>Fail to commit suicide >Family is heartbroken, mother especially >She stays by my hospital bed for two weeks, almost getting fired from work >I don't say a word to her >When they finally allow me to leave I just lay in my bed >Mum tries to cheer me up >She brings home a Leonard Cohen record >"Here user, I bought you this record. You always use to play his music around the house. I wanted to cheer you up" >Don't even roll over the bed to say thank you, just lay there paralysed >She leaves it on the bed >Couple weeks later Dad divorces her and she moves three states away >Never really talk to her again, only at christmas when she visits >She's always supportive and interested in me wanting me to succeed >I can barely look her in the eyes >15 minutes ago Dad calls me to tell me she's past away
I fucking love you ma. I'm sorry I'm such a coward. I won't ever let it happen again. I can't do this anymore.
