Mfw 30 years old

>mfw 30 years old
>have suicidal thoughts sometimes

I...I don't know how long I can take this bros

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Go to your doctor for a checkup

just fuck an escort or something man and get it over with

just buy a fleshlight you nigger

>not already having them at 20

You are like a baby

What show is this?

Just do it

find a spiritual conviction and your neurosis will disappear.

This.Just fuck an escort.Make sure to find someone a bit older so that she can teach you some stuff.

>not going to the rooftop at 14

The only reason I'm living right now is that I have a purpose.

Go outside for an hour a day and take b12.

You'll feel better.

>not having them at 15

Depression or your life sucks?

Heard this film was a true story?

Was it really a true story?

Both

it's essentially a reenactment of the true event.
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>I'm a virgin

I would have dicked her down without hesitation. It wouldn't have been very good, but I would love her and we could be happy together.

or kill ourselves together. that works too

>23
>almost 24
>i managed to fuck up hanging myself when i was 21
>swore i'd start living life differently
>i'm still scared of so much
>i thought i'd change

is this just who i am
the man who swears every morning that today will be new, but is paralyzed into inaction each night
i dull it with drinks but i don't know how much longer i can live scared of people and failing my own dreams

She was the sexual equivalent to some /r9k/ reject that wants a 10/10 pure waifu virgin to be his subservient wife, but has no job, no looks, and weighs 300 pounds.

Nothing was going to be good enough for her.

For the same reason the /r9k/ wizard won't just get a whore and knock out their virginity, she would never have just found some dick to get piped by.

>Both

Which came first

>not trying to strangle yourself with the umbilical chord as you're shunted unceremoniously from your mothers womb

Same, if only I could just disappear

idiot, she had good job, she was the best in her job, infact she was genius, her ideas were ahead of the time but the dumb boss and other coworkers couldnt see it.

>oh my life is so hard I have everything provided for me by my mother and the state

go back to /r9k/

>I have everything provided for me by my mother and the state

Jokes on you, I have not

I regularly think the thoughts "kill yourself" or "I want to die" but I don't actually feel suicidal at all. I mean, I'm depressed and have been for years, but not in a particularity intense way. It's more like just feeling bored 90% of the time.

I guess they're just intrusive thoughts or something.

It's good that you didn't succeed, user. I'm your age too and I've been doing the whole "tomorrow will be different" for a long time and I've just started university a few days ago. I still don't have any friends but I'm just saying, I'm getting out there now and slowly (hopefully) making things better. It's never too late to do that

I want to die, but can't for some reason.

I've attempted suicide 3 times. The first time I pussied out. The second time I took some pretty heavy prescribed sleeping pills. I was supposed to take one a night and the doctors were really serious about not taking more than one, but I tried killing myself with 13. Woke up the next morning like nothing happened. The final time I said fuck it and downed half the bottle. It had to have been at least 20 or so. I woke up the next morning (7 hours of sleep) with the worst pain I had ever felt in my stomach and on my sides. I spent the rest of the afternoon throwing up and dry heaving.

Maybe I'll try again, but I stopped caring.

shitloads of B3 man, like 200 times the recommended daily allowance will kill that depression.

...

What movie?

Idiot, I said "sexual equivalent."

She could have gotten dicked plenty of times, she just didn't want to fuck anyone but chads who had no interest in her.

i knew a guy who was about 38
had a good degree
had a good job
had a nice loving family with 2 kids

and yet he told me, literally everyday since he was 16 he thought about suicide, he wanted to die every single day of his perfect life.

thats cool dude I'm 24, drop out, never had a job, my own family looks at me like a freak and I'm a virgin and I still think of suicide every day :D

Christine (2016)

Don't kill yourself, because you're far too late to the party to do so.

did you get help before you decided to go to school? Or did you power through yourself?

And I'm glad you're going to school, man. To walk through the fear and take control of your own future is to be the best that people can be.

