Your purpose

What keeps you going, Sup Forums?

I've been asking myself this question for a few weeks now, and Im coming up empty handed as to why I continue going on. Everyday just seems like going through the motions, waiting for the day to end so that I can go to bed and maybe not wake up the following morning.

Im a overweight, 28 year old white male that has never had a girlfriend, and would be a full blown wizard at this point if I wouldn't have broke down 4 years ago and gave my virginity away to some dumb nigress. I have a decent job and that's about the only thing I can think of that keeps me breathing and Ill probably lose it at some point failing a drug test for weed. I dont see myself amounting to much and I cant remember a day where I haven't had suicidal thoughts, Im just too big of a coward to go through with it.

Why do you do it? Why do you persist?

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I don't know. I look at homeless people sleeping on the sidewalk with nothing to their name and wonder how they live at all.

The hope that one day I will see the happening that will wake up everyone around me.

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I'm fairly certain this life is a punishment for some wrong committed in another existence. This is literally a prison. If you kill yourself you probably just start over in a worse position, so I'm just gonna stick it out until I die naturally and hopefully I'll never have to come back here again.

Why?

You are almost certainly a K-selected man. The problem (for us) is that we are living in an r-selected world, probably the most r-selected any place in the world has been ever.

This takes its toll in countless ways. The thing that keeps me going? The knowledge that K always wins out in the end. Eventually, the fake world that the rabbits have created for themselves will crumble, and I will joyfully welcome the moderate amount of baseline stress returning to every day life.

It can be difficult, user. I try to focus on the positive and my goal of shining light where there is darkness.

>Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.

Philippians 4:8.

>What keeps you going, Sup Forums?

I don't know, to be honest.

But what I do know is that the only people who voted for Donald Trump are rural and suburban retards who wish they could fuck their own relatives.

City people and intelligent people all voted for Hillary Clinton.

I'm trying to write a book. I want to see my name on a book in a bookstore before I die.

City people are terrible, neurotic, anti-humans.

t. city dweller.

>Gave me virginity away

Holy shit you waking vagina

Men don't "have virginity", that's something that maters for women. When they have sex for the first time, there body undergoes literal physical changes, a man just trades a hand for a vagina. Many languages literally don't have a word for male virginity.

If you can, get the fuck out of the west for a few months, a year if you can do it. Go to Asia, or the 3rd world. You need to get as far away from liberalism and egalitarianism as possible, because it has hijacked your very mind and turned you into some walking puppet. Lift weights, stop eating wheat and sugar, if you have money that donate it to some active pro-white outlets.

You almost certainly have severely deficient testosterone levels, that should be the problem you deal with first.

Truth, honor, justice, purity, excellent, lovely, worthy of praise, commendable

These are things I hardly ever encounter

Ive already been to China, its a nightmarish shithole

>What keeps you going, Sup Forums?
Bodhicitta a.k.a. the ultimate redpill

Where did you go?

hatred and the pursuit of watching the whole world burn.

>What keeps you going
Holy racial war.

Beijing, Xian, Guilin, Hong Kong

Hong Kong was ok, though I could tell I was not welcome and it was post British- leasing. The only fond memory I really have is taking a boat ride up the Yellow River, and even then, the memory is sullied by a dirty river and people who paddled up to the boat on logs to sell us trinkets, in hopes of gaining one USD

Righteous indignation.

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So you're Buddhist then?

I thought this as well for a while, until I stopped giving a shit about even that. It just makes my heart hurt

Never surrender

Yeah those all sound shitty other than Hong Kong. They have some fun cities now though if you have money.

/r9k/ ->

Never dawned on you to be them? a light upon the nations, etc?

> truth
Start telling the truth. To yourself first of all. Most people in your situation have been handed a bad time but by their own actions made it worse.

> Honor
Don't know enough about your situation to say this one, but usually honor is in how you relate to others.

> Worth of Praise
This is the exact opposite of what you are. You didn't get in this state overnight and you're not going to fix it overnight, but... to put this in terms an American can understand: eating a burger isn't going to kill you. Eating a burger every day, day after day, probably will start you on that path.

Move closer to the light. Quit posting, start right now. You can't do anything in the future and you can't change the past, the only time you can do anything at all is right now.

stop smoking weed.
also this

Those people are happy with their situation of fucking body pillows, tendies, and being NEET wizards.

I am not

>What keeps you going, Sup Forums?

Shitty CIA data mining thread for the purposes of assessing demoralization potential.

saged.

Its been the only thing keeping me from sticking a pistol in my mouth

Let me suggest something to you user..

You have depression. I want you to try something.

Take a fish pill once a day every day for a week and see if your mood changes.

did for me. It was like a cloud lifted from my fucking brain and now its running on all cylinders.

