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just let it end already editon

CHI

i know

CHI
>seeing happy couples
>seeing happy people
>the pleasant summer breeze reminds you of all that you missed out in your teens
I mean it's an easy job and it helps me build quite a bit of savings since half of my paycheck does not go to cover rent which is the case for most wagecucks but it's still depressing.

CA
NO

just accept being alone you say you still enjoy doing things so put more time into those things

I guess. I've been working quite a bit. It takes my mind off things for a bit, it's all well and good as long as I don't think too much about the customers and compare myself to them.

i'm pretty much getting to the point of being alone for the rest of my life my only problem is I no longer enjoy anything

I am still clinging on to hope that something will happen. I have accepted that I have fucked up badly and that I can never make up for what I have done, and even less for what I did not do. I doubt I can ever be a normie now, but maybe I can be something not so pathetic, atleast I can become better than I am now.

Though I too fear being alone forever. I have never really connected with anyone on a more than superficial level. There has always been something that others had that I lacked in social interaction. I had a half-chance to socialize but I did not really warm up to the activity itself, I probably should have done that since those opportunities are rare but I still didn't. I guess going when you don't really want to is how people make friends, right? And it's not like I got invited anyhow, it was more of a situation where I could have invited myself. I remember having the thought "this life is not for me" the first time in middle school, I have been thinking about that more and more often nowadays.