I want to make films/write/run tv shows for a living. I watch maybe 5-6 a week and generally read maybe one chapter of a film textbook a day + take photos in my spare time. Probably less than others do, and I know how hard it is to achieve, but is it possible?
I'm not looking for validation but I'm want to know if it's a complete waste of time or not. I can't imagine doing anything else with my life. Only been at it for a year though. I'm 19 btw. Expecting it to take me 6 or 7 years to get a decent film made. Any advice? Thoughts?
I've had a few people tell me It's not for me. One person who worked in locations, and my best friends dad suggested maybe I should be a writer/editor, as he worked in the biz and thinks I'm too passive/timid to be a director. Guys probably the smartest person I've ever met, and he's usually right about things, even if he's an ass. I know I should be confident in my decisions, but if film doesn't pan out I've seriously been thinking of just offing myself (another problem in itself, Too much self loathing). Should I spend some more time working on myself first?
Sorry for the rambling post anons, I needed to vent