>be me
>huge sadboy, have constat depression for years
>had a gf of 2 years which made things brighten up a bit
>we break up
>depression strikes like lightning
>people keep telling me nice stuff and give me advice to get better
>none of it is helping
>listen to sad music to feel even worse
>thinking about ending it all
Why am I like this? When does it all end? Should I just kill myself?
no user, you shoudn't
you should kys manlet scum
When I was younger, I always had a vision of myself doing stuff, but no longer do I have that vision or have anything to live for or strive to
Yeah I'm considering it for real
how are you planning to do it?
>I bet you couldn't even suicide properly
Thought about shooting myself, but getting a gun here isn't easy. The second option is to hang myself which I probably will do
explain "here"
you can get hands on guns way easier than you think
don't bro, so much shit to do. go do whatever you never thought you would do.
I'm from Montenegro, South-Eastern Europe, the Balkans
It depends. How old are you?
I'm old enough to get one legally, but the process is extremely tight and I have to take a psychological test (which I won't)
No. I mean your age depends on whether you should just end yourself. How old are you?
Which I won't pass I mean
I'm turning 20, about to turn 21 soon
Feel ya op
Been in depression for 9 years which makes more than 3rd of my life, have no close friends besides some dudes I try to talk to at my uni / old high school "friends" I barely talk to, no femanon friends at all.
Always been that guy that was kinda silent minding his own. Even though I'm passing basicly everything at my uni without any effort I still feel like shit and drink my ass listening to music everyday.
Not feeling like killing myself, tbh I dont feel shit and I'm too lazy / emotionless to do anything including ending it, so I just exist.
youre like this because you have no goal in life, no reason to live.
No goal in life also roughly translates to not feeling responsible for ones own success and happiness. It's no surprise you depended your entire sense of happiness on your ex and once she left you plummeted into depression again.
Try imagine what is something thats good in life. Then try to make it a little better. Babysteps. Can be anything trivial. Once this becomes easy, try to improve something about your life thats more fundamental.
Try to imagine whats shitty in life and easily fixable. You probably have a messy room. Try to clean it up. Thats the only thing you'll have to do today. Once you've done that, write down how you felt about the process as detailed as possible. Rince and repeat. Once this becomes easy, take up bigger tasks by thinking of the things about your life that are more fundamentally bad. Extrapolate.
Doing the most basic stuff like cleaning up your place, making dinner, applying structure to your life makes up half a day, at least. Doing them well means you are actually doing 50% of your life well.
Then no. Don't be fucking stupid. If you were like 40+ then I'd say go for it. It won't get any better. But 21? Fucking hell man, you could be in a completely different situation in 10 years time. Shit changes a lot. If you're still feeling like this when you hit 40,s then end it. But I suspect you'll look back and think you were being a fucking twat.
I lost all my friends cause depression. I have a feeling that people are being nice to me just so they can say they were nice to a depressed person and feel better about themselves.
don't be stupid man, in 21 years you have the whole world ahead of you
I know it¨s hard and it seems pointless, but an hero is permanent solution for temporary problem
plus I bet there are still people that would miss you, like your family
I have a job, so that takes up most of my time. I've already tried some of the things you mentioned but I can't bring myself to be consistent enough
So you're suggesting I should live just for the hope that one day it gets better?
My family's completely broken so I doubt that anyone except my dog would actually miss my sorry ass. Anons that replied here care more about me than my family.
I feel like my depression started after I realised I have no friends at all. I simply didn't learn to meet people / make friends since I was little and only people I'm around are there because we are doing the same thing (middle school / high school / uni). Idk why that happened, my family is actually decent. When I was like 7 I had to take some psychological tests and I had highest IQ result in the history of the clinic, so maybe I'm one of those "smart" people that can't socialise. I'm not bragging or anything just trying to understand this shit.
I'm suggesting 21 is way too young to decide it won't get any better.
Well, smart people usually get depressed more because they tend to overanalyze everything and overthink stuff. Their socialising is also impaired due to intelligence as they do not appreciate cheap laughs and shit, if you understand where I'm getting at now. I've heard this from my psychology teacher back in highschool
And why is that?
Makes sense, I mean I do analye things a lot (had taken some weird ass test during school and it said im like 70 something thinking / analysing) but I feel like I'm really nice, at least I try to be.
It stops if you stop to think about it. If you're woring the whole time why you have no motivation and why you can't do anything about it, how would it be even possible to think about something else but you.
It will get fixed with time dw
Can you elaborate please?
Because the vast majority of time it does. People in their 30's, for example, have a very different life than they did in their late teens/early 20's. Shit changes, even without you needing to do anything.
thanks, I hope so
Hey user, don't kys. There's always hope you'll get better. Plus, there's always people who have it worse than you.