Oh yeah, let me tell you, Im totally CIA. Do me a favor and put me out of my misery and Ill tell you who killed Kennedy

I dont like my life much either but whatever lies beyond death cant be good especially if you suicide.

that's how you see it
the way I started seeing it after I stopped is weeds the cause of the depression. You wouldn't need to relieve pain if there wasn't any.

Watching you come up with a million reasons why you won't improve your life suggests otherwise.

see:
and pretty much every response you'll ever made to this thread, in which Sup Forums shows its beautiful soul and tries to help you.

Known people like you, maybe 1 out of 1,000 is capable of mounting the effort -- and that's all it takes, just mounting the effort to change their life. The ratio really doesn't make it worth the effort at all but I still try.

That's one of the things that keeps me going, btw. That I might one day reach one of the 1 in 1,000 sad sacks who will sacrifice his terminal existence of stringing along temporary satisfactions in order to improve themselves and find out for themselves why life is worth living.

Probably the search for god. I haven't found him yet, and if I never will then nothing changes, and it doesn't really matter. But if I do, it will surely be worth everything, for I can imagine no greater reward.

"We've all been placed here for one reason: To stop the globalist agenda. If we don't stop them now, in this generation, then it's all over. If our race is eliminated from this earth, then humanity shall never truly reach the stars. We'll stagnate on this planet, and eventually destroy ourselves in some pointless war. So it's up to us to stop that. That's why existence exists" - Anonymous, 02/05/2017

Pick a fucking goal.
Have a fucking ideal.
You are at the bottom of life.
Any striving will pay off, in your position.
Get in shape. Make this your number one priority.
It is impossible to value yourself properly when you feel ugly. And others will not value you either.
I've been fat and unsuccessful, and that shit makes you depressed as fuck.

Seriously.

Life as a fit person is infinitely better, and if you have not tried it, you don't have any fucking right to end your life, because you have not lived.

Get a good dog. Take an hour-long walk with it every day. Cut down on the carbs. This will make you drop weight so fast your skin will need time to tighten.

The dog will keep you company, and give you much needed companionship and appreciation while you improve yourself.

When you get going, pick up some useful real life skill as well. Learn to cook, or play an instrument, or paint or draw or carve fucking wood. Anything. Because you are worth what you can do, and if you can do nothing you're worthless.

If you fix those two things up, and don't look like a fucking IRL Quasimodo, females will come in due time.

Revenge.
I persist to see those that took my wife and child removed from the face of the Earth. Tu día crece cerca de, Ignacio

dude,
-go to church
-hit the gym
-stop eating like shit
do this for six months and see what it brings you

I remember times that I wasn't smoking and these thoughts persisted, with or without the weed. Im not going to disagree that it's just numbing the pain, rather than making it go away, but it's kept me from doing a lot of stupid things in my life that would have hurt myself or others

What incentive do I have to actually improve my life? It's not like the natural incentives, like having a wife, children, a family, land, haven't all been completely destroyed, so what is the point of putting in the effort? To validate your own position?

>If our race is eliminated from this earth, then humanity shall never truly reach the stars.
The East Asians could.

Try dmt

There's no excuse for being overweight. If you want to start improving yourself the least you can do is eat healthier and exercise more.

For fuck sake OP, sort yourself out.

>Quit smoking that shit
>Go gym
>Start lifting
>A bit of cardio won't hurt...
>Learn to cook (properly)
>Eat healthy
>Read more books
>Educate yourself on new topics.
>Learn DIY and become self-sufficient in home repairs
>Mow your lawn and take pride in your garden.
>Grow your own vegetables.
>Start stockpiling none perishable foods
>Get a backup generator, water filtration system and some iodine pills
>Learn good marksmanship
>stock up on guns and ammo
>learn to fight (boxing/kickboxing/Muay thai/jui jitsu/mma)

Just learn to be self sufficient, healthy, fit, knowledgeable, well trained in combat and ready in case shit hits the fan!

You'll not only be the only guy in your neighbourhood ready for war/civil war/economic collapse or natural disaster... but you'll become a bad ass regardless if anything happens at all. You'll become confident and that confidence and your new abilities will attract women.

(I've done all of this accept the weapons as we do not have guns in the UK - not legally anyways).

GOOD LUCK BRO! You can do it! You can make it Bro! Start with gym and healthy eating and then work on the rest!

Take care desu.

>"He who makes a beast out of himself, rids the pain of being a man!" - Dr Samuel Johnson

>Do me a favor and put me out of my misery and Ill tell you who killed Kennedy

We already know that it was the Federal Reserve Banking syndicate.

> reeeee i don't want to try why should i reeeeee
People just got married today.
People just had a child today.
People just started a family today.
People just started a fucking HOMESTEAD today you ignorant git.

