>Butchered my first year at uni
>Probably going to drop out of uni
>Bad insomnia
>Don't know what the fuck i'm going to dowith my life
>Probably going to end up just being another guy who no one remembers working a deadened retail job
>I really feel like i have nothing
>Genuinely concerned i might commit suicide one of these days
Music for this feel, i'm feeling so low at the moment. I don't know what to do.
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if it makes you feel any better OP, most people don't know what to do even after they go to college
Going through more college should fix your problems.
don't kill yourself, it won't work even if you succeed, you'll just wake up the next day like nothing happened.
At least they've accomplished finishing college though.
Here, OP, good luck
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Finish that shit. Most people dont give a fuck about gpa but degrees matter
Why didn't you do well at university? Was it the program you enrolled in or what?
I don't understand how people fuck up university. The simple fact of how much money it is costing me to even be there is enough motivation for me to work my ass off in every single class.
i hate my college so fucking much. listen here, if you dont go to a top 25 school, then just dont bother. everywhere else is laden with retards who dont even do their coursework and major in shit like early childhood education. college should be reserved for people who are interested in academics, not people who are just trying to get a job.
Learn a trade. You’ll probably make more money if that is a goal.
Insomnia, anxiety and only being able to sleep when i feel absolutely exhausted resulting in irregular sleeping hours have played a big part
but I've always been a procrastinator and have found it difficult to get out of the habit of not leaving everything in my life to the last second,
No but really, youre not alone in feeling lost and confused.
Id recommend Andrew WK's new album. It might offer you some valuable insight.
Ye brah just work your ass off bro ye bro motivation bro
sorry to hear that man. i'm in a similar boat, been super sad and depressed for the past couple of months, i'm feeling like i'm unable to stop digging myself deeper.
you gotta see someone or at least talk to a friend/family member about it. planning suicide is a hellish road to go down. the more you fixate on the idea the more it just scares the shit out of you and makes you more unlikely to do it. at least that's how it's been for me. not that i would want you to do it at all, but i'm saying that it's not the way to find peace like you think it is.
>Genuinely concerned i might commit suicide one of these days
yeah because suicide is the same thing as accidentally slipping on a banana peel
>whoops, I killed myself
go to the fucking gym faggot
that's bull. you can't just rationalize yourself into a motivated and reasilient outlook. telling someone they're spoiled and ungrateful is just shitty self-gratification on your part.
A lot of suicides/attempts are impulsive decisions. I think that's when people are more likely to actually go through with it, as opposed to something they've been meticulously planning for months.
yeah, some people just get the shit end of the stick. most faggots on this board or any board for that matter crying mu depression are just lazy beta faggots who have shitty lifestyles. fix yourself or kill yourself niggers
>doesn't read my post
>does the thing i said was shitty
maybe you need a patch up as well dude
Holy shit, all talk and no music
You're at a crossroads in your life right now. You can blame the shit that is happening to you on other, outside aspects (nebulous forces like insomnia) or you can take responsibility and actually do something about it. Some tips:
>Block Sup Forums from your browser. Seriously this place is cancer. Pick a time in the night (say midnight to start) and at that point turn off your phone and computer and read a book until you are tired enough to sleep.
>Exercise is the only thing that has helped me with anxiety.
>Procrastination is something I struggled with too but it can be broken. Train yourself to have a good work ethic. Realize that university isn't free and you are lucky to be in the spot you are in right now. What are you majoring in? Are you taking classes that interest and engage you or are you just taking some boring STEM shit because of the vague promise of "money" even though you'll hate your life doing it?
I can sort of understand where you are coming from. My anxiety led me down a spiral of drug addiction and suicidal thoughts until my parents intervened. I was in engineering for two years before I came to terms with the fact that it wasn't what I wanted to do with my life, and that maths and sciences bored me to tears. I'm now in an arts degree program trying to maintain a 3.6 gpa so I can follow my dream of going to law school. I'm driven to do this because it's something I actually WANT to do. Plus I can take classes that interest and excite me and do well in them.
You can make choices to improve your quality of life, but they are choices you have to make. I know this is just a shitty post on Sup Forums and won't have the same impact on you as it did on me when my dad threatened my life for being a junky after he gave me every opportunity, but maybe it's a start.
I appreciate the advice and perspectives from others, it's partly why i made the thread tb h.
>Sup Forums is a music board
how new are you
am i supposed to feel sorry for people who don't have enough drive to fix themselves? faggots like OP sit around WAITING for somebody to FIX THEIR PROBLEMS FOR THEM.
