/éire/

Monday morning edition

/nightmares again/ edition. getting back into bed

Sakura is so cute don't you just want to hug her?

Good morning girls

Had some depressing dream where I had an upcoming game spoiled for me by some TV program and couldn't play even a simple chord on my guitar and smashed it.

>week 0 classes

I hate this country

Just killed (or injured?) a spider above the stairs, went down to the kitchen and saw another spider on the ceiling. And I dealt with two other spiders just last month. This is bullshit, I hate spiders.

you'll change your mind once you spend an evening with one

>T. Andrew the Arachno-penetrator

August and September are when the big spiders come out to play, it'll be over soon.

>Cardcaptor posting

/marbh/

more nightmares

Tell us about them please

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I don't remember much detail. One was me back in primary or secondary school and getting into lots of arguments and me wanting to drop out of school and failing life.
Another was me being send to work in these extremely deep mines where it was treacherous and essentially forced labour for 17 hours a day. There was more but I don't want to get into them much.

>There was more but I don't want to get into them much.
Afraid we'll dox you based on information from your nightmares?

Actually you just reminded me I had a dream I was doxxed here too. I just remembere somebody posting "your name wouldnt happen to be ____" would it? It was part of a bigger dream about something that stemmed from the school dream. But no I'm just not bothered, they're not that interesting.

Maybe they involve abuse our dear friend has experienced in the past and his brain wants to keep that shit locked away?

>I had an upcoming game spoiled for me by some TV program
Sounds like true despair

It was actually Danganronpa v3, how the fuck did you know?

Two in one, only three left to go. Think it might fit nicely under 4MB after all.

Monaghan a cute. She fits nicely too.
By the way, do you use the perspective tool for the logos on the chest or just rotate?

My Irish boy.

Because its the only game I'd actually care about being spoiled as well.

Perspective usually

>Think it might fit nicely under 4MB after all.
Won't be able to post it on /bant/ though.

>Cost of France's XI last night: £400m
>Cost of Luxembourg's XI last night: £27k
>Finished: France 0 - 0 Luxembourg

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What were you testing?

I'll need to practice that then. I tried last night but it came out looking weird so I stuck to rotate.

I'm planning on making a reduced jpeg version after it's done for ease of posting. Not just for /bant/ but for those that want to post it without waiting a minute for a file that big to upload.

his proxy

Reckon I could murder someone lads. Like violently kill them.

does /éire/ eat jam and cheese toasties

Someone in mind?
I have problems finding the girls I want in the right poses

Why, what did they do?

I should also learn how2vector.

I don't want to do Ice Breakers

>Actually you just reminded me I had a dream I was doxxed here too
I've had that dream too, that sort of thing always seems far scarier in a dream reality where complete strangers somehow care deeply about who you are and your personal background.

Think I've gone sterile lads, haven't got an erection in over 2 weeks

Are you on your orientation day? I remember we had to play a league of indoor soccer for ours with our new classmates.

>not skipping the ice breakers
Amateurs

Absolutely triggered
>only 19 in my entire course

Orientation was hell

But I am skipping them

>Not at least attempting to make friends
Did you skip the class party as well?

I have friend whom are in the 3rd year of the same uni I'm going to, it'll be grand

Yes.

>"Hello I am ___ and I enjoy collecting pictures Anime girls playing Irish sports"
>Implying I don't care who you lot are

I only saved the Meath one tho

>making friends

I wish :(

Remember that brief period of your life when you had friends?

I don't though, something is wrong with me

It helps having friends on the same course who can pick up any handouts when you're not there and discuss projects with.
Also when they force you into team groups it's nice to have people you're not completely awkward with.

>Implying I don't care who you lot are
You've already found the golden goose in the Glanmire furry, the rest of us would just be a disappointment by comparison

Never had friends

Not good enough for other people.

I think I'm good at making acquaintances but bad at making friends, if that makes sense. Every social circle I've been a part of I've been more towards the outer rings.

Yeah, that was my experience at college. That said, I wasn't really looking to make friends since I still had some of my secondary school friends around, so my lack of initiative may have played a role there.

You probably have autism.

>when they force you into team groups it's nice to have people you're not completely awkward with
>they change the classes halfway through the term
>went from having one or two people I could talk to to zero
>next year
>put into the same class as one of them again
>he never comes to class
>end up doing groupwork solo or straight up skipping classes to avoid the awkwardness

You have your anonymous friends on the internet, that's something
> the rest of us would just be a disappointment by comparison
Nah I bet some of you are very interesting people IRL

Thank you doctor.

>I still had some of my secondary school friends around, so my lack of initiative may have played a role there
I know this feeling far too well. The stupidest part was that they were still in Leaving Cert when I started college, so even though I barely saw them I still thought I didn't need any other friends. I wasn't until I met up with them at Christmas that I realised I fucked up. I somehow managed to recover and become friendly with some lads but for a variety of reasons those fell apart. One lad's mother got cancer and he missed a lot of days as a result, a few lads dropped out in second year and the last one got put in a different class so I never saw him as much.

Haven't had any friends for years. I've given up on the thought of ever having them. I must just be really unlikeable.

I had friends but I never really got on well with them, it was more of an excuse not to be alone, honestly.

