Have a single mom and one sister. Sister is three years older than me. We shared a room in a crappy flat. Didn't think it was crappy at the time. My mom spends her afternoons drinking or knocking back pain meds, this is pretty much the norm through school. I don't remember her really having boyfriends until Dave. He seemed nice at first. Bought us toys and take out pizza. He could cook as well, mom didnt drink as much but the two of them would do drugs or things. Thin walls so you could hear them fucking even if I wasn't sure what it was at the time. >one night wake up hear noises >rooms dark cant really see anything yet >"Sally, that you?" >"go back to sleep user." I was confused, that was Daves voice >Eyes adjust to the dark, start ot make out shapes. My bed is on one wall opposite my sisters against the other wall. Big shadow over my sister but not moving. Think he's looking at my side "This isn't your room?" I am sleepy and tired and confused >"Its okay user" said Sally "He's just giving me a kiss to help me sleep. Now he's going" >Dave gets up "Yea, Sleep well user" he comes over and kisses me too. On the lips. He was rough and scratchy. I wasnt ready and just froze as he held his lips to mine. then he rubbed my head and went out the room. >I lay there not saying anything for ages. Then I got out of bed and prodded my sister. >"you awake?" I whispered >"Go back to bed" >"Can we share tonight?" >she lifts the covers slightly and I scooch close besider her, then I can feel her bare skin as I go to hug her >"Where's your pjamas?" >"Its really warm, can you hug me user?" >So I hugged her, I was confused and she cried a little but hugged my arm tight. And we slept.
Next morning was like normal. We got breakfast and Dave dropped us of at school. Nothing really happened till the weekend. Mum asked Dave for groceries and he took me along to help. While in Daves truck we didn't really talk at all. Just a silent drive to the store. Walk around picking up things (him picking me just following behind) and then back in the truck heading home. Then on the drive he spoke: >"So user, how's school?" >"its fine" >"Good, so your Mom is real nice" >"She is" >"and your sister.." >"you made her sad" I'm just matter of fact about it. She was sad, he did it. >Silence for a few minutes. We don't take the exit for our street and keep driving >"She was happy at the time.." >"then why did she cry?" >"its for gorwn ups to know" >"im pretty grown up. I'm nearly 10" >he laughed >"I suppose you are user. So you don't want your sister to cry?" >"Yes" >"well then, how about i make you happy instead of your sister?" >Im a bit confused what he means, "You will leave her alone?" >"my hand to God" >"What do I do?" >"Well, I don't know yet. but you need to keep this secret. Grown ups keep secrets. But if you keep it I'll never bother your sister again" >"she wont cry?" >"I swear to God Himself" >"Okay, but break your promise and ill tell mom you made her cry" >He laughed again, "Sure you tell your mom. That house is pretty small I guess. You want some ice cream. I got your favourite. Mint choc chip". >Then my mind was on ice cream that evening. We got home had fajitas and mom wasn't happy I had a tub to myself. I was sick. So very sick. Worth it
Oliver Hughes
Now I paint a picture of Dave over the years. He was really nice and I didn't really get super angry till much later. I basically accepted what was happening to me and rebelled in my own little way. It started very small. Some kissing here. Sitting on his laps. Then hand jobs. Then blow jobs. Then when I was 11 he stuck it up my ass (not very well on the first time either). A good year and a bit later and it went wherever he fancied. I think I started to break when my mom was in on it. She got me on birth control claiming I had bad cramps on my period (lies) but that basically turned my teenage years into a kind of continuous hell. My mom would watch Dave and me. Or he'd watch my mom and me. Or I'd watch them and join in when instructed like a living sex toy. Im sure I cried less when he did it. Then after awhile I stopped crying or feeling anything but the sex. My body betrayed me most of the time, and I even had some good orgasms with Dave (no surprise why I needed a therapist). With my mom however there was more pain involved. She'd scratch and claw or hurt me in various ways.
Now im getting a coffee and typing to catch up.
Henry Edwards
I imagine my friends naked.