It could have been you but it will never be you because you can't be bothered to give a fuck and try.

If these are the things you value -- you just answered your own fucking OP, didn't you? A normal person would fight for those things rather than just autistic screeching about not being handed them.

My life has been forfiet the moment I've born in this shithole.

I just want to see world burn, beginning from West, and die in as vain and futile as possible.

On the other end of that scale, African men make boys piss over a stick to see if they're still virgins or not.

I have no clue how the test is supposed to work; I've just seen them do it.

I'm making a video game and I gotta get it done. Get yourself a project to finish.

>I remember times that I wasn't smoking and these thoughts persisted, with or without the weed.

Quitting it will not make things worse. Things will improve instead.

Judging from your posts you're not ready to improve yourself mentally. Once you'll break the barrier, the struggle becomes lighter and easier with each day.

The things I live for, they don't want me to have or are trying to take them away.
Maybe the only pleasure I get anymore aside from masturbating to FUCKED UP porn is stirring the pot so I can see you idiots eating straight out my hand. And ruining your lives on social media for my sick amusement.
You're all evil. All of you. Judgement is coming.

Chaos keeps me going user. The world is becoming more and more chaotic. When the dam finally breaks I will ride in on my flying unicorn radiating pure energy of hope to cleanse the despair from the masses. More than likely I'll probably just starve to death in the first couple days if the shit hits the fan though.

Hallucinations cannot substitute legitimate spiritual experiences. 99.9% of all great spiritual thinkers who have ever lived have never resorted to taking drugs to falsify some kind of experience. If the human mind cannot perceive god through its own power, then god is even less likely to be real.

Nothing, that doesnt stop me from forcing myself to exercise and do the basics of hygine everyday though.

Life is Strife
Learn to love it

Find God. A Godless life is as empty as you describe and a true waste.

There's no strong reason to keep your life, when you believe it ends with death

This is literally ancient knowledge you retards

Is it possible to be redpilled and a person of worth if you're a fag? I'm 30 and never had sex with a man (or woman for that matter, I got a blowjob from a girl I had a crush on years ago when I didn't know yet) nor do I ever plan to

As a kid I was intensely attracted to women but then it waned for years and I led a purely asexual life of self development, thanks to this I'm now financially independent and with good outlook for the future but now I have a mental illness. Nobody knows or suspects, not out loud anyway.

I dont want to kill myself as it would hurt my parents probably worse than them knowing I'm a homo. What do.

Wanting to see it through to the end.
Also:
>full blown wizard at this point if I wouldn't have broke down 4 years ago and gave my virginity away to some dumb nigress.
>fucking a nigress
Why are you into beastiality, user?

Chaos is what keeps me going. Destroying and using people to my advantage. Society itself is a joke forget the traditions, do what ever the means to get you plan a to b. Stop hoping. just do it yourself. At the end of the day, its everyman for himself

alcohol

>homo

sorry user no cure, you'll have to take the bullet.

>Is it possible to be redpilled and a person of worth if you're a fag?
dude, just go fuck a woman and spend money children. You don't need sexual attraction to have children

Have u considered abondoning the stupid irrational religion that is atheism?

>28 years of age
>single
>good job

Ffs you fat prick get a grip, talk to your boss to see if you can have a lengthy period time off to sort your depression out, talk to a doctor to see if they can back you up for time off.
Then get a passport, pack a bag and go see the world, come back in 6 months to tell us how your doing.

Me too. Only I don't care about my name in bookstores. I want others to have a chance at avoiding the horrors, betrayals, and other calamities that I've endured.

If it wasn't for the hope of writing the book, I'd give up. Especially because I'm facing an increasing likelihood that I'll be homeless soon. Scares the crap out of me.

I don't know that ending myself would make anything better.
Sure, it's a shit world, but death has me scared shitless.
I'm not stupid enough to buy into meme religions. That would be the easy way.
I know death will get to me eventually, so why force the issue?
I stopped weed a decade ago because my job involves driving. My job is the only thing keeping me alive, so I'd rather keep it.
Right now, I'm on the highway to Alcoholism. I pretty much drink myself to sleep 4 -5 days a week.
But honestly, it doesn't really change anything, so I might stop that too.
I'm trying to get myself to eat more, as I'm skinny as fuck, but it's hard to find the motivation, when your only friend is an anime message board.

Volk
Your life is not your own. You belong to your people. You are a representation of them. Your ancestors clawed their way to this moment in time and you sit there pondering if you want to live. I don't blame you, but it's pathetic.

Why act? Why not? You're here now, might as well do something of worth. Otherwise you have another 50 years at least of being a pussy and not pulling the trigger, bitching and moaning all the way to the grave.

Easy choice for me.

