Be me. European expat in russia. Find a decent girl (not slut or tattoed or feminist). Take her to dinner like 7 times to best Moscow restaurants and wine bar. Buy her perfume and flowers. Overall spend lot of cash. Still holding hands, hugs and nothing more. Both in our 30s. The only reason I am still trying is that i really want a redpilled girl (if thats even possible), at least on values and family. How cucked am I?