< OP that is your inevitable future
You're like this because you are incapable of taking responsibility for your own state of mind.
Try harnessing your negative energy for a positive result. It takes effort to be sad. It takes effort to put on sad music. It takes effort to exist.
Take the effort you put into those self-destructive pursuits and channel it into self-education, self-improvement, etc. What are the things that you really want in life? Don't say "to be happy". I mean specific examples.
Do you want to climb a mountain? Go do it! Do you want to learn to play an instrument? DO IT.
It might be cliche, but
JUST DO IT
I hate it when they say that. Your problem is your own, and is tragic for you, and that sentence should not be used as a problem 'lessener' but thanks for the kind words user
Don't do it user, I'll renember you more dearly for being a normal living user than for being an hero. It's just better to try to make the best of your life than to give up and be forgotten.
Its all bullshit. just go out for a run. then do something for 100 hours and you will be decent at it, call it a hobby. improve yourself. its the only way of getting out the hole, i made it out after 3 years of constant depression and antidepressant pills
I see where you're getting at, but I simply cannot be consistent enough in those things
are an heroes forgotten?
as I said a few times before, I do not have enough consistency in anything
I know I'm being very cheesy and all, but I'm trying to provide legitimate help here, even if it's in the form of kind words. You shouldn't do it as long as there's at least one person in the world that wants you here.
Did you take the advice though?
You could say they are. They die, then people only renember them for dying, and they eventually fall into obscurity. At least that's my take. Do you want to be renembered for being an user, or an hero? Being an user is way more fun.
Not gonna sugar cost it man, I've got depression too so speaking from experience you need to put your mind to work on other things. If you've got free time to think about being depressed, you aren't actually looking for happiness in the first place, you're used to the depressed feeling and there's a certain level of comfort in complacency. Fuck that shit off man, get yourself some money and do some stuff that makes you happy, don't worry about chicks or love until you feel happy in your own element. Once you do, find a chick with similar interests and hit her up but without expectations. Don't assume the effort will fail, just don't expect it to be your one true love kinda shit and you'll have a much greater chance of seeing a relationship last.
neither did i. force yourself to do it. i swear the only hard part is the first week, then its a breeze. dont even have to do much the first week. go out for a run. look for a hobby and be absolute shit at it. one week. i promise.
It's okay user, I appreciate it
Do you want me to tell you my story? I was bullied a lot. The thought of being an hero never passed my mind, because all I focused on was improving myself and living my life the best way possible. The end of the line doesn't exist as long as you don't want it to, user. Don't do it.
Yes, none of it helped in the long run
Thanks user, this sounds well, but as I said before, I fail to be consistent in anything but being depressed
okay, I'll try something I guess
How is the question
As a side note:
I wish to thank you all for taking your time to speak with me. You're the real Sup Forumsros and I love you. Your user here is shedding some tears.
Oh cry baby I have major depressive disorder I used to do heroin got out of rehab recently and now I'm stuck in a men homeless shelter because I lost everything gf even cheated on me.
But you know what I wake yo in that bunk in a wearhouse with 50+ other men and say I'm gonna kick today's ass. Then I take my medications and kick its ass. Life could always be worse also get on a anti depressant they do help
That's because you're used to it. Get used to doing something else and make it work to your benefit.
By trying. I'm not saying "never give up follow your dreams" and that stuff, but to fix my unattractiveness I started having martial arts classes, for example. If you have problems with something, make the best out of something else. And the "I'm not good at anything" argument isn't an excuse. Start building a skill, get friends while you do that, they'll support you, that stuff. Get involved in something, and people will get involved with you.
No problem user, I'm all ears. Just a fellow sufferer helping another sufferer.
Daj odjebi s ovim gej sranjima. Il ces pocet zivjet onak kak oces i radit sta god oces(a sigurno ima nes kaj volis) il se odi odma ubi.
Damn that's rough. I wish you all the best (wo)man
Also, I don't really want to go to a shrink to get them, I really don't
So just get a start?
For some reason, I always push myself out of those things lol
But I'll try that as well
and now you guys know what a croatian cuck sounds like. Speak in English
Dude just accept that ur gunna feel like shit most of the time. U can do all u can to feel better but ur still gunna feel like shit, what can u do. I box, I have hobbies, friends, I eat healthy and have goals that I'm striving toward but I still have good days and bad weeks. Personally I'd rather be alive but that's just me.
Just fuckin deal with it bro not all of us are supposed to be happy
I don't even want to be happy 24/7. I just want a reason, something to live for. But it's nowhere in sight.
Hurr durr croatian cuck xdxdxd
Kys boy. Either get on with your life or end it right here right now kthxbai
bye ustasha. I swear this guy is a fucking epitome of the mentality of the Balkan people
My best friend an hero at 21. Please god user of nothing else just fake it until u die old or on accident.
