>be me, 31
>divorced
>broke as fuck
>debt keeps stacking up
>no luck with women as well
>used to be alpha as fuck
>now betafag peasant
>honestly considering ending it all on the end of a rope this year
Any better ideas for suicide? I'm a coward and pain creeps me out.
Sounds like my life.
Suicide pact??
If I get more drunk, I'm doing it tonight, tried it once but was found, shits not gonna happen again.
U were never alpha as fuck
Kys
>ending your life because of a few horrible years
enjoy eternal damnation
This already is eternal da nation, faggot.
Oh I forgot that everyone outside of Europe is super religious.
There is no damnation, no heaven, no help. Everything we are is stored in our brain, and rots with it as we decompose.
Literally everything is pointless, after all the entire universe is being compressed in a extremely dense singularity, and even time will end. So no afterlife for you.
What happened OP?
Got Married? Got kids? what made the situation go nuts?
You wouldn't believe if I told you.
But anyway.
If I'd believe in hell, I'd be convinced I died from a motorcycle crash I had some years ago, since from that very exact point, everything, in general goes down the drain.
Got a completely shit job that wasn't even enough to pay all Bill's, plus being emotionally draining.
List that job, so no more money at all for me, parenta and friends help me out as far as they can.
Everytime something good happens, it goes down the drain exact as fast as it came to me. Like my ex. I really loved her. But she decided she wanted an open relationship, and left me for a dude she met in a swinger club.
I abandoned my whole family for that slut, glad they took me back, I don't deserve it tho.
I get extreme aches just thinking about money, and socially, I can't trust women in general anymore, so I reached a point where I even lost interest in sex.
I pray for a heart attack every fucking day even though I don't really believe in god.
I hate myself for turning everything I start to complete shit in the end, and can't help it.
>god creates universe and everything in it and knows everything that will ever happen as well as having personally planned it all out
>subjects humans to suffer
>humans kill themselves to end suffering
>HOW DARE THEY DO THAT! NOW ILL MAKE THEM SUFFER EXTRA
what a bizarre faith
Why has to life be so lonely?
not to play competition with you op but
>24
>never worked a job outside of retail/food service
>love of my life ghosted me 2 years ago, haven't been hugged by a human but my mum since
>been in community college since 2015
>14 F's on transcript, 9 withdrawals
>alcoholic and addicted to weed
>owe $14,000 car payment and currently jobless
>went bald at 22, propecia isn't working
>extreme debilitating OCD
on the upside my folks let me live at home and are generally supportive, i study in my free time now and i'm not ugly
How can you be addicted to weed? I smoke it regularly as well, but I have not the slightest problem when my stash is finished, even if I know I don't have money to buy more for literal months. (No friends so only few chances to get stoned for free)
I am aware weed has different effects in different people but I never saw an addict.
Apathy and lethargy
Lethal injection or a cyanide pill. I advise against it though
Not only that God is all that is, so you probably typing this was the entity known as God's will
it just makes me perfectly functional and without it i'm not. when i don't have weed i just mope around and wait for the day to be over, but when i have weed then i'm motivated to do the things that aren't fun (cleaning, studying, etc)
i smoked like an eighth a day and sold from like 14-22 so i guess my brain adapted to needing it. i literally can't enjoy life when i'm not high and can't understand people who could go their entire lives without trying weed- i literally feel pity for them.
maybe it's just me but it fixes something in me that's probably broken, allowing me to forget about everything else and just live in the moment and enjoy my time.
that being said i'm out of weed since yesterday so i spent the day just sitting in bed watching stupid clickbait youtube shit and playing fate grand order to pass the time
applied for a job at shop rite by me and they wanna drug test me in like a week though and i really need the job, so i should probs start exercising
Why are you in debt?
Other options:
>fake/ other guys urine (friend of mine did this regularly for his probation)
>Look for different job, the ones I had? Literally half of the staff came to work already high, no problems at all (didn't need to operate vehicles/ heavy machines tho) other half started rolling after work (good times there was always 1 or 2 Joints to smoke on for free)
>suicide
Still not sure if I really going to end it, but if I do then I'll do it during 2020
the natural order of things means that you should bea the shit out of your women, its the only way that you will feel better
beat*
>31
>in debt
Student loan debt?
Nah studying is free in my country. Shit life decisions, shit job that didn't even pay all bills and which I lost anyway.
No social payments until including this month as I sent in a fucking form too late.
Took money out of emergency from dubious people and probably get stabbed soon anyway. At least beat to hospital, which adds up to my debt as I am not insured for including entire january.
Parents and old friends help me out, but it feels like debt as well, even though they don't want it back.
Yeah. Yeah. Helium exit bag, user. Or just a good old fashioned rope.
You're living just to support a lifestyle you no longer maintain.
Who molested u?