Lydia: I don't wanna die.
Link: That's right.
Link: You don't wanna die.
Link: Because you're a 17 year old kid and you've got a lot to live for.
Link: You may not want to wake up tomorrow but the day after that, might just be great.
Link: Might be the best fucking day of your life.
Link: You know?
Link: You don't want to miss it right?

Mel kinda inspired me with those line from Blood Father

Lost my virgin last night to a tinder girl.

It's okay, not a big deal.

>It's okay, not a big deal.
fuck
you

Worst feel
>two decades
>I'm by far the most intelligent member of my very intelligent family
>Despite that, they're all massive successes and I sit here shitposting

When did she ever say that or allude to that?

I read some articles and her wikipedia page and it sounded like nobody wanted her. She had like 2 boyfriends. The first one died, and she had to break it off with the second one because he was a Jew and her dad was Sup Forums. Apparently she tried to gain the affection of her boss, but her boss was fucking another employee. I can't find anything about her only wanting Chads

she was an idiot, mother earth deals with idiots by making them kill themselves

WHY NONE OF YOU SAVED HER
REEEEEEEEEEE

>did you get help before you decided to go to school?
I did go to a few sessions of therapy a couple of years ago, but that wasn't related to school. I sort of bit the bullet and did a foundation course that was relatively close to where I live. And since then I've learnt how to do essays and how to catch public transport, I'm still almost completely silent in class and I still spend almost all of my free time bored alone in my room. I live at home still, haven't gotten my driver's license, etc. But it's a start.

I would never have expected to make it this far even just a year ago.

/r9k/ is full of trannies and queers

>tfw I'm probably legit retarded but too afraid to get tested

At least you're smart

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>feelio when 23 and just dropped out

Yeah, my dad keeps saying that. Of course, he's a medical doctor pulling in half a million a year, so it kinda downgrades it a bunch

friendly reminder that fucking a whore doesn't count.

Get a driver's license, user. It's incredibly easy once you get over the nerves for the first two hours, and it's incredibly satisfying having that card.

I thought about doing it desu, so why not? A hole is a hole

Life sucks really. Feel unfulfilled and life just isn't going anywhere. Introverted but sometimes I would act like I'm happy, friendly and open to coworkers etc but at the end of the day, I come home and just feel sad. I have a decent job and I can support myself. But most of all I just don't want to be lonely but have trouble connecting with people.

>the only way I can get anyone to even consider touching me is if I pay
>thank god I payed someone to touch for an hour, now my life feels great when I'm not a virgin anymore

>Get a driver's license, user
I know I need to. I've already done most of it, been on my learner's since I was 16 so I have almost all of my hours logged. I just lose motivation a lot and will stop practicing for months at a time. All I need to do is sit the test but I'm still shit at a lot of stuff like parking.

At the moment it takes me 2 hours to get to campus on public transport though, which is really draining. So a car would help. Eventually I'll get it.

ever since seeing 'the gift' i've always felt that i would rek her asshole

god i wish

guy that wrote this sounds like a big pussy

>>the only way I can get anyone to even consider touching me is if I pay

Well no shit, and I'm not going to pretend that my life will be better after doing it. I just want to get over it

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>Computer, generate a universe where I'm not a 27 year old kissless virgin
>Unable to comply with your request ... virgin

That shit is too blackpill for me

It won't change a thing, you'll end up feeling worse. Give money to a charity or work at a soup kitchen to get some perspective instead.
If your biggest worry in life is that you are a virgin you are better off than 80% of the world.

I'm really glad to hear that. It seems like you're achieving what you've set out to and your drive for self improvement has remained ablaze!

Don't forget how much you've surprised yourself. Hold onto it. Because your strength is in your ability to surpass even the best case scenario.

and thank you for speaking with me, user. Hearing about your successes, it means more than you likely realize. Good luck, friend.

yeah man he just need to be himself

>intelligent
>shitposting on Sup Forums

got some news for ya bud

Never said it's my biggest worry either. Literally just want to get it done.