Nathan Green
tits or gtfo
Jace Torres
First blowjob. Then one friday night was movie night. They were making popcorn, my sister and I were chilling on the floor infront of the TV. >"Damn, theres no booze" >"i thought we bought a case?" >"we must have left it, or forgot to stick it on the belt." >"oh thats okay" mom says, "I can just go get some tomorrow" >"nah, if im gonna sit through this Im gonna need a drink. Ill be back fast" >"so should we just wait?" >"no, start the movie. user come with me and you can pick some ice cream for you two" >"and what about me?" >he leaned in and kissed my mom, "ill save some sugar for you too. Now come on lets move." >I was in my pjs and head to my room to change. Hello kitty top. Grey bottoms. Bugs slippers. >"no time to change user, just throw a coat on. you look fine" >so we got in his truck and headed to the store. It was a little after 9 and a bit dark, it was the same 7/11 we used a lot. >he turns off the engine and looks at me as im going to get out the truck. >"so user, its time to keep up your promise" >he moved his chair back and pulled his dick out from his shorts. it was strange seeing it just lying there." >"What do you want me to do?" >"kiss it" >"I dont know how" >He reached out and had a hand on my back, pulling me close and said "just like with your mom" and his lips met mine >I was terrible but he kissed me anyway. and he got a kick out of it cause his dick seemed to get a lot bigger. >"Now just do that there" >I leaned over and grabbed it gently. my hand barely around the shaft. and I kissed it gently. on the side >"the top" >so i kissed the top. then he had me spit on it and lick the spit back off. I wasnt gripping it hard enough so he held his hand over mine and showed me the pace he wanted.
Michael Ross
This was really sad to read, sorry this haopened to u user
Camden Jackson
>Squeezing his cock and holding my mouth over the top. It was sloppy and terrible. >and he loved every second of it. >it felt forever >grip up and down. one hand balancing while i wanked the tip into my mouth. sometimes more of his head was in then popping out as I lost pace. I felt he was gonna punch me in the face every time his hand came up. >without any real warning he tensed and came. >not expecting it, it went in my mouth and i recoiled. I remember that texture more than the taste. It was weird. it got in my hair and my eye, it stung and there was this smell. >he just grunted "dont stop. I didnt say stop" >Im not sure I swallowed or understood what was said really but I went back down to try do what i was doing. The taste of his dick was more than the skin taste of before. A mixture of cum and sweat. >a couple of bobbing on the tip and he pushed me away >"nevermind... its fine. Good job for a first time. Wait here. >He adjusted himself, got out the truck and went in the store. I sat back in my seat and treid to look at myself in the wing mirror. giving up I caught my reflection in the glass. It was in my fringe and my right eye had a thin gloopy glisten. I tried to wipe it off but it just smeared across my fingers and stuck to my skin. >I lifted my top to try clean my face but then all i could think about was the taste in my mouth. I had nothing to compare it to at the time but there it was. >he got back in the truck with two tubs of ice cream, then threw a pack of baby wipes at me >"you made a mess, so clean yourself up before we get back to the house. I got you mint choc, know its your favourite. you were a very good girl"
Bentley White
>The drive back was pretty silent. We got in, he handed me a tub and fetched me a spoon. >"Didn't get your beer?" Asked my mom >"Nah, couldnt see anything I liked but found something better" and he showed my mom the other tub. >I watched the movie in silence, not laughing at the funny bits or really following the story. my sister squeezed my leg and gave me her "you okay?" eyes. I just smiled back at her and ate the ice cream.
Cheers user, I'm a lot better now. and I have posted here before when some other anons have posted in abuse threads. It happens quite a bit from people that should surprise you.
Samuel Roberts
Bump
Justin Long
Bump
Jeremiah Young
Nobody here?
So by this point hand jobs were rare and blow jobs were the norm. the go to blow. I had some practice and could handle it better. Yes I swallowed, less mess and I have this thing about cum in my hair. I'd not long turned 11 and this was to be a special night. There was a lot of sneaking about around my mom. She was out with my sister and It was just him and me. In the lead up to this night Id had fingers up my ass, usually just one. Sometimes two. Always lubed. Dave was a considerate pervert.
>he took me to the bedroom for some us time. >again considerate man wants me to be comfortable, not balancing in his truck or on the carpet. >im stripped and lying on the bed wondering what to expect. he is naked and gets down next to me. >he starts kissing me, I kiss him back. Im still terrible at it and wasnt really into the kissing. >he starts pulling away from kisses and pushing me gently down. >taking the hint i work towards his dick >"be a good girl, climb over me but have your ass to my face" >I obey, climbing on top on all fours. One hand is on the bed, one is wrapped around his dick and my legs straddle his chest as i balance on my knees. >I start sucking his dick like normal >Tip in, mouth about a third of the way down. Tight grip and wokr that hand up and down squeezing slightly tighter on the way down >He enjoys this for a bit a nd i feel his fingers on my butt >he is just tracing little lines across my ass and i feel the slightest pressure as one finger rests on my asshole. >Im used to it, but i still cant help but gast a little on his dick as it goes in. >"need to get this nice and wet, get closer" >"i cant do this and do that?" >"get closer" >I shuffle closer and out of mouth range, but keep a hand on his dick slowly wanking him incase he complains
Kayden Hill
>Nobody here? We're here.
