Boredom is fucking torture. I swear I find everything boring. Video games are boring, the internet is boring...

Boredom is fucking torture. I swear I find everything boring. Video games are boring, the internet is boring, drugs are boring, pretty much everything is boring. I don't find anything enjoyable. I feel like I'm just constantly waiting things out, and I feel fucking tweaked out and stuck in my head 24/7 if that makes sense. It's like my brain is noisey. How do I get rid of eternal boredom.

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do something craaazy.

also stop doing drugs for a long period of time, it brings back diversity of feelings.

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Give your life a meaning, get a passion

I heard suicide is the most fun and memorable thing you can do in your life, try it and tell us your experience.

Find something challenging to do. They're all too simple. It's making you bored.

But how can I be passionate about something when I find it boring?

I can't do basic math. I failed algebra in high school and had to redo it like 3 times.

What's something crazy?

>obsessed

Learn basic math then!

You have no imagination. Get outside the house

I feel like I have too much of an imagination. I often find myself never hearing what people are saying because I'm inside my head.

(Not OP)

I'm always lost in my own thoughts, but never have any drive to bring my ideas into reality. I'm drawn to firearms engineering, but not a single one of my designs has exited my brain. No drawings, 3D models, prototypes; lose interest every time I try to do something. I'm drawn to writing fiction, but haven't written a word. I'm drawn to the studies of our universe, but haven't taken a step past 5 minute pop-science videos on YouTube.

This daydreaming made it quite difficult to perform in school. Middle school and high school were especially difficult, because the focus was generally on memorization over actual learning. Hard to memorize when you're not listening. Dropped out Sophomore year, got a GED that I haven't used for much.

Tried loads of meds throughout my life to help me focus, but nothing seems to work.

My mind seems to have atrophied beyond its already crippled state. I used to read novels, play games from start to finish. My childhood memories still remain much clearer to me than my memory of yesterday. I could probably recite the core lore of Bionicle back to front.

I play Call of Duty when I feel like fastforwarding an hour or two. It's not enjoyment I get out of it, just time acceleration. Before I boot up the game I often consider if there's something I could do with this time instead of deleting it... nah, nothing worth a damn to me.

I sometimes have pleasant thoughts of myself with a family, as a good father and husband. When I consider the path to that hypothetical future, I feel tremendously bored, and then I give up; maybe jerk off.

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Me again. I didn't mention an interesting detail about myself.

I wear headphones every waking hour. Without noise, my already chaotic mind becoming too overwhelming to handle. Thing is, while I cannot handle silence, I idealize it.

Everything I do, I do as quietly as possible. To do otherwise would feel like a crime against nature. With my headphones on, I can't experience the silence, but I can appreciate its presence.

Any of my overall experience sound familiar to you? If it helps, it's been implied that I have Asperger's Syndrome and or Attention Deficit Disorder, and or Schizoid Personality Disorder. Nobody has ever landed on a concrete diagnosis however.

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My brother has Asperger and Schizophrenia. I feel quite similar to you, maybe us 3 have something in common.

I'm always listening to something. I like to listen to stories(I don't actually have to mental capacity to listen to them, I just like the background noise.), even now. If it's too quiet then my thoughts get too loud.

I like drugs because they make me feel like not myself. I smoked so much weed that I think I might have burnt the back of my throat. I still feel the urge to smoke, sobriety is torture.

Mate. DO SOMETHING. Why don't you write something? What is stopping you from whipping out a pencil and notepad and just drawing something? It can be SHIT. And guess what? It probably fuckin will be! It won't portray your thoughts at all and you'll hate it. But DO IT. EVENTUALLY you'll get better and feel more confident. Nike said it best Just Do It, unironically

All of your options are going to seem boring because your only frame of reference is the chronic stagnancy you're mired in. You need to dig yourself out of this mental rut. Getting yourself entirely out of your element and making tangible effects on your environment are two effective ways of doing this.
You could accomplish both of these (and also gain some discipline) by joining some structured work organization like the military (good if you like firearms) or the peace corps. Or you could just get a job as a farmhand if you don't like being around people. Hell, even fucking off into the wilderness for a couple of weeks might do you some good just by getting you out of your element.

go do things that make you tired

you aren't special

This will solve your problems, but you aren't going to do it until you figure it out yourself.