For the people who aren't suffering from crippling mental illness, it's called laziness and some made-up spoon-fed story about how life is supposed to be easy and relaxing GUESS WHAT, it's not. life is about hard work and improvement and nobody is going to give it to you except yourself. stop hiding behind this stupid fucking muh depression meme and force yourself to do shit you don't want to do because that's called life faggot
people cant help if they're lazy. some people are naturally lazy just like some people are naturally stupid.
you sound like a cunt
I feel like this is a good album to listen to
Helped me at least
This user knows what he's talking about
I recommend using blue light filter settings on all electronics and forcing yourself to shut them out after a certain time. Cut out social media for a while if you use it, or even all internet if you can. Find something else you can do with your time. Walk around in nature, exercise, something to better yourself or connect you with the world.
About the suicidal feelings, talk to a friend or family member. Go to therapy if it's viable. Go help yourself.
Agree with these but nowadays the general high schoolers get it pounded in their brains that they'll be nothing if they dont succeed in academics
Dude, everyone that's not a madcunt A+ STEMmer almost drops out.
At least finish undergrad, even if it means entirely changing your course to something potentially useless in the job market that you know you'll actually enjoy.
One of many conclusions that you'll come to in the infinite amount of time left to you after you've graduated is that every job sucks, and it's your social life, interests, and personal goals that are actually the most important facets of fulfillment.
In short, chill out man. It's not a big deal, just battle on.
>Depression doesn't exist
>Social Anxiety doesn't exist
You're a fucking idiot you retard
this
THIS
well then maybe those people should just fucking kill themselves for being beta-males and eliminate their shit genes and inability to make good lifestyle choices from the gene pool
sometimes the truth hurts
this desu.
>hey don't be depressed also you're an ungrateful piece of shit
fuck that
okay? and what else? i'm just sick and tired of young 20 somethings crying about how their life fucking sucks and they're going to kill themselves because they can't life properly
>Having to pay gross amounts of money for college
Kek
Oh, and listen to Kayo Dot- Choirs of the Eye. It's blissfully overwhelming.
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*desu not desu
good reply btw
I agree with this actually. So many people refuse to take responsibility for anything in their lives. They just "muh depression" themselves to suicide. I've been there. And I can tell you that depression is a direct product of the lifestyle choices you make. When I was living off of potato chips, cigarettes, and Sup Forums I felt like shit contantly and wanted to die. Looking back I wonder what the fuck was wrong with me that I didn't see the problem. Get sleep, get exercise, eat healthy, and you will see changes. It's biology and science. We didn't evolve to be eating junk food and staying indoors all the time so when we do our bodies just say "what in the FUCK is going on" and shut down.
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Didn't say depression doesn't exist.. I just believe in most cases which are not >>sevre, diagnosed mentall illnesses
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How retarded are you that thinking that advocating for good lifestyle choices is Sup Forums
i think it's one of those sever mental illnesses i was referring to
Something something Jordan Peterson something chemical imbalance something something republicans something empathy something something walk a mile in their shoes.
i don't think you actually give a shit about helping anyone, you're just bitter.
Just learn to code. Developers are rich people. It's still better than death
why should i give a fuck? i have my own life to worry about.
if you don't have the iq to find out why your lifestyle is shit, or where to look to better it, i'd prefer your genes fall out anyway
College is over rated bullshit OP. Quit that shit and learn a trade. I'm a journeymen apprentice and even in on the job training and one day of school every 10 days I am being paid more than any job I've ever had.
Just wait till your hair starts thinning. Should be any week now.
Sounds like a middle schooler coming up with excuses for why they aren't doing their homework lmao. Pick yourself up, those are all textbook self diagnosed pseudopsycho complaints
You're going to armchair psychoanalyze that guy for "bitterness" while laying in bed till the early morning hours, eating shit, not working out, and blaming your unhappiness on "depression"
huh
if you drop out after first year, you dodged a bullet. it only gets worse from there so don't waste any more of your time at uni. get a job, work for a bit, travel somewhere cool. get some more perspective on life and then you can decide what kind of adult job you want. after you know, it's a lot easier. think about trades or technical school. you can get a diploma and land a decent paying job before your friends have even graduated uni.
LMAOing @ the sad fucks thinking that being depressed is an excuse to be a pathetic sack of shit. Get help, get treatment, strive to be better and bam.
Be depressed, have anxiety, whatever you want, but don't pretend it isn't in you to at least aim for a better life.
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Your insomnia is because you've developed a cycle of staying up all night and sleeping through the day. Force yourself to stay up then go to bed at a fixed time every night.
You can easily go back to uni and give it another go next year. I went to uni at 20, at 18 I wasn't up to it
as for the insomnia usually changing your diet and exercising helps
Also This
This is exactly why I want to kill myself. The thought of all there is to life being work and then you die makes me just want to die without having to do all that work. But the second I talk about suicide, people begin to insist that there is so much to life for and life is beautiful.
this is retarded advice for STEM, anything else though and its correct
Yeah I remember being 19 and sad too. You would honestly be better off killing yourself. It will never get better. Take it from a tr00 oldfag who is experienced in the walk of life :^>
Finally someone gets it. Finally. Lots of people have gone through worse, including deaths, cancer, absolute poverty...but instead of being little bitches like faggot OP and most people ITT they continue pushing forward because nothing will stop their momentum. These faggots are not men.