Adam Ramirez
Keep going! I see a ass licking in the future!
Adrian Rogers
>then i feel the tounge, textured unlike a finger. and the motion is different. and it was flicking my ass. the sensation was ticklish but not unpleasant. >I probably grinded against him a little as he couldnt push it in like a finger. there was an itch he couldnt scratch just inside is the best i can explain. >he took that to be enthusiasm and using his hands spread my cheeks wider to plunge his tounge in my ass now that hurt. >almost a small tear and a yelp as something wet flicked inside. Im sure i was probably started to get a bit wet but that wasnt my focus. I just felt weird. Good weird, but weird. Blowjobs didnt feel like this. Blowjobs were repetative and gag worthy >This was a new experience and I was curious. >Then Dave had me lie down and spread my legs. I felt weird. I hadnt done this before and was never facing him naked. >he got me to lift up my legs and hold them behind the knees. >there was no hair on me and my pussy was on display but that wasnt what made me squirm. Inside i was starting to panic for the first time. >He was just sitting over me, staring, saying nothing. >then he put on ehand on my ass and I felt that finger slip back in. >I unconciously clenched around it as he pushed a bit deeper >I grunted a little at the feeling not as calm as before >"shh shh shhh... relax. You are amazing" >he smiled at me. I tried to smile back. >"This might sting a little but it will feel good soon". >he lubed his cock up and i felt the tip press against my ass. I wasnt trying to be tight but my body wasnt for accepting it >he poked about a bit. Switched to a finger then back to his dick. >It was thicker than a finger. I didnt think anything was going to happen. that this was just gonna be over as an "oh well we tried"
Isaac Rodriguez
Postall
Samuel Jones
fair enough As long as it isnt too bad to read.
Im typing this shit out. be patient.
>But Dave was persistent. And my legs were getting tired and a bit cramped. As I lowered one something changed. >Cause i felt the tip go in and push me apart, I stretched in a way that I didnt want to be streched and I tried to push him off >So I could Adjust so it would feel like it felt before >... but Dave, he was enjoying this. And instead of giving me time he pushed on. >Deeper >My other leg gave out and I clawwed at the bed around me. it burned as he pushed in. >I couldnt even cry out a sound. tears were streaming from my eyes and I cried silently, my breath caught. >"Shh... shh.. shh.. You are a brave big girl. And big girls dont cry." >The pressure stopped. and I could feel him twitch in me. My breath held. Choked on tears and snot in my throat. >Then, slowly, he pulled out. >that tearing as a dick slides out the first time is not easily forgotten. >Just like the feeling of the space it once took up >"My brave user? Will we try more?" >That wasnt it all? When does this not hurt? Why are you doing this? Why me? >"here i go, nice and.." >on slow he pushed back in... it didnt feel slow >my hands beat his chest, i clawed at him, the bed, my face. I felt sick >He held my waist down and pushed through >after a few slow thrusts the pain moved from sharp spikes to a continuous throb.
Ryan Williams
>I found a spot on the wall and tried to focus on it >has that dot always been there? >grunt >what would this room look like painted purple >grunt >oh god this hurts >"nearly there, be brave for me" >brave was gone. she packed her bags and went out drinking >I wanted it to be over >then he came. >his dick twitched and he leant over me. pulling me to him and kissing me >"you are a great girl, that was very grown up. you didnt even scream. So brave. so precious" >i tried to scream >I failed >"your sister would never have managed that" >and that snapped me back to the room. the reality. it helped as a comfort >i cried anyway >He came out of me and there was this gloopy "shlop" sound and a few other undignified noises >"lets get you cleaned up" >he put an arm under my head and knees, scooped me up and took me to the bathroom >he lay me at one end of the tub and took the shower head off, testing the water satisfied aiming it at my skin. >the water was warm and stung. i looked down between my naked legs and the small amounts of blood >"dont worry, that will stop after awhile, ill get you something to help" >I felt my asshole tenderly. It was red, raw and bloody. and i felt something else. mixed in my blood was cum. slowly oozing out of me. >"you okay to clean yourself up? Ive got to clean up your mess in the bedroom" >I nodded >handing me the hose he leant in and kissed me again >even more shocking I kissed him back >"Everything will be fine, you'll see" >Dave smiled rubbing my cheek affectionetly. >I smiled back >Keeping the hose on I tried to shower.
