How depressed is Sup Forums?

how depressed is Sup Forums?

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kinda depressed lately, grandmother passed away few days ago

right now
pretty depressed
feel like im cursed with women

not really

i'm a cuck, legit, so pretty depressed.

if you a depressed nigga then you a depressed nigga, i feel yall

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dont you say that user
women are just kind of sluts

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so depressed that it feels like a ghost is cupping mah balls.

grandfather died about a month or so ago. i know that feel. he could be a jerk but damn do i miss him. isnt the same. he did a lot for me. rip in peace bro

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Is that you ashley?

maybe if it was normal to be a cuck I wouldn't hate myself for it. But it's not normal.

what do you mean by "being a cuck" ?

I enjoy feeling emasculated, in theory. Not enjoy, I hate it but it turns me on. I enjoy being submissive. Goes agaisnt everything I stand for.

Really depressed. Due to the macho chicken-shit that have to live with for the rest of our lives, we are not allowed to show sadness where I live. That is why it has been turning into anger, and I have been trying to numb myself with pot or alcohol.

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roll

More than any of that though I enjoy thinking of my gf with other guys. I don't know why I'm so defective as a male.

Enough to browse Sup Forums in my spare time...

bro, sex and real like isnt the same thing.
Wanting to get submissive with your partner isnt what imakes you weak.
What makes you weak and unmasculine, is to let people you care for down.

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where do you live user ?

dagestan?

Mexico

I spent at least the majority of my day thinking about how much easier it would be to kill myself that continue onward.
I've run out of reasons to think that it's wrong or that I shouldn't be thinking it.
I've accepted that life itself is meaningless and that I am only inflicting pain upon others by pretending to be invested in them or the world around me.
I haven't killed myself solely because my greed and hatred towards things I want and things I can't have are stronger than I myself am.
I'm not trying to be an edgelord or anything like that. I'm just at an impasse that I see no returning from. I am emotionless day in and day out with no direction.

coming to Sup Forums for depression threads is rock bottom. just end it all right now OP

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>soundcloud.com/milkyfriend/allnight
holy shit you are fucking gay

Gf and friends left me, i feel lonely

Clinically.

Going to an hero via exit mask

Think about suicide every fucking day

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Relatable

u wanna talk bro?

Been a bit depressed lately. Not a very religious person, don't know if God exists in some form or not. Never really bothered me though because if no God, then oblivion after I die I figure is like going to dreamless sleep and that's it, no existence or pain. Made the mistake of having kids and they're entering that age where they're understanding and fearing death. Feel like I screwed up, will they wish like I have a times that they'd never been born? Was it selfish to have them? When they grow up will they be happy just to have been able to experience life? Kinda shit going on in my head right now.

Not really, what is there to say?

When I'm depressed I find 6 dogs oddly soothing.

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not at all i just got back from a nice day at the river with my friend now im eating a nice ass sandwich
lifes great

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pretty much except no friends

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whole life depression here, like not deep sadness but feeling meaningless of life on my back. Had plenty of friends and "friends" and lost it all coz i couldnt act caring anymore

cut all omgs and its fine

Lowkey think they're good
>sing along time

I’m bouta pop a handful of vyvanse and wash it down with a four loko. Pce Sup Forums

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this song was on constantly during the height of my depression when I stuck a gun in my mouth and drank 40's in the shower every morning lol

Pretty depressed. I'm trying to push through it, but I have a feeling I'll be dead within a month

where u live and how old is u

Good combo

Yo. Its hard, having to be tough all the time cause thats whats expected.

>be me
>10 min ago
>come home from work
>call out to see if anyone's home
>parents no home went out to eat with friends
>brothers no home having fun with friends and girlfriends
>as I silently enter cant help but think how much of a loser I am
>find my dog
>"looks like its just you and me again girl"
>i start to cry because no friends
>dog comes up and jumps on legs
>hug dog and cry

Why am i like this Sup Forumsros? I never usually feel like this except for holidays.

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Hate my life, but too much of a pussy to end it. Anyone in Jacksonville wanna end it for me?

found out i have cancer a couple days ago. i'm 22

Got my cancer diagnosis a little over a month ago.

