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Right now, sex terrifies me.
I'm 35 years old and I lost my virginity recently to a prostitute. I have a small dick (5 inches more or less), I have premature ejeculation (I last seconds) and I have erection problems (only gets really hard when I'm close to ejaculate).
Why I was virgin until 35? Well, obviously I'm ugly as sin, I have lazy eyes and one it's more open than the other. When I entered puberty, I came to realize I was ugly and also I moved to a different city and lost contact with my friends. I was depressed but I just tried to ignore everything and I entered a state I like to call "being in coma while awake". I was just and empty shell playing videogames in my room for years, or chating in the IRC.
When I was young, I was very fluid, but being so isolated for years, destroyed my capacity to talk. I just mumbled quietly most of the time and people couldn't barely understanding me.
I just thought nobody could ever love me, because I was not worthy of being loved. So let's say I spent from 15 to age 27 doing almost literally nothing. I barely had any work, I didn't go to school, I never had any physical interacion with a girl (I didn't knew a single one irl for the most part of those years).
One day, I just saw a youtube video about the "index of optimism", a long video about being possitive and all that crap. And it just clicked with me, it made me awake to the nightmare I was in, to the terrible habits I got and made me want to change. I was motivated to try to be optimistic and happy no matter what.
And I improved. I have improved a lot. I mean, I'm still ugly as sin, but with the right haircut and the right clothes, I can be attractive. I can talk to people now, even women. I'm still weird, obviously, but not so incredibly creepy and weird as before. I made some friends in some of the jobs I got into, I finally went to nightclubs to dance, drink and party and all that stuff. I made amazing progress.