How do I cope with the fact that I'm an ugly nigger dicklet college dropout NEET, with no prospects for the future? I've thought about killing myself for a while now, but I don't want to leave behind my family and my friends, the ones who still consider and have hope in me anyway. Alas, videogames, anime, Sup Forums and other forms of entertainment/escapism can't do the trick anymore. Social pressure combined with responsibilities and debts starting to pile up are making me feel helpless, and I don't want to struggle because ultimately I don't see the point. I have nothing of value to bring to anyone since I graduated highschool. I have nothing worthwile to share with people other than Sup Forums screencaps or videogames. I don't have any particular talent. All of my overweight ex girlfriends quickly realized that I had nothing to offer other than basic decency and companionship, given that I'm an empty shell devoid of motivation on top of being a underwhelming sexual partner for obivious reasons. Due to several years of physical and educational inactivity, my brain and body both began to feel numb and I have lost all forms of discipline, intellectual prowess/curiosity, cultural knowledge and physical fitness I could have had back then. I'm also expected to attend a court hearing in two weeks for a shitty felony charge. I won't end up in prison but this will surely leave a mark on my criminal record, on top of giving me yet another debt to take care of. What should I do? Find the easiest and quickest way to kill myself, or try and get my shit together somehow? I'm soon to be 21. Have no money left, still have a roof and family, but I suspect it won't last for long.
How do I cope with the fact that I'm an ugly nigger dicklet college dropout NEET, with no prospects for the future...
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There is literally zero reason for you to NOT try to get your shit together.
But you've got to be willing to work and do things you don't necessarily want to do.
If you can't do that, you're doomed.
Drugs
Join the military. Free ride, motivation is provided (albeit harshly), see the world, opens tons of doors, and of course the military pussy...
try acid
you could steal a suit, grow an afro and protect people from waterborne HIV
This is the problem here. I have no will to work despite being 0.1% aware that if I continue down this path, I will face regret and meet my demise way earlier than the average person. It's really easy to think "get out of your comfort zone" or to daydream about changing things for the better while you actually postpone what needs to be done for tomorrow and ultimately do nothing. I fall in this category hard because I m'm addicted to that feeling of emptyness when I waste my time on this site doing nothing.
Don't you need to be fit in order to join the military? Also as you've probably surmised by now I'm extremely weak willed, so I'm scared of becoming a slave to ideas or causes I don't really believe just because I'm part of an institution. I know this looks selfish, childish and immature considering where I stand right now in life. I shouldn't be able to be picky in the first place but here I am. I let myself grow too used to western comfort and the instant gratification brought by Sup Forums, videogames and other forms of entertainment.
Don't you need connections to obtain drugs?
kek
Thank you for taking the time to reply, anons. Even if I know full well that by making this thread I'm only repeating the process of pretending to look for solutions to my problems when it could have been way easier and simple to start printing out resumes and try looking for a part time job, at the very least. Who am I fooling? Lurking and shitposting are way too addictive activities for me to give up.
>"I don't want to struggle because ultimately I don't see the point."
>I don't want to leave behind my family and my friend"
Struggle, get a shitty part time job, maybe you will find something in it. A new outlook, motivation, a better opportunity.
You admit you do not want to kill yourself.
So, do something else.
You have to not be a Complete fatass, but check for yourself:
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Either way, good luck bro!
This must be really hard to deal with user, and I respect that you've thus far decided not to an hero. It honestly sounds like you've been dealing with some shit and if you can at all seek some professional help for your depressive symptoms, some talk therapy or even meds might help with the lack of any motivation you feel. Because if your brain isn't producing any reward chemicals, then it makes sense that you don't want to do anything.
The best thing to realize is that you have plenty of time, and that you have a family that cares enough to support you, at least for the time being. If college didn't work out for you, maybe some kind of trade might work better or even manual labor for awhile so that you can contribute something back to your family? At least where I am, manual labor can net you like $15/hr on job sites, no questions asked.
Hope it works out for you user, realize that 99% of people aren't living perfect lives either.
I've been through something similar, OP. Besides the debts and responsibilities, I'm pretty sure your suicidal thoughts started growing louder when you got exposed to bullshit blackpill rhetoric making you feel bad about yourself. What the fuck does being a dicklet have to do with anythung you've wrote? I suspect you've been browsing /r9k/ and if that's the case, you need to stop. In fact, you need to pull the plug and leave Sup Forums altogether to focus on real life. Seems like you even know deep down what to do and what needs to be done, despite your lack of confidence in yourself or whatever excuses your mind tries to make in order to justify your passivity in life. You're only 21 for goddamn sake. Don't throw your life away.
Seconding this. OP, you might not be born an alpha or something like that but get out of the blackpill mindset. Life isn't a defined path but an experience who can hold a multitude of meanings. Don't give up and don't be more of a nigger than you already are.