Feel you bro. Turning 21 in a month.

listen fags if u think ur life sucks I just jacked off to interracial cuck porn for the 7th time today. I wanna die.

You're lonely and depressed, user. You need to find something to do outside of the home, to give you something to look forward to after work.

what kind of cancers did you guys get? was it avoidable?

Dude, download discord and chat it up with people.
Make some friends, or go play some vidya.

If you allow yourself to wallow in self-pity. It'll only get worse. Go walk your dog in the park. They're chick magnets.

Maybe, you might just find grillfren

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how old are you where do you live?

I still haven't recovered from the love of my life dumping me a year ago. All i do is drink, smoke and play CS:GO all day every day to try to forget.

$$$ tho?

I've been kinda down because at some point I think I fucked up with a qt.
Here is the context of the situation:

>I am 19, she's 22
>meet at a course
>stress made us bond somehow (She told me her internal problems, so did I)
>We break communication for like a week after course
>Decide to reach out
>She tells me she likes to go to the lighthouse, to which I respond with "I've never been to the lighthouse"
>she invites me to go on sunday calling it a "chill hangout" but on saturday she canceled because of work
>No problem, I decide to keep on messaging for the next two weeks even though she answers super late
>Monday asked her if she is under stress, she didnt replied until the next day with something along the lines of "yeah, no biggie though"
>Obviously she is not that into me, so I decide to send her something along the lines of "That's good to know, if you need anything you can always reach out" in order to kind of break away from the conversation for good
>She responds with "well, the biggie is actually a really big biggie" "everything is fucked up"
>asked her "what kind of biggie is it?" "whats wrong"
>sent her that last message on Thursday, she hasn't answered

We are having a holiday this monday, and I was thinking about sending her a message with something like
- I am going to the lighthouse on monday to chill since I have been feeling like shit, if you have something you need to let out, or just want to talk to someone we could go together.

I really need advice.
Is this a good way of letting her know that I am not gonna be waiting for her? or should I actually wait for her?Does she wants me around to be her emotional pillow?

Man. Shit sucks
I was diagnosed with Lymphoma. Not sure if I caused it but I was heavy drinking and smoking for quite a while. Apparently quite treatable but depressing and terrifying still.

I'm losing my only friend, if he is gone I will be alone all by myself.

I'm alone, and depressed, in Europe.

Yay

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Was about to check myself into a psych unit earlier today because of my bipolar and anxiety, but I started drinking so everything’s good for now.

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>coming to Sup Forums for depression threads is rock bottom

haha, it is, isn't it?

Leukemia.

Not avoidable.

i usually want to die, but then i got high

i will be any ones friend ifthey want i play alot of vidya gems on the pc and stuff

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What have you been doing to pass the time? I don't know what to do with my fucking self. I'm guessing you've started treatment?

who in vegas who wants a friend. 20 male

somehow that made me feel better. how silly is that?

What games you play, user?

How old are ya dude? Were the kids planned?

i play tark, siege six, alot at the moment but i have a collection

this accurately sums up my life

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My brother had luekemia at the age of 6. He's alive and kicking today at the age od 26.

You'll be fine.

How are you losing him?

all i do is go from videogame to videogame and pretend that i'm doing something because i'm too anxious to try to live up to any potential i have in the real world

i'm gonna try uni this fall but i fucking hate studying and i don't fit in at all around normies. all my "friends" are as antisocial and hardened as me so i cant make connections with normal human beings, i also have trouble going out and just having fun. i've had a psychologist tell me straight up that i'm a socially paranoid sociopath which is good to know. (just to be clear i don't wanna hurt people for no reason, i just don't feel connections or empathy in the same way as most people do)

i've never had a girlfriend, i barely have friends, and i feel like i'm wasting every moment even though i have no idea what would be a better thing to do

would never off myself though. suicide is the ultimate weakness and the most selfish thing you can do. life is about taking the suffering on the chin and moving on. i just need to know where to go

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Started treament almost right away after finding out. Next sessions starts after this weekend.

