I'm 24 years old. I lost my job a month ago and hate my life. Grew up with a piece of shit alcoholic dad and the idea of addiction makes me sick to my stomach, yet the only thing that's stopping me from wanting to die is this bottle of whiskey. In a relationship with a girl for two years, planned on marrying her and that's hit the fuckin fan, I've lost interest entirely and we're drifting apart.
The only thing keeping me here is knowing I can choose to go whenever I want to. I have about 10 grand saved up from working. My plan right now is Vegas for a few weeks then die. What the fuck can I try for 10k before I die? Taking any suggestions.
Also, no one to ask for suicide advice. Everyone in my life will call a hospital or freak out. I need some heartless suicide advice. Do I just disappear and die in a foreign country? Do I leave a will? Fuck do I do Sup Forumsros?
Lava lakes are kinda cool, I think there are fewer than 10 on the planet. I wonder about what that would feel like, even to just peer into one. That's about as heartless as I can be for you. Try therapy or have some meaningful conversation with someone you find worthy, and try to top it off with some sex and drugs. Build a birdhouse. Study ancient culture or modern-day sociological concepts. Do a barrel roll while walking the dinosaur. Eat something delicious.
Juan Lee
I wouldn't off myself, But you should probably still treat yourself to Nevada and chill out for a bit.
Jace Lopez
You could take a decent vacation to china and see most of it for like a year with that cash downside is the chinese people tho
Jayden Brooks
Just take it easy for now, don't end your life, things will get better if you just move on with time, friend.
Who knows? Maybe enough gambling, drugs and strippers I may want to live after all.
I feel like I've been taking it easy for too long and nothing's changed. Just need advice moving forward with these plans.
I've heard a ton about how DMT does wonders with near death experiences, I just can't get my hands on any. Or the chemicals to extract it myself.
Of course, got a handgun just for the occasion.
Luis Russell
Acid, DMT, Cocaine, especially cocaine, sex. etc. you'll either want to live or have a hell of a suicide.
Aaron Howard
you cant buy naptha and lye on amazon?
Luis Davis
Holy fuck, do not go to China unless all you want is one last thing to push you over the edge. That place gave me suicidal ideation like no other.
If you want a batshit crazy adventure that might give you a new lease on life, check out eastern Kashmir. I'd recommend flying into Leh, renting a motorcycle and booking it to Lamayuru monastery. Lamayuru is just an incredible place to hang out, but they also have Tibetan monk lead meditation retreats if you really want to come out as a new person.
If you just want to go out in a flash of degenerate insanity, I recommend Phnom Penh, Cambodia. Cambodia has earned it's reputation as the wild west of South East Asia. Not many cops will fuck with you when you have 10k in baksheesh to spread around.
OP I advise you most strongly not to go through with it. I spent the better part of my high school/early college years with those thoughts, and some things do work. That said, what the hell kind of advice are you going to take from me? If you’re hell bent on it, go on a cruise. Go to the Caribbean or Alaska and see the world for what it is uncorrupted. Go to Vegas and see how crazy it can get. Get on a train without knowing where it goes, or try to travel one direction- South, North, along a line of longitude or whatever- in every way you can. See the Northern Lights. See a polar bear. Go to the Amazon and see whatever the fuck the river niggers are up to, maybe see an ocelot or one of those fucked up massive spiders. Spend a thousand dollars to play a video of the N word on a twitch stream. Jack off while looking at a security camera. Go buck fucking wild user. If you’re going to do it at least try not to suffer beforehand. Give yourself a send off for the ages.
Isaac Murphy
Go to vegas and party till you have just enough money left to buy explosives to die with a bang
Sex got old, even with 10s I occasionally pay for. The thrill of getting women got old. Cocaine on the other hand, seems like some solid advice.
I don't live in the states. Can't find Naphtha where I am. There are a few alternatives but they're harsh with extraction and almost certainly require something to purify with. I tried getting some n-heptane but it's even harder to come by. I even looked into lime/xylene extractions but anything water soluble seems too difficult for someone doing it for the first time. Not to mention xylene being hard to come by as well.
Fuck yeah, that's some solid advice. I'll look into Cambodia, thanks for this.
That's originally what I was going for. That's the advice I wanted. What crazy shit I can do with the little I have left. Traveling to unknown locations seems awesome. I need to find a means to give this community a show too.
Jayden Reyes
If you want a quick fast death head to Detroit. If you’re lucky you might die in the terminal.
Kayden Parker
I should also add that if you want to do a crazy adventure in a foreign land, I'd be happy to give you my email and help you plan it out. Traveling has given myself, and many others, new ways of thinking about life.
On the other hand I'm not going to help you kill yourself. I have a suicide attempt under my belt. At the time it felt like nothing could change, I felt like shit for three years, why would next year be any better? Why would things ever be any better? The problem is that things do change, I can't be more happy that I fucked up and just ended up with some incredibly embarrassing scars. I know you won't believe me, because I never believed this shit, but better days are coming, user. Just try to hang in there.