You're still young faggot. I wish I was 21
discipline is not telling yourself i need to do this for myself, it's telling yourself i CAN do this because i have the will to do this.
stop watching porn and fapping so often, reset your dopamine levels.
start little user. tell yourself i will take out the traash because i can, not i have to take out the trash. a big difference on your outlook to life and how you approach things.
you mention you have a family, why not tell someone in your family about all this? if they care about you like you implied, im sure they's help you in your time of need; learn to rely on people and confide in them. especially your family.
hope this helps user. i wont feed you the your life is precious bs youve heard before, i will say though, whats the point in dying? you dont have a reason to live? well you don't have a reason to die either. what youre saying isnt nearly any reason enough to die. life is hard user, everyone has their ups an downs.
you're 21, you have a shit ton of time to fix your mistakes faggot
Firstly, OP, know that you're only 21 and you have PLENTY of time to get your shit together. 21 is young as fuck, if you decide to try and do shit to better yourself you will have decades and decades of time to do so, and to enjoy the fruits of the work you put in. You've wasted three years since high school, yeah, but in three years you will STILL be extremely young. So don't think your life is ruined, because it isn't, as bad as things are now, it doesn't have to always be this way.
Secondly, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step, and good things compound good things while bad things compound bad things. What that means is that you need to start making just a small effort to improve yourself in each dimension of your life:
>physical
>intellectual
>emotional
>financial
>social
Each improvement you make in each dimension will make it easier to do better in the other dimensions. For example, if you get a minimum wage job, because you live at home you'll have a small amount of disposable income. Then you'll have money to put in the bank, spend on therapy, or buy gifts for your friends and family. If you start working out a little bit, you'll get less tired from work, be more alert intellectually, and generally feel like less of a piece of shit all the time. You get what I mean; right now every part of your life sucks, so that's making every other part suck that much worse, and you're spiraling.
But there's hope. There are easy things you can do.
For physical, that's probably the simplest, go to Play it Again Sports or whatever other used sporting goods store and buy some 15lb weights. Google a simple workout routine, and if you do that three times per week for an hour, in the comfort of your room, your young man testosterone will ensure you get into shape. Just make sure you buy some chocolate milk and drink a glass after every workout. Ask /fit/ for help if you're scared or nervous.
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For intellectual, read a fucking book. Go to the public library, go to the sci-fi section (or whatever else you like), and pick up a book. It'll expose you to new ideas, stimulate your curiosity, and slowly sharpen your reading and writing skills (which will help you if you decide to go to community college later).
For emotional/social, try to show the people in your life that you love and care about them. If you're NEET, you have plenty of time to take care of the household chores for your family and win their appreciation that way. Talk to them, ask them about their days at work/school, etc. And if you feel up to it, open up to a friend or family member about your problems. Humans are social animals and we get huge benefits from forming deep relationships.
For financial, get a minimum wage job, part-time for now. This part will suck the most, but the routine will be good for you, and after a month or so you'll become used to it. You'll meet new people, make a little bit of money, and get out of the house. Try and save up some of the money for therapy/medications to help your brain make the Happy Chemicals.
I know that life fucking sucks for you right now, but there is a way out. Just start out small, do a little bit of work each day in those areas, and build your way up. Godspeed, Sup Forumsrother.
what the fuck is this thread, why do I feel the need to give advice to a random nigger on an anonymous imageboard
Am I on Sup Forums or on /adv/
nothing. just remember that nothing that bothers you will matter. the sun will consume the earth in 4 billion years and humans will have probably go extinct in only 200 years anyways. nothing matters in the long run
I have been carefully reading your posts and I'm really grateful for your answers. I suppose the first step I should take is confide with someone close, your posts made me realize something awfully crucial : I haven't shared this with anyone, not even my brother. I'm scared that by doing so, I'll disappoint them because my family still sort of believe I'm doing something fruitful with my time, same for my friends since I always was the kind to leave what I do in my life in a grey area, I never really liked to talk about myself in general. I'm being honest here, thank you for your input and this time for real I won't just idle by and read posts like these only to feel better while daydreaming about a better myself. I'm currently typing out a resume as I post right now. Your posts weren't for nothing, anons. Thank you again
in the end you'll still be a dicklet lmao
no matter what you do or try you will never be able to satisfy a woman. Everything you will achieve people will think you're compensating
become a cute black trap, embrace life in easy mode and your boipussi will serve its purpose : being at the mercy of real men to handle you
I can tell you right now that your family will not be disappointed that you're reaching out for help. Facing your problems by being honest with others is a sign of bravery and strength, and not only will your family be supportive of you but they well also make it much easier for you to accomplish your goals. I'd say asking for help is even more important than getting a job.
Good luck to you, user. Remember that day shall come again.
Me
Try arson
Nice LARP white boy.
you will never be a woman
I thought you people were all players with huge dicks, and better than cracka ass crackas in every single way.
>I have nothing worthwhile to share with people
That isn't true. I'm sure that there are hundreds of gay men who'd love to use your booty. Just become a fag.
Why are zoomers like this?
Post a picture of your veiny erect penis so that we can ascertain if you're really well endowed or not
Kys already, faggot. If you succeed at only one thing in your life, make it killing yourself. Fucking do it.
>t. trumpet magerican
Biggest COPE I've seen all day
This
Idk u sound like 1 of the good nigs to me