At the end of my rope with addiction. Not gonna kill myself because I’m too much of a coward...

At the end of my rope with addiction. Not gonna kill myself because I’m too much of a coward.... but I was hoping maybe some anons out there could relate? Or even just tell me to fuck myself or call me a faggot, I don’t care. I just need my fellow anons right now. You guys have been pretty much all I have for the last decade or so. Pic is of me on Halloween cuz I don’t know what else to post.

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Go get help. Best thing you can do. No one will judge.

Hey user, what do you do for work?

Find some NA out-patient meetings to attend... Get yourself cleaned up. Get a hobby, gaming, collecting stamps, fucking anything to distract yourself. Exercise, eat right, get some good rest.

I’m trying but I don’t have insurance and no one will take me. Even the local loony bin.

Give yourself a break, addiction is hard. Take it day by day and accomplish smaller goals. Love you OP

I’m a waiter. Have been for 12 years. Recently unemployed because I quit my shit job where I’d work for 8-12 hours and walk out with 50 bucks.

What are you addicted to?

Thanks Sup Forumsro. Much love.

Narcotics Anonymous is free... Group support can be very helpful. Google for local meetups.

Well, it’s complicated. I got addicted to heroin when I was 24 and got off of it, but now benzos and alcohol control my life. I take tons of Etizolam and drink endlessly. To the point where I really can’t maintain anymore. I’m a wreck.

>At the end of my rope with addiction.
Then you're ready to get clean.
Call a local addiction center, and get some treatment, user.
Alcoholic and addict sober for 10 years here, and it was because I had lost everything because of my addictions. I have it all back now, and more, so it does work.
GL space cadet.

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the fuck is a north america out-patient?

This.

Thanks user. I’m working on trying to find a place to wring myself out for awhile and dry up. The future isn’t all bleak.

user, spent over 15,000 euros a month on my cocaine addiction.
Abused many other substances too
(md, ket, speed etc)
You can get clean, and it is super fucking difficult I promise you it will be hell.
But it's something you need to do if you want any chance at life now.

Like someone else said, stay occupied with anything you can. Distance yourself from anybody that you buy from or use with. And dont let a relapse episode bring you down. Been off opiates myself for almost 2yrs, relapsed multiple times but kicked its ass in the end. Once i was off for severa months i had no desire to go back, even when i got prescribed pain killers for kidney stones, never filled that script.

Watched my brother waste 30 years of his life being drunk. Almost killed himself many times... not including car accidents. He got help and has been sober for a few years and his life is infinity better. Have the strength to get help, user.

%triforce

I’m trying so hard. Nice dubs, btw. Checked.

i spent literally half my life addicted to drugs and alcohol. i've been hospitalized for it and related problems more times than i can count on my hands and feet. most recently, i did a rehab where i lived in the facility, got a job, and then moved into a sober living environment, completed 12 steps in aa, am still sober today (1.75 years and counting), and the only way you get through it is to accept what life/your higher power has for you today.

if you are the pinnacle of human thought and nothing knows better than you, then you don't need this thread to make a decision for you about weather or not you should stop using, if you should kill yourself or not, etc.

if you are not the essence of and the truth and don't always know what is best, then you're like everyone else in that most of us don't know what we want or need and life for most of us isn't what we hoped for, it isn't what we want right now, and we may never get what we desire but we choose to keep going

im on the fence on the end my life thing. if i could nembutal it all right now i would without a second thought. i don't want to make a mess or a scene. i just want to stop existing. climbing a mountain or jumping out of a plane would not make this more worth doing for me personally...

drugs, were i to go back to them, would not feel the same, i'd crave them more, and would probably die a slow death from them...

get sober if thats what you need to do but if things are good otherwise and drinking and drugging are not interrupting your ability to hold a job, house and feed yourself, then you might just want to cut back or something...

Why are white men so lonely?
Look how well racism works out for y’all.

Thanks dude. And I’m happy for your success in sobriety. I hope to meet you there soon.
Bro, I’m wearing a Michael Myers mask. How do you know I’m white bruh? I could be light skinned Latino or something lol.

Thanks guys, every one of you who took the time out of your night to post in my thread and make me feel a bit better. I did this for you guys since I really have nothing else to give. But I love you all dearly and I’m gonna live through this!

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itt: the irony of calling out someone as racist in the same sentence where you identify them by race

4 MONTHS NO HEROIN. DUDE IT IS SOOOOOO DOOABLE. Fuck it... its really just like having the flu, then having anxiety/depression for a month. I SMOKE TONS OF CIGS NOWNHAHAHAHA

Wait, I’m the (you). Are you saying I’m racist?

narcotics anonymous

Nice dubs. Congrats on quitting the dope my dude. Been off for almost a year, but I’ve lost 3 friends in the past 6 months to dope. Keep your head up and stay safe. Heroin is an evil bitch and she can seduce you easily and leave you dead in the morning. Keep clean. Heroin isn’t the same as it was only half a decade ago. It’s laced with INSANE analogues of fentanyl that can be so strong that they’re narcan resistant. You know that already. Stay safe and clean.

That’s not an outpatient program, user. It’s something people choose to go to. They don’t piss test you or breathalyzer you at NA meetings. People in serious trouble need help with weening off their drug of choice. Then NA or any 12 step program is there to help you maintain sobriety.

For background, I'm going through this with my younger brother right now, OP. I also overcame my own issues with drugs and alcohol when I was in my 20's.

The best advice I can give you are facts...

It's going to be terrible.

You're going to hate the detox process.

You're going to hate withdrawal.

You're supposed to.

Remember how much it sucks going through it. Remind yourself that with each minute of sobriety you're closer to the end of the process.

When you want to get high, think about the withdrawal and detox process and how far you've gotten.

Consistency should be what you focus your attention on, because you have to be able to consistently regulate yourself in order to successfully get through this.

Yeah I know all of that. Thanks for being real. This isn’t easy and it never will be. I might be fucked up for years due to the benzos, alcohol and opiates I’ve subjected myself to. It’s gonna be TERRIBLE. I guess I just wanna see the light at the end of the tunnel.

NA and AA can be both in or outpatient treatment. Inpatient is involuntary, outpatient is open to the public as well as to people who have completed inpatient treatment. NA does not piss or blood test, its the clinics and rehab centers that do those tests.