Growing pains incoming kiddo.

I really like nature and fucking off into the woods to bush-craft sounds hella fun. Wish I had to bux to do so though.. Same with guns, I've owned a few in the past but I don't have the bux.

I like the idea of discipline. Would working out be a good option? I have a few free weights but I don't use them too much.

A lot of the time what I listen to is also just background noise. Sometimes I push myself to actually WATCH a movie or show, but it takes legitimate effort to retain any of the information. About an hour it, I tend to feel really uneasy and have to fight the urge to turn it off. It confuses some of my peers when I say I don't have the energy to watch a movie with them, because for them it's just a way to relax.

Sometimes it feels like my thoughts are on two divided layers. The mind with the pencil doesn't have access to the mind that I built the idea inside. Sometimes tiny little pieces can cross over to the other layer, but not enough to do anything with.

I feel the same way. Shows that require any kind of attention span are just too hard to watch for me. I never really like shows or anything but I could watch them with my parents, now it feels like I am watching a wall but the wall is speaking in a language I hate.

Did u watch too much porn?

I find that porn is too much of an easy dopamine lever. Using it too much numbs me to so many things and drains me of both physical and mental energy,.more so than a really intense excercise. I'm trying hard to quit porn and fapping and it's difficult.

Whenever I succeed in abstaining for more than 2 days though, I feel so energized and like a kid again, as if there's so many things I wanna do and even small things like the smell of nature gives me pleasure. When fapping daily I don't feel this at all.

If it's not fapping, you're likely have some other activity you do that gives you so much dopamine, everything else pales in comparison. Or maybe you have some chemical deficiency in your brain or some form of mild mental illness.

Have you always felt this way since birth?

You are just depressed friend. Things are still good. And you are still loved. Get some help from a doctor and I promise you will feel better. I was like you. The right meds will make you feel like yourself again. You aren't alone.

rape,stealing,murder,kidnap children and step 1

The world is infinitely interesting
You can in fact learn to change your mindset from "I wish more interesting things happened to me" to "Let me try to see what is interesting about the things around me", because there really is something there to find

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Fuck man, part of it probably is the porn. When I'm separated from porn long enough, I do seem a little more productive. I've suspected for a while that it's been damaging. Was exposed to pornography pretty early, because I would hang out with much older kids. Probably started properly jacking off at 10 or 11

I think my ability to feel joy and wonder has always been compromised on some level, even before the porn.

You could point out a rare bird, a beautiful sunset, a towering landmark, etc. My first thought would be "fuck's wrong with you for finding this crap so entertaining" and then I would politely act like I gave a shit.

I don't recall ever feeling pride in an achievement, only relief that the pain of the task is over.

Suicide was on my mind at an early an age as I can remember; think those thoughts faded around the age of 17. I wouldn't say the thoughts always came from a place of depression. Without strong reward signals going off, everything on Earth just feels like pain. I have a distinct memory of myself at roughly age 7, cock out, wondering how hard it would be to cut my throat with a shark tooth.

I feel confident that there's no repressed memory of a terrible event in my life. I don't have a hard time accepting what's happened; would say my best skill is introspection. If everything's on the table, I just need to interpret it all.

It's probably a combination of the way I was born, and lack of discipline (especially around porn). I'll probably never be normal, no matter what prescription drugs I'm on, but I would like to be in a better place than this.

It's you who's boring bud

I kind of described that situation with minor tweaks to my doctor a year ago and now I have 3 doctors. If you want to figure out why life has been boring to you, you gotta ask yourself some tough questions.

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You know what's going to happen now, right?

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Interesting...I relate!

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Try making something. A simple dish recipe, a piece of art (any medium) or anything else you can think of creating with your hands.
Doesn't have to be good, as long as you're interested in the process.

meet jesus lol

Build shit. Build whatever the fuck you can build. Preferrably use cheap craislist shit for parts to keep shekel hemmorage low. Keep building. Rinse and repeat.

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I wish I could. I'll love to punch him in his nuts.

Ever try getting a GF/BF? they will stir the pot up a bit for ya

honestly same, OP. Only I know it's just depression/anxiety and general stress.

I hope you feel better, life sucks sometimes.