Are you me?

You're white, so get breeding, you faggot. I don't care if you're a faggot, there's no excuse. Get producing those white babies and get your degenerate sex out of sight.

At this point I'm pretty sure we are all fucked. 1984 is here. I just wait for great happenings. Try and make money as well. Nothing left to do

>starving niggers don't kill themselves, literally just allow themselves to starve to death outside their mudhut houses in a village festering with flies, mosquitos, and vultures ready to eat their starved corpse
>tfw no gf first worlders kill themselves enmasse
Why is this?

if you sort your diet/sleeping/exercise and drug habit out your brain and body will literally change. You will become happy, life should snowball onto better stuff from there

Start going for a half hour walk after work each day so as to clear your mind and get fit. Download podcasts on subjects that you're interested in to keep your mind off negative thoughts. Join a political group if you're that way inclined, you'll expand your social circle that way. The main thing is to get /fit/, women will start to notice you and then you can build on that, good luck user, God bless.

looking for a purpose is my purpose.

Get good nigger no matter what happens get good.

has something to do with 'never dreamed a sail'

I want to understand everything. Every day I get closer to my goal. It doesnt matter how my life is going at the moment, how sad I am, how happy I am, how rich or poor I am. Nothing short of death or brain damage can take this purpose from me. One day I will figure out the mystery that is life.

Everything makes me upset now. I might just become a hermit, spend a few hundred pounds on books from a better time, and drown myself in them.

No internet, no television, no radio. Just borrowed memories of what we used to be.

have wife+kids.

This is a day I look forward too.

If you were intensely attracted to women, your not a homo.

I super your "asexual" years of "self improvement" left you a giant asshole (no pun intended) of a narcissist, and to protect your time, lifestyle, and money you've convinced yourself you are gay.

Having said that, it's probably better you stay gay and not ruin some woman's life, not mention a child raised by a narcissist goes through fucking hell.

And believe me, your parents are likely more okay with you being gay than you realize. It's the initial shock that's hard, which wears off in about a week.

Well, makes sense that there are plenty of us. It's just that modern life is just plain boring.
But because we always stay at home, we never know that we're not alone.
Doesn't comfort me in any way, though.

>What keeps you going, Sup Forums?

As silly as it sounds, currently only the (hopefully) soon upcoming next Song-of-Ice-and-Fire novel.
I expect it for Christmas this year so unless something significantly changes for the better soon, sometime early next year will be my time.

In truth this is actually quite liberating once you have accepted, truly accepted, the reality.

shit, replying to my own post.

There wont be a collapse. The money power wont allow it.

Print more money, borrow more debt, import more people. Continue until the world doesn't collapse, but rather just swaps out for another one that's even more dehumanising and corrupt.

I could have sex with a woman just not often. And with todays women its a surefire way for an eventual divorce. Which results in broken kids.

Women with low sex drives are few and far between almost always high value and taken early.

I was thinking an asexual life, hell I managed to go through half my life without it I can do this until I die I think. I'm just worried I'll go nuts and start wanting to diddle kids like catholic priests although thats the point when I'll definitely eat a bullet.

Spite.

basically in the boat but never get a chance to smoke weed except on rare occasions.

I don't really suffer from depression, but my anxiety is gnawing away at me like acid everyday.

I keep going because I don't take for granted the things I DO have, even if it isn't very much. Something to dull the misery would be nice and I am getting sick and tired of shitty alcohol.

My only desire in this corrupt, shit world is to have it crumble to ruin so I can live a simpler life in the remains.

Spite.

>Why do you persist
Because it bothers other people.

This too.

14 words. Self-improvement.

>Why do you do it? Why do you persist?

because I can

>What incentive do I have to actually improve my life? It's not like the natural incentives, like having a wife, children, a family, land, haven't all been completely destroyed, so what is the point of putting in the effort? To validate your own position?
Seeing someone who had been in a worse spot than me and put in the work to improve themselves is what inspired me. I was overweight and wallowing in depression, drinking and doing nothing to help myself. I met a guy who was 270 and is now 190 and fucking jacked. I lost the weight and I'm feeling so much better.
There's also not really anything unusual about being a 28 year old single guy. You can still work out, grow out your facial hair, and wife up someone a few years younger. Or, if you're tall enough, donate to a sperm bank.

I'm like 15 lbs underweight and a manlet. I don't know why I persist... Being a manlet is the worst part. We are badly discriminated against. I've been fighting for LGBTQM. Not even joking...

To overcome my past friends. I was the poorest of my group of friends growing up with by far the least stable family life. As we all entered our twenties every single one of them leaned heavily on their family (got jobs, loans for school, cars, or just lived with them) while I found it harder and harder to stay in class and work minimum wage. What was worse for me