Shit set me off and almost lost my job and my wife because i couldnt fucking function.
You have no idea the people that will come oit of the woordwork feeling like guilty shitty people...
Just dont man.
Andrew Cutler Protocol
Enough said
I remember at one point when I was 19, I wanted to kms just to make others suffer. Depression + anger I guess
I still feel like shit to this day because of that
Find interests, find a job that compliments those interests but isn't directly related so it doesn't burn you out while you're doing it. The idea is to be able to have your enjoyment but still make money without completely hating everyday life. Keep branching off and finding other interests, that way when you're off and chatting up the females, you've got some shit to talk about. Get yourself some homies, even if you just go and grab a beer after work with a few guys. Look for common ground with people, don't worry about lasting friendships and just chill.
>bye ustasha. I swear this guy is a fucking epitome of the mentality of the Balkan people
Im not stuck in the 90s,the war is gone. Nice try :^)
And how am i an epitome of any mentality? Because i told the guy to either get on living or just kill himself? Get some logic boyo
Look at it this way, user.
150 years ago, you would have most likely either grown up on a farm in the middle of nowhere, breaking your back to feed yourself and your family of 12 kids (of which only 3 would live past 20) every single day until you died at the ripe old age of 50 ... OR you would have lived in a squalor-encrusted city with almost zero toilets. Either way, though, everything smelt like shit.
Just remember that this is, in spite of all the bullshit and liberalism we have to put up with in our modern times, probably the best time to be a living human being.
Checked them dubs.
You don't have to go to your primary care doctor tell them what's up I am in mitrazapine paxil and gabbapentin also suboxone but that's for my opioid addiction. I had to do a mental evaluation in rehab but you normal doc can get you on something. Most anti depressants take up to a month to work so take them everyday and do not just stop taking them the withdrawals can be bad. Another good thing to do is make a list of things you are grateful for and add to it you are not in a shelter sharing a shower sleeping on a prison style bunk lol god speed user we are all gonna make it
I appreciate it. You might think it doesn't work at first, but it does. Believe me.
I feel like I just torture people with my presence
It's ok user. When you turn 18 you'll get some real life problems and this "depression" you're feeling right now is nothing but an attention seeking thing.
Endless opprotunities and crap?
It can. The rage at the smallest shit. Beyond triggered at random. Shit sucks
Wdym? I'm about to turn 21 soon and this shit's been going on for almost 7 years.
How so?
Constant feeling of the creeping panic attacks and dread of being a bore and weight to others
how big is your cock?
if it's not tiny then go out there and find someone new
if it is well thats the reason she left you and you probably should have killed yourself when you reached the final point of puberty
The thing is, when I was younger I never had anger issues or anything like that. It wasn't like me at all.
I was on the fence tbh. It's a fucked up feeling. Nothing on earth comes close to feeling that bad. I almost an hero in my fucking house. Dogs in the house, wife home any second. Just did not fucking care and wanted it to end. Im sure my fatass will have a heart attack in my 50s and die. I hope
I'm nearly 8 inches, but how does that matter if I can't bring myself to approach another female ever since
Listen to doom metal.
Get /fit/ as fuck.
No excuses.
The way you go can make people judge you after death. Not that it matters though
21? I see now,do you have any hobbies or a job or something? Or do you just sit at the computer all day listening to sad songs? I was exactly the same and i cut myself and all that dumb shit. And then i've decided to actually do something instead of just keep on living inside my head. I did some parkour and it made me feel alive and i haven't been 'depressed" ever since. Find your interests user. Life is fucking HUGE.
>>people keep telling me nice stuff and give me advice to get better
>>none of it is helping
>Asks Sup Forums for advice
I can't get fit because I barely eat, I tried that at some point. But the doom metal part is check.
One of the best non-generic advices for random stuff in my life came from Sup Forums
Same here man. I get it. Trauma can fuck your shit up. Or just slowly slipping into depression. It's absolute aids. Goog luck bro.
I have a job, and sometimes I 'make music' on FL Studio just to pass time.
do you work?
ever dedicated yourself to a purpose?
I am a huge sadboy myself, was in the process of killing myself a few years ago but ofc it dident work out that way.
I just lost my GF aswell, about 6 months ago and I can barely function now.
but yeah...
Get a job
Thanks user
tes
I work. It didn't help as much as I think it would
Go out into the middle of the woods and yell your head off, it'll help. Part of panic attacks is keeping emotions bottled up because you don't know when to let them out, so practice doing so. Worrying about being a bore won't do anything for you, it actually doesn't matter unless you make it matter. Finding interests ties in with this, it gives you something to talk about so being a bore becomes a non-issue regardless.