You're in a rutt and you need to look at your lifestyle and change it. Try new hobbies ect.
You need to find and work at your focus in life, it doesn't fall onto your lap
but if you want to be a nihilist bitch about it then be my guest but you're wasting your time.
My Boomer quote of the day: No matter what someone has it worse. So quit yer bitchin' cupcake
But there literally is. How can you not see the beauty of falling in love, making art, seeing a personal project grow, learn new things or even fight to the death for a cause you found just.
Work is a means for people to get what they want, but it ain't what you strive to achieve. Literally get a life.
you can still see the light through neetdom
people expect the world top do the hard work for them
Finding your own purpose is the exciting part.
O shit nigger you're me 2 years ago
The main thing to realize is that you're still really young and you still have a lot of potential; your life isn't meant to be worked out yet
Also, this:
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Find hobbies, make something, ask for help.
If doing what you're doing now makes you feel like shit then stop doing it. Don't expect a fix to emerge out of nowhere
Let me clear i'm OP, this wasn't me.
you're both little bitches desu
Exactly. Exploring yourself, your capabilities, your tastes, your morality, how far you can go without help is so fucking amazing. You gain so much control over your own being. Instead of feeling helpless, you feel capable of laying out a game plan on what to change, because you know yourself well enough to know your weaknesses. But OP instead wants success given to him in a silver platter.
>tfw doing good at college besides one god damn class
>Biochemistry
>Have a 68%
>Need at least a C (70%) to meet the requirements for my degree
There's another test and the final left anons, am I gonna make it?
And why in the FUCK does a radiologic technician need to give a shit about biochemistry
As someone whose been in OP's position and is still working to come out the other side, there are a lot of problems with society that end up engendering the kind of mentality that just waits for things to be handed to them, and when individuals fall out of the assembly line they're left without any sense of direction or purpose because that's never been taught to them.
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Hey OP. I started university at the beginning of 2016. It's 2018 and I haven't passed a single semester. I got excluded from my uni for 12 months this year.
Don't worry. There are lots of people in the same boat as you.
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you might has well have just burned that money you worthless sack of shit
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These guys partner with foundations like Hope For The Day. If you need someone to talk to they are great guys.
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Thanks user.
1. exercise
2. go outside more often, and I don't mean the supermarket
3. talk to different people, not just your mom, your roommate and kevin from class
4. stop playing video games
5. stop resorting to music as your quantum solace
6. stop watching tv shows or tv at all for that matter
7. stop using your smartphone constantly
8. most importantly, find it in you to delete every pessimistic view you govern, change your outlook. If you keep thinking your goals wont come true chances are they really won't.
>stop doing all these things you enjoy and "go outside"
It's escapism. Can't you see it's not healthy?
Escapism is healthy in moderate doses.
If you're saying this ironically then well-played. If you're serious then there's still hope for you to escape the cruel machine that's got you entangled. All those ''motivational'' videos you see where charlatans tell you to do what you love since being happy is all that matters are incredibly false. Your comfort zone is your greatest enemy.
OP, what you need to start doing is weightlifting.
I'm not joking. Weightlifting is the best treatment for depression. I've been on 8 different prescriptions for depression and insomnia, and nothing worked for me until I committed to a routine. You'll have seretonin/endorphin release, a higher self esteem, and a better sleep schedule if you commit to working out at least three times a week, and no less. Don't worry about your future, because you can't control anything that happens past the next few days. As other anons have suggested, look into trades, things like welding and plumbing pay amazing, often times better than college degree needing jobs after a few years, and the education for them can be relatively inexpensive. You're going through what I went through a few years ago, but I got through, and you will too.
>Good starting routine
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yes and i'm going to psychoanalyze you as well: you're projecting.
Then dont bitch. Either or, if you feel happy enjoying how you are dont come complaining.
if you found first year too much then uni isn't for you
look for an apprenticeship
this has actually kind of motivated me to improve my life, thanks user
I needed someone to tell me this
College dropout
same but instead of insomnia i wanna cut my dick off
if you're feeling down that's a great opportunity to start reading up on stuff like libcom.org
>mfw been in year one of uni for 4 years
>jewdan kikerson
>Sup Forums
Congratulations, you have finally figured out that life in a mostly pointless struggle to advance your station in life for no real reward. In that case, you must program your brain to enjoy struggle. NoFap unironically helps with this. I became a cunt since I started (pent-up sexual frustration) but every aspect of my life is improving dramatically.
>a nofap sectarian
please, leave this planet
is asperger syndrome a crippling mental illness?