That night we ate dinner like any other night. Cant remember what we ate. I didn't sleep well. He bought me an anal plug training kit. Explained how to use it and I should wait a little to heal. He still got his blowjobs for the next few weeks but he left my ass alone. Then the next time it wasnt so bad. He listend to me and didnt go so fast or as deep. Im sure he prefered a slower nut anyway.
Elijah Sanders
Questions so far if any? Thats all ive typed up and Im getting myself more coffee.
Jacob Ward
How old are you now? I'm sorry this happened to you. I was abused by my older brother as a child before CPS took me away. Took me years to remember, then more years to deal with it. Do you notice any ways these events affected your life or relationships with other people of any sex?
Levi Harris
Effected***
Logan Brooks
During Halloween I was asked to chaperone my daughter and her friends while they went trick or treating. A gust of wind blew her best friend's skirt up and I saw she wasn't wearing underwears
Caleb Garcia
So does everyone
Evan Cruz
Im 28.
Yes they have effected my life and relationships. Therapy is great though. Trust issues obviously and using sex as a tool to get what I wanted when I wanted.
Not all the sex was bad which made it just as fucked up. Some of the sex was actually pretty good. It was better when I didn't have to look at anyone though. Preferred it even.
Lucas Morgan
Even guys thinking about guys? I guess that's normal since I'm into that.
Isaac Jenkins
Do you now what he make to your sister? And can you describe you at the time please. It looks like you are a good girl and he was lucky to have you for everything he wants.
Juan Lewis
This is the lamest made up story I ever read. Gripping and spreading your ass hurt? Get the fuck outta here. You're a lame attention whore, which is odd to say cause you pretend to complain about the attention you got as a kid but still make shit like this to get yet more attention.
Dylan Peterson
Spreading your butt cheeks really wide can feel uncomfortable.
Robert Perry
Of course some of the sex was not so bad. What's bad is how you're fucked up in the head cause society pushes you to have a biiig victim complex. Shit out of your control happened to you. Hope the guy went to prison. Let it go and be happy you are out of it.
Dominic Rodriguez
About to finish up for work then head home. I can type more if thread is still alive in an hour or two when Im back
Coming from somone that has never had their ass spread wide? Don't like it dont read it. Dont want to know what happened dont ask shit and let the thread die.
There is literally an entire board full of autistic shit for all of us on the spectrum to enjoy.
everything I posted was in responce to the end of a different secrets thread.
He's in Jail. my mom and I don't talk. Im living in my own place after finally moving out from my sisters. Im still in therapy but even that might be ending soon.
Anyway take it easy, cap it or just let it die.
Nolan Green
Oh god, it was uncomfortable. Look at you. All praise you. I bet those soldiers who get their limbs blown off couldn't possibly imagine what you went through.
I'm sorry you went through that, but stop being such a drama queen. It's for your own good. PS I was molested too. Just get over it and stop letting your HUGE EGO get in the way.
It happened. It's over. LET IT GO. It wasn't your fault. Wrong place, wrong time. That's all.
Cameron Thomas
I'm not that poster. Just saying it.
Bentley Clark
Affected was right to begin with.
Jonathan Nguyen
fake and gay no one in america calls apartment a flat and theres no 711 in Europe
Jason Scott
How did you feel back then? Were you scarrd of dave? Did you love him?
Asher Ramirez
Imagine ruining a perfectly good book for this nonsense
Josiah Cooper
Could have been a dan brown book, which is pretty much trash
Nicholas Ortiz
THIS asshole again..
Michael Edwards
My oldest nephew is actually my son. Only me and my sister know this but everyone is amazed out how "similar we look:"
Jej Somebody has to be smart enough to put two and two together here...
Jayden Green
I fucked one of my daughters friends during a sleepover in the garage while my wife was upstairs passed out watching tv in our room and the rest of the girls were sitting around watching movies.
Dubs! Also, the mind is a playground of possibility. Within our minds we are Gods and Monsters, alone and left to our thoughts. In that place there is no limit past the imagination itself to our wanderings and to our fantasies. It is normal to spend time in that playground. As when you see your friends, even the same sex friends, naked? You can also see so much about why you imagine it.
