider her feelings, and sounds like you got your head on straight. Like the op said, you know where that line is drawn. Follow your gut instincts my dude, you basically have this covered. My one piece of advice: talk to your girl about this as well. Communication goes a helluva long way

>Why do you now think it affected you?
It sexualised me at an age where normal little girls just care about Barbie dolls and Disney stuff. I was a pro slut by the time my peers entered puberty, and I used it to compensate for my lack of social skills. To me sex was (is) a commodity, which is also why I didn't think twice before accepting a job at a brothel.
>Did a therapist convince you it had?
By the time I sought therapy, I had since long acknowledged the effect it had on me all by myself. I was in my mid 20s and I mainly went because I had severe problems with OCD, but also because my sister felt we needed to mend our relationship.

Have any of the specific things he did to you become fetishes for you? ex. if he played with your pooper, do you now have an anal fetish as a result

Do you need someone to hold you at night and feed you boiled eggs in the morning? We don't have to talk or sex. I'll just be there for you, holding you.

Women were a mistake.

>Have any of the specific things he did to you become fetishes for you? ex. if he played with your pooper, do you now have an anal fetish as a result
Jesus Christ, yes! Spot on!

>Do you need someone to hold you at night and feed you boiled eggs in the morning?
I'm waaay past that. I have since long realised that I'm unable to sustain relationships (or even friendships). I get all the social interaction I need - and much more - through my daughter an my sisters family!

>Jesus Christ, yes! Spot on!
I have a family member that was molested and he said the same thing. Oral fetish from being made to suck dick.

Mom took me away and made me go to a child modeling agency. Got molested and kicked out when I didn't have a cute dick anymore. I have anxiety issues among other things now but there are some things that therapy can't fix when you were molested for ~7 years.

>child models
>child actors
>gymnastics
>creepy uncle
>single mother + boyfriend
Any of the above and your kid is probably going to be molested. When will parents learn how to protect their children?

>creepy uncle
This is the worst. I mean, don't you fucking know your own brother well enough to know if it's safe to leave unattended children around him?

>child models
My mom knew they were molesting me. She let it happen because they paid her.

This happens too, in all the situations I listed, especially involving acting/modeling. Single moms might let boyfriends molest their kids if it means they'll stick around and give them money.

I was caught joking around with my friend (we were about 6) and got the shit beat out of me by my dad. I'm not sure if I was actually just joking around or if there was something sexual behind it but my memory was repressed. Anyway, i am 22 years old and I a very...Non..Sexual person. I never think about sex or get turned on, and I don't even enjoy sexual things when I try them for the sake of trying them.

Nice

Yep. I was active with other boys and men. Never got fucked by anyone over 16 but I did with boys under. Sans the sex stuff, I had a better time at the warehouse than at home.

if she's still hot you should totally meet her again

I, in some degree, was.
When i was 4 yo or so a 7 yo girl pick me up and show me vago and ass, but thats about all.

My father told that when he was young like 5 or 6 a 20 yo nerd girl abused him.

cunt

Was 10 and used to hang out at my friend's house after school. He had a 17yo sister. She would suck our dicks and let us fuck her. We would suck and fuck each other in front of her as well, she got off on it. First time I busted a nut was in her mouth. She got married moved away and eventually got divorced. Went to visit her when she was in her 30's. Spent the night. Fucked her, her brother and her 3 kids. Still get together once and a while and get it on.

>Fucked her, her brother and her 3 kids
Wow, you are a horrible person. I can't believe you'd fuck a grown man.

It's ok because he was eating a 13yo's pussy at the time while her mom masterbated to it.

>her three kids
How old were they?

8, 11, 13

Wtf why did I read this

damn thats rough

stone cold nigga