What have you tried to do this year? Did you move towards it?

What have you tried to do this year? Did you move towards it?

In 2018 I managed to control my drinking and loose weight. In 2019 I managed to hold down a job and learn to drive.

How has your year been Sup Forums?

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I moved out of my moms place but only to move in with my sister and her bf. It feels more independent but I know it isn't. Quit one job and managed to get another 3 months later, I think I can last a lot longer at this one than my previous jobs so hopefully I can stay in one place for at least a year.

what job are you doing now?

My years been pretty shit

yeah, how so?

After a couple of years of crisis due to suffering a bereavement and going wacky trying to “fulfill my dreams”, studying every arbitrary career path, trying out YouTube, making an album and subsequently eating into my savings, I had a breakdown in September after realising I was going nowhere, and that I had been neglecting feelings of loss, over both my passed family member and my first-love.

After this, I started getting my act together.

I’m seeing a therapist, working part-time and looking to start an apprenticeship.

Learning to drive and studying sciences in my spare time.
If I’m still into it in a year, I’ll take some exams and maybe start a bachelor’s, but we’ll see.

I still have strong feelings for a girl I was with seven years ago, and she’s with someone else.
Maybe I’lll get her back someday, but I won’t count on it.

She’s the only girl I ever loved, and the only reason for me to make something of myself, besides just doing it for myself.

I’ve dated plenty, liked two others and forgotten the rest.

I hope things work out, and I hope I’m good enough for her.

We’ll see, but it’s fucking hard starting from what feels like square-one.

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I’m also back at the gym, but I’ve always been pretty consistent with keeping in shape; only stopping when I’m really at my wits end.

finally graduated in law, but still don't have a job

Nothing really. I wagefagged and blew the money on ammo and... well that's all, I think.
I can't believe it's almost December holy shit it's like Christmas 2018 was last week or something. Why does time seem to speed up as I get der? I'm only 23, any oldfags wanna explain this? Does anyone else feel that, and does it level out later?

Sounds like you've been through some shit, I hope you manage to pull through alright. An apprenticeship sounds like a decent idea, I'm thinking of working towards one myself.

I can't relate on the girl, never been in a relationship myself, too much of a shut in but gradually getting better.

Hey, man - you have a degree.
That’s already a step up compared to many others.

I would give anything for one right now.

Something will turn up I’m sure.

I managed to not be a fat fuck this year. Made it under 200 pounds. Next I have to fix my fucked up acne-riddled chin. Then improve my social skills. Then leave this fucking website for good.

Nice one, I had a friend who studied electronic engineering, took him a good while to find some kind of related job and worked there for a couple of years. Now he works with testing electrical systems in rockets. Keep at it, it often takes a while and a few detour to get where you want

I'm 25 and I'm starting to feel that too, that I do some random shit then look at the clock and think, "well there goes 5 hours". I try to fill it with excercise and that so I don't freak out like I'm wasting too much time

that's a good plan, you sounds like you have the drive to do it, which is more than a lot of people I've met in life

What's a career to study for, for someone who can't function around or together with another person?

Planned on fixing my shoulder, getting fit, living life, fixing my relationships.

Instead it was depression, anxiety, and some really concerning thoughts that thankfully went away.

My plans for 2020 right now are distraction and escapism.

Thanks, man - I hope things work out for you too.

It’s always worth a look.
You usually get a shitty wage, but hopefully it pays off afterwards, and you likely get a secure job opportunity in the same company, unless you find a better one.

I can't relate on the girl, never been in a relationship myself, too much of a shut in but gradually getting better.

I was the opposite in my teen years.
I was outspoken and social, but after being in a relationship with a sociopath, I became untrusting, cynical and abrasive.

I haven’t had any friends for those two-years, but I’m trying to build myself back up and rebuild some bridges.

You seem like a decent person; I’m sure you’ll come out of your shell.

Maybe a pluber or electrician? Some jobs involve people but if you go self employed you only really have to interact with the client at the beginning then do the work alone, my dad does this and he's pretty bad working with people so went self employed

Thanks for saying that, I hope things get better for you too.
wow that's nice! I appreciate your thoughts

between all the lolis and tortured cocks on this website it's nice to know that there a few people like you that are alright.

It's good to know your building yourself back up over the past two years

I'm hesitant with the apprenticeship because I feel like I will become trapped in something I might not like and end up hating it, I think this will go with age, as the alternative is to hop between dead end jobs all my life. I'm sure I'll figure it out

sorry to hear everything was shit. If you're anything like me, the escapism works for about 3-6 months but after a while it will start gnawing at you. I hope you manage to fine something to help pull you through and that next year won't be so tough

Good idea, thank you.

