I graduated last year with a degree I really hated. I've spent the past 14...

I graduated last year with a degree I really hated. I've spent the past 14.5 months mostly wasting massive amounts of time on the internet, living with my parents, working menial part time jobs (less than 20 hours a week), and procrastinating instead of learning programming like I told myself I would. I don't even read books anymore. Also I have an existential crisis that I realise will never go away.

Has anyone been in a situation like this, constantly telling yourself that you'll work hard tomorrow? I feel like I have potential. I feel guilty when not working and I fear working only a medium amount and being guilty about not working more. When I get a full time job I know I will have no time to do anything substantial.

Yeah, I went through it.

Protip: you're going to have to overhaul your entire lifestyle.

swim or die

I figured as much, but starting where? All at once?

I did this until 28. I go to sign up with the military next week. Change of life in an extreme fashion, maybe I get to kill haji too, gonna see what happens. Either the worst or best decision I'll make.

We all have that happen. Then you realize you swim or starve

What branch and MOS?

Definitely not all at once, you'll flip your shit since you're already wasting time online. Go slow.

Wake up tomorrow and do something that doesn't involve mindless browsing. Say, go for a walk, to the gym, run a few errands. Just get the fuck out of the house. And everything you know to be harmful to you? Cut it the fuck out of your life now.

Also admit you enjoy procrastination. It's in your nature to be wired for pleasure but unmitigated hedonism will fuck you right up. Control it. Only resort to time-wasters at the end of the day, and tackle things that require full attention as early as possible.

>When I get a full time job I know I will have no time to do anything substantial.

This was my issue too and I thought just like you. Looking around though, no one really goes out and does shit anymore, at least not to the degree that they did in the past. We're living in some very strange times, but as long as you have a place to piss shit and sleep you're golden.

You can spend all the time in the world thinking about what you want to do, but it means jack shit if you're not acting and working towards your goals/ideas on a daily basis.

If nothing else, opt to improve as a big "fuck you" to your current/soon-to-be former self.

I had a similar situation but with my social life. after highschool i got put in a job that had me away from home a weeks at a time the only friends i would hang out with was my two best friends when i was home. i simply got caught up in life a lost touch with other friends. once i turned 19 i had time to relax and i wasted about 4 months doing literally nothing only going out on occasion. same year got a promising job as an electrical apprentice that summer. Flash forward the the next summer my best friends got jobs on weekend one nights other mornings so i had almost no social life. i had a realization im 20 never go out and a kiss less virgin. i decide to change i clicked with 4 guys a work started hanging out with them went on multiple cottage weekend went to parties raves and concerts even kissed my first girl and it has been the best summer oh my life. long story short commit to fixing your mistake take chances, do thing you wouldn't normally do, take the potential you think you have and make it potential.
sorry for the long read.

I've been in this slump too. First thing I did was breakup with the girlfriend in order to start fixing myself. I wasn't happy with myself and she kept wanting more and more of me. How could I ever provide while being a bum? Or help take care of my parents later or even kids? Felt like an immense weight off my shoulders. She was sad of course. Accused me of just using her for sex and whatever. Slowly but surely getting back to my old motivated self. Back to the gym, new people, sending out job applications.

Most failures in your situation become English teachers like me.

I'm in the same position OP. I'm working less than 20 hours a week, really not doing much with my life. I'm strongly considering joining the Army, currently working out to meet PFT.

I understand that we're really just fighting over petroleum resources, but god damn do I want to fight.

I was looking for a job for a year after i graduated, I finally found one and its decent. I am 27 living at home with a gf of 5 years and am also having an existential crisis. I don't know if I should stay with my gf or not. I am thinking maybe after I pay my student loans I would move to the states to work just for a change.

I'm an alcoholic but I think that Sup Forums is a much more dangerous addiction

forgo your leaf ways and become an burger

true

The internet in general can fuck your life up if you spend too much time on here. It certainly has mine.

Learn to into self-control before you hit your mid 20s youngfags.

likewise op but you should be on r9k.

save some money and go AWOL, backpack around different countries, fill your life with experiences worth having.

Sometimes it takes time to find where you want to go in life, mate.
I spent my entire school life doing fuck all but playing video games. No socialising or learning so when it was time, I picked drawing which was something I was alright at. Took me all through school and a degree in college until I realised I fucking hated it. Now I have an art degree which is the most useless fucking thing imaginable. Still haven't figured out what I want to do. Thinking of getting into language.
The point is, it happens, and it sorts itself out. My mum didn't figure it out until it she was in her thirties, but I doubt it'll be like that for you.

I learn more in a month on Sup Forums than I have in a decade IRL but it also kills any lingering faith in human decency

This. It all adds up. Sup Forums told me to hate social media, and it gave me very cynical views, and unpopular opinions.
It may all be valid, but I get lonely sometimes.

Holy shit user, are you me?

at least you have parents

Yeah mang. That's how I'm feeling right now.

I'm trying pretty hard to get enthused about this upcoming semester, but I just don't want to do anything.

The only thing forcing me to work is to pay the damn bills. Otherwise I'd want to do nothing. It's a horrible feel.

Live not the life you planned, but the life that is waiting for you.

I read that when I graduated....

I am still waiting for the LIFE.

I'm in a similar bind, OP. Too much time is spent worrying about it though.