Icebreakers are fine. Hi I'm __ I'm 25 from bla blaa bla and I like/used work at__. thats it.
It's the part after that, having to avoid making friends, declining going to parties and just being isolated in general thats the worst.

>where do I look
>who do I make eye contact with
>how loudly do I talk
>what tone should my voice be, bored? excited? curious? happy?
>what do I do with my hands
>how much do I say
>what order do I say it in
>what is my facial expression supposed to be

Could always skip that part and be friendly to others and go to the parties.

Christ. Just look at the teacher or the wall. Talk at a normal volume with a normal voice.
Fuck no. I hate parties, I hate socialising. I hate most people but I'm able to confidently introduce myself without pissing my pants.

>>what do I do with my hands
>looking back at old photos and seeing my hands hovering in front of my chest

I'm the only actual autistic person here and I can function better than some of you baka.

Are there Irish uni-students clubs in other countries? Did some of you study abroad?

>still thinks he's the only one here with a diagnosis

Does your social anxiety not lessen while drunk? It's just going to a bar, ordering a drink and bitching about class for an hour or two. What's the worst that can happen?

>I'm the only actual autistic person here

bit presumptuous sweaty x)

>Does your social anxiety not lessen while drunk?
Not at all. I really dislike bars and drinking socially. It's a waste of alcohol I think. No fun.
>What's the worst that can happen?
Sitting silently in the corner feeling uncomfortable and anxious until you decide to go home.
I'm not sweaty.

>having ever had friends at any point
Normalfag amach

>Sitting silently in the corner feeling uncomfortable and anxious until you decide to go home.
Is that a presumption or have you ever actually tried it?

>presumption
think you mean assumption sweaty x)

I've tried it plenty of times when I left school and was in college. It's been a couple of years since I was last in a pub. IF I was drinking I'd much rather do it at home or in somebodies house with a small group 1-4

No, I mean presumption.

Is it not even more intimidating in somebody elses house than a public place?

Nah because it's only ever been with people I've know for a long time. I did go to a house party once and was left with people I didn't know.
Sat there in silence for a couple of minutes before just walking to another room, taking a bottle of beer out of the fridge and listening to the group say wtf who was that weirdo. Took another bottle and just left.

>listening to the group say wtf who was that weirdo
Bit rude of them

They were a bunch of normies. I didn't really care desu, as long as I didn't have to be with them.
My one friend there was a prick for leaving me alone. Don't like him now, he turned into a cunt when we left school.

>having friends

Normie cunts.

Sad to hear that desu but I'm pretty sure that was just a once in a lifetime occurrence and that this won't happen to you again, you shouldn't avoid parties just because of one minor incident and don't forget that people are more mature now, and so are you

>people are more mature now
People never mature.

That's kind of why I don't like house parties though, the idea of being in some strangers house and feeling uncomfortable around them and their friends seems quite awkward. At least in a bar you can do what you want and nobody will judge you for it or question why you're there.

>and don't forget that people are more mature now
Most people never grow up.

Nah, I still have no interest in parties. I never did I was just doing the things I felt like I needed to be doing as a teenager/school leaver. I don't think you understand how bad I am at socialising and interracting with people.
I'm not this bad but I still have nothing to add to conversations ever and generally just dislike people aside from the 2 friends I went to school with that I see once a month or so.
I don't even get invited to parties, nor do I know anybody who even goes to them aside from the usual shitty workplace christmas parties, and thats the last place I want to be.
That minor incident didn't even upset me. I couldn't care less if people think I'm weird, I just don't like those kind of shit events full stop.

I'm not really able to explain what I mean/feel with words. Don't think you'll understand.

>At least in a bar you can do what you want and nobody will judge you for it or question why you're there.
That's the thing. I have no reason to be in a bar. I could either go on my own and stare at the wall while drinking or I could theoretically go with friends (which doesn't happen because that's not something that "we" do), and even if "we" did then it would just be uncomfortable regular conversation but in a loud dark environment. Don't want that.

I'm really frustrated because I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words with this shit.

>but in a loud dark environment
Not all pubs are loud and dark.

If they're quiet and well lit then what? I just don't get them. I'd rather drink at home at my pc, have fun, watch something, talk on here. It's actually enjoyable.

>I'm really frustrated because I have a hard time putting my thoughts into words with this shit.
Same. I probably have more to say on this subject than anyone else here yet whenever it comes up my brain feels stuck and I can't think properly.

The best ones are moderately quiet and dim.

>taking a twisted fox and the grapes pride of having no friends

Quite sad really.

They're the ones I prefer too.

>I probably have more to say on this subject than anyone else here yet whenever it comes up my brain feels stuck and I can't think properly.
Maybe you have schizophrenia?

I went out to a night club about two years ago with some lads.
I didn't enjoy it, I'd legit prefer to be sitting alone in my room playing vidya

Honestly I reckon people like are just lying.
Even the special needs kids in my school had somebody they could call a friend or be with at lunch. Hell some of them would just end up in the quiet/autism room at lunch with the other autist kids and theyd play Uno or something. That counts.
How does that even remotely indicate schizophrenia?

I'm not lying.

Give it your best try please