Not a single step forward.
Father still a drink fuck check
Life is still fucking trash check
Sentencing for my father's removal from the house still no where check.
Want to kill myself every day check
Sis got a baby now tho so I guess I'mma uncle now

do you see much of your sis? between deaths and politicking in my family neither side of my parent's family want to know. Having at least a few genuine connections helps, even if it is mainly my mum and sister. Maybe you can be a good influence in this kid's life?

My goal for 2019 was to get a job and start losing some weight. I've managed neither, but at least I've gotten better eating habits.

Sadly no, currently I'm more of a guard dog for my parents got them to divorce and now am trying to get my father out of the house.(he fking deserves it ) my sis moved away from home And to this day I thank who ever is up there she did. I do visit her from time to time.

nice, that's still improvement. Even by eliminating a single bad habbit, that's a success and would make it much easier to loose the weight. I mainly got fat by trying to block out anxiety with alcohol, got black out drunk like 3 times a week. I changed my environment which lead me to cut that shit out, It's taken 3 years. Keep at it and you'll get there

Thanks man, life's been pretty shit the past couple of years so I just try to grasp onto every little victory I can get.
I can absolutely understanding trying to treat anxiety with alcohol, I probably would have too if I didn't get really bad heartburn from it. Instead I used pastries, sweets, ice cream and so on.

talked myself out of trying to lose weight for the 24th time and spent most of it worrying and panicking. guess I'll forever be a fat fuck

I drunkenly yelled at my two best friends of...15+ years at the start of the year and haven't talked to them because I'm embarassed, angry at them for not trying to call and uh...I guess the more alpha one said some shit like mental illness isn't real? Thing is I'm actually having mental problems since I was in a home invasion where my dad got murdered. I started drinking a lot, I got a DUI, I'm angry all the time. This would all be a lot cuter if I wasn't 33 and hadn't already been kind of a drunk, now it's out of control though, clearly.

My goal has to been to stop drinking, I have failed. If anything I was angrier than I was last winter when this started.

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what causes you to worry and panic?

I wouldn't be suprised if you're having mental problems after experiencing a trauma like that. But you're still here, holding on though after all of this, even if the drinking is a problem, that takes strength.

do you have other family members in your life, or someone you can connect with?

-Passed my studies with flying colors
-Asked a girl I liked for about 2 years, we've been 9 months together, long ways ahead of us
-But life is a whore and she needed to move to a city 7 hours in car, I go visit her buts obviously is not easy
-starting second year of baccalaureate
- beginning to learn driving
- finally the existential dread is catching un, the usual gay shit
- family deepthroughting medicine on me

In conclusion, not the garden on Eden but been a good year for me anons

must be hard trying to find the time to see her between all the studying, I had a friend who moved about the same distance away a while back, I got to see him by taking the overnight bus once or twice a year.

I'm fintimately familiar with that existential dread, I try to revel in small achievements like going to the gym or simply going outside. Not glamerous, but it's a step per day. I've began to formulate where I want to be in 5 years or so, I find it comes with age and experience.

I moved out of the apartment I was in with my now-ex-wife, got a new law-firm job, and flew my girlfriend up here for eight weeks this year. Pretty much did everything I wanted.

Sounds like things are really looking up, good luck with your now job

Thanks, yeah it is mostly. The job is pretty stressful and I hate it, but I make decent money and it's steady hours.

It's 3 am where I am now, I'm going to bed. Thanks for all the posts, I like to imagine that I'm becoming slightly less shit per day and that I can offer a bit of comfort to those on a similar path, because I know how hopeless it can feel. See ya anons

Loser

I'm crying in the club right now

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I lost 100lbs
Spent a week in the ICU
Found out I had T1 diabetes.
Gained 70lbs.
Savings gone.

Thx user.

Tried to not be suicidal. Getting 17/hr at the job I've been grinding for 5 years is a start to fix my licence I think. Still figuring out how to fix myself so I don't feel like a burden unto every person I come onto contact with

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Wise words user

Dropped out of uni, acquired insomnia from smoking 20 spliffs a day for a year straight and now I'm trying to sort my shit out my body's a mess. Haven't had any pussy since April and I'm more depressed than ever. Oh and that's just this week lol. At least I got jawnz

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I like this girl's personality.

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