But you're probably right, that money is better spend elsewhere

Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up

BUT DOCTOR

im like half that age and had sex

having a car, just an old shitbox, did a lot to just make me feel better in general. i ended up spending a lot of time just driving around at night.

its meditative in a way yknow

enjoy your ban

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Alright user. Good luck in all your endeavours.

I honestly don't feel particularly driven, but I'm also not going to suddenly give up. I've committed to uni. And I still get those feelings of being "late" to life, and feeling like my progress is too slow. But I'm doing okay.

>and thank you for speaking with me, user. Hearing about your successes, it means more than you likely realize
good. That's the reason I told you about it. Anyway, I gotta go to bed now. Night and good luck with your endeavors. Don't be too hard on yourself if you wake up tomorrow and do the same thing as always. I went through a LOT of "tomorrow will be better!" before I took any action at all, and I'm still struggling with motivation and having those problems. Just remember that it's never too late and it is possible

Yeah there's this shitty car I can have for $60 already. It's just forcing myself to actually get my license that's the hard part. Being able to go for drives would be nice.

Thanks, goodnight

see you later

Aced SAT despite not going to highschool or studying, IQ bigger than muh dick.
Intelligence is divorced from achievement, like intelligence is divorced from wisdom.

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lost my virginity at 15 as well, my friends older sister (17) had the hots for me and took me to their place and had sex with me. spaghetti'd hard, came within 3 minutes or so i think

>tfw to smart to be sucessful

>18
>virgin
>help

>go to doctors
>tell them youre depressed
>suicidal thoughts infrequent
>gives sertraline and cbt
>sertraline kills my cock
>cbt tells me to 'not worry about things'
yeah, brilliant advice

according to some random user on Sup Forums

considering most of us spend alot of time here, I'd hold that opinion of high regard

Wow, you SAT on something and they gave you some good grades for that? Got some news for you user

KEK. sure bro

the sooner you stop putting pussy on a pedestal the better your life will be. Treat having sex the same as getting a masage or a haircut, its an itch you need to scracth. i avail of whores services like every 3 months or so, no drama just fucking, also make it a point whenever i go overseas to try the local delicacy as well

sex won't make those thoughts go away dipshit, it doesnt work like that

I'm here every day and like the other guy said a hole is a hole. I'm not saying your life will change but sex is sex.

fuck off normalfag

just resign. it's better to be alone than to risk pain and suffering over a failed relationship. if all you want is not to be a virgin - whores. i'm a 32 yo virgin and i'll most likely die one. but fuck it. women are bitches.

No fuck you, you crypto-normie.

the truth is that fucking a whore is whatever, but it was never about sex in the first place. You beat yourself up because you feel like you're missing out and you won't realize that you aren't missing out until you try it.

You'll coming away thinking "goddammit. it wasn't worth all the stress" but it's better than being stressed about it, so go fuck a whore.

>crypto-normie.
what did you mean by this?

That's right you stupid little faggot, you meant nothing, you just can't handle the truth. Fuck you.

i'm 22 and afraid of driving.

how the fuck do people do that?
how aren't people just crashing into each other all the time?

you clearly have anxiety issues, but in the UK youre required to do a hazard perception test to help you avoid any problems in the road. You'll probably pass first time

go to a go kart place, feel what it's like to be behind the wheel of something.

i had to do that in australia, that was the stupidest test i've ever taken

Good joke.

this.
I will never understand those "just fuck an escort lmao" posts

Life is meaningless bro. And it's really fucking short. I've seen a lot of people die including my best friend and mother. i only have 1 grandparent left. If you want to take your life go ahead it won't make any difference to anything in the long run. you'll die one day anyway. But there is probably a cure for your problems if you want it. You could probably live a great life if you sought out the cure and started on the right path. But yeah you'll still die anyway so up to you :)

>babies first nihilism

Who are you trying to impress