To pass the time: sleeping.
During our 24 hours a day I spend maybe 22-23 of those hours in bed, the 24th hour in a comfy chair. And I sleep for maybe 17-18 hours a day and rest like 4 of the remaining hours.

You haven't started treatment yet bro?

Glad to hear about your bro!

Thanks friend, I do hope so.

I played a little bit of Tarkov myself. Wasn't a huge fan.. It could be that my computer doesn't have the best specs.

I've also played a bit of Siege, and it's an alright game. Uninstalled it a while ago 'cause I barely played.

What do you like best about EFT?

pretty depressed when Im not way too euphoric and exited about simple things

Hipocrite

I'm 37. They were planned but now I wonder if it was a mistake and if it was selfish. Would most people want to live even if not sure if something comes after? Will they curse me for bringing them into this world when they're older? Shit bothers me but maybe I'm overthinking it.

same. all my friends left me and i drooped out of uni so now i just sit in bed. the only reason I don't end it all is because I wouldn't want to destroy my parents lives

Horribly. My medication isn't working and I've spent the majority of yesterday and today fucked up. I've only been awake for two hours (woke at 5PM) and I'm planning on blacking out tonight and possibly doing the same tomorrow. I'm a collegefag and my work is piling up because I'm in a "do it tomorrow" mentality and I'm secretly hoping ayy lmaos will destroy the world because I'm too much of a pussy to OD.

>pic related

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No I haven't. I just got my results but I have an appointment to set them up on wednesday. I've been doing a lot of sleeping but not that much

It feels like I have that, it had a strangle hold on me for a while (I was desperately trying to make it back to a thread I had created which required a WiFi network because Sprint blocks Sup Forums). By the time I found one the thread was gone and my potential friends disapeared.

And then the are other things that makes it worse or calms things down. Just the normal things (a dead-line, trying to find a way and the fire wall before it's too late, getting lost) but the resulting stress is just write for me, I think.

So maybe it's not bipolar, but the resulting mood swings are incredible

It's my last refuge when I have no one else

Where are you?

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telling suicidally depressed people to just buck up and start enjoying existence is patronising and condescending.

"All you have to do is bear with the day as it comes because tomorrow is a guaranteed-to-be-different day than today."
bullshit. you think people just have a bad day and decide to end it all? it comes after years and years of misery and anxiety.

>It's my last refuge when I have no one else

Sup Forums was much more uplifting when everyone wasn't depressed or pretending to be depressed. self-pity and depression are contagious. maybe i'll stop coming here, but it truly is a shame how cheap internet humor has become. oh well.

Southeast US.

Mid-west

What kind of help do you need?

i agree, it's not usually something you can fix with a simple change in attitude. although it sometimes does get better without much apparent reason. usually you need something to look forward to or something you can draw on for energy.

I see, the best of luck to you.

The reason why I sleep so much is cause I have done the treament that is the most exhausting, leaving me with no other choice than resting.
You will soon notice how unmotivated and constantly tired you wil be.

>usually you need something to look forward to or something you can draw on for energy.

Exactly. Everybody needs friends and family as positive reaffirmation. Without this system, accomplishments mean nothing, unless you're a narccissit who does things solely to post on fb, instagram, etc

sometimes that doesn't cut it either. you need to believe you're moving forward, that you have something you need to accomplish or do besides working for subsistence. or at least, that's how i feel anyway.

I need an advice.
My best friend turned 18 two weeks ago. She got raped by three men about a week ago. Is in treatment for like.. 3 days.
She was depressed before, Borderline, Step-father is an alcoholic.
How in the heavens, she already tried to kill herself three times, am I supposed to help her?
What can I say?
What can I possibly do?

Thanks in advance Sup Forumsros

Yeah i'm not excited for that. Feels slightly comforting knowing someone else around my age is going through the same thing. Best of luck to you as well man. Fuck cancer

Feeling like pic related

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Nothing can really help at this point. I don't want to check back into a hospital since the most they can do is order an emergency medication change and provide group therapy which pretty much consists of "don't kill yourself, mkay?". If I had access to heroin or morphine I'd cash out tonight, but I don't. I'd use a gun but I want my body to be intact for an open burial.

What is it even like to be depressed?