>Be me >Kids are early 20s and don't live with me anymore >My oldest doesn't talk to me but whatever they can get a hold of me if they wanted to >He told me told me back a few years that he was one of those transgenders >Don't agree with that kinda lifestyle but whatever >He lives with a few people in a flat but they never talk and he doesn't work as far as I know so I assume doesn't leave his room there much >Decide to try and reconnect >Decide on lunch somewhere, would be good to get him outside >Give him a call but goes straight to voicemail >Whatever I'll just go to his flat >Knock on door, no answer >Eventually some skinny Asian kid answers the door who I've never seen before >Some flatmate.jpg >Ask if he's there >Guy says probably, he hasn't seen 'her' in a few days but knock on 'her' door to check >He points to the door >Walk to room >Knock and don't get any reply >Call out, no reply >Open door because he's probably on his computer with headphones in >He's lying on his bed >He has really long hair now and looks quite odd, looks like eye makeup is smudged and running down face >Go to ask why he's asleep in the middle of the day >Realise he isn't conscious >Empty bottles of vodka/gin on desk >Bunch of medication sheets on desk with all the tabs missing as well as empty bottles of meds >Fuckfuckfuck >Go to call emergency services knowing that he's already gone >Face is cold and isn't breathing >Check arm, no pulse >Yell out for flatmate, ask if he knew anything about what was going on >He just stands in the doorway looking shocked and going pale >Eventually ambulance arrives but they just confirm what I already suspected >He didn't tell anyone he was gonna do it >Later, find file on his PC explaining how he hated himself and his body >Thinks he won't ever be accepted by society >Find bit about me >Just wanted approval but never got it
Did I kill my son Sup Forums? It's almost a year since and I can't get the image of that day out of my head.
>Did I kill my son Sup Forums? No, he killed himself and it's not your fault. Forget about him. Life is too short.
James White
wow what a larping faggot. kys
Evan Allen
Its very common for transgenders to commit suicide. Something like 1 out of 3 do it. Its a dangorous mental disease
Juan Powell
Even if they were only early 20s? I thought that was just older ones 40+
Jaxon Brown
It's sad, but it's definitely not your fault
When you feel like killing yourself, you chose to be active in getting better, mentally.. he did not.. it's shot but it happened and tbh he's kind of a fucking asshole, selfish fuck
Adam Walker
Nah the cance of comitting suicide just gets higher with age
Jace Reed
Your son deserved to die. He was an abomination and got what was coming. Don't feel any guilt for it. You could raise him completely right, he was broken from birth.
Henry Cook
No you didn't user. If he's gone then it's meant to be that way. It's not the best way to go, but it could have been much worse.
The problem isn't you. The problems is the norms you grew up to perceive and now the society is full-blown strange and uninviting to us normal people in certain ways. He had a mental problem that was normalized as a glitch in the body. I don't have anything against transgender, I just have a problem with the constitution that has deluded them to think it's something wrong with their bodies not a psychological disorder. This is my opinion.
Say a prayer and mention your sun if you believe in something. Otherwise don't blame yourself. I believe in you user. Next time try to condition your kids to your norms (which are the norms of normal human beings), maybe help out your other kids and try to get closer and make them understand. Redpill them without jeopardizing yourself coming as a neonazi. Establish a binding relationship in which they for instance have to visit every 2 weeks at least. Call constantly. Make sure you're there at all times.
Evan Martinez
Regardless of your opinion. Are you really serious. Even if you're shit posting for the lols, do you think this story is the right story for this.
I bet your a little pussy that hasn't yet gone through something tough. Man up and stop acting like the little bitch you are, fucking kiddo.
Juan Turner
Thank you for your kind words user, I've been making a huge effort with the younger one, we are going away together for the Christmas break soon. I don't know what I'd do if something ever happened to him.
Chase Baker
No you did not kill your son user. Nobody can hear you scream for help if you don't scream.
Isaac Baker
No, everyone has their own feelings. He was depressed clearly. Weird thing, I'd never be able to relate before, but I have a 3 month old son now. I love him being small and a baby, but i also can't wait until he can talk and laugh. I already never want him to leave me though once he grows up :'(
Evan Cooper
>muh born this way subtle, real subtle. and shameless
Blake Fisher
Going to dump my feels because I need to get it out.
>be me, 20, uni student >be 2018 >find self falling for girl who lives in Italy >we have common interests in art and our minds are both logical >itsamatch.jpg >visit her many times >its always perfect >first time with a girl in this sense >she breaks up with me in April, and after about two months, finally moving on >she comes back, seduces me again >visit her more, she sucks my dick >more memories to add to the pile >we plan to meet at christmas >be november >suddenly decides she "doesnt know if she wants to meet" >okay.gif >feel disappointed but am sure it's not so bad >she becomes more and more distant >become increasingly anxious and depressed from the combination of juggling work, uni and this relationship >get diagnosed >she's not there to help me at all despite everything I did >cry every night >see her online on WhatsApp at any time of night when I've considered texting her >constantly haunted by the images of her sucking my dick >can't masturbate to porn without crying
what do, am verging on suicide because of mental torment
You didn't kill him. You should, however, always strive to take part in the lives of your children, especially if you don't agree with them on the surface. Be pushy, even though it's awkward and uncomfortable.
Matthew Murphy
That user is either very young or very stupid, In the case of the former, they'll learn. In the latter: they're doomed
Ethan Foster
You're 20. Don't off yourself over some broad, there's a ton of fish in the sea. As you get older, time will wear off all those high peaks of feeling in love and fill in all the valleys of depression and heartbreak. You'll never be this in love again, but that's not an entirely bad thing . I'm 37 and I can't feel shit anymore, and it's much easier to deal with.
William Hill
Sucks user, hard not to blame yourself but clearly your kid wasn't happy. My kids are young but I can't imagine not being there for them no matter what.
Connor Campbell
Retard
Jack Williams
Yes... you fucking did. and the rest of the Anons here advice would lead another trans person death. Just accepting of people. Sexuality and gender isnt controllable by people in general. Regardless of what people think is biological. I cant control another person and you cant ethier. However you do influence people regardless of what you think. If someone comes out being trans or gay or bi or someother shit (as long as it doesnt effect others) you should try to help them and accept that just who they are. All you can do is support them or watch them as they follow a self destructive path for your approval that only seems to matter to them.
David Morales
trannys are disgusting
Tyler Nguyen
It's not your fault.
Josiah Foster
>found a bit about me >did i kill my son if this is not bait then wouldn’t you think he would have focused more on how they didn’t get your approval
I have trouble connecting to my parents because of what they expect of me. The best way to accept what happened is probably to accept that your child was mentally ill. People don't just kill themselves out of the blue because of something that happened years ago. They face a problem and falter. It's not anyone from their past that makes them do that. It's just how strong we are in the face of controversy. Some people might not survive a life of scrutiny. That's just what we are. You will never join him/her in any kind of afterlife probly. But you can try to be a better person and whenever you question your motivation, use that memory as a shield or crutch. Until you don't need it anymore and can be a person on your own. Best of luck copypasta user.
Grayson Moore
>is was
Nicholas Hall
why arent i with her?
she a whore like every single one of them
Chase Rogers
My life is at an dead end, i just hope that it isnt but all im doing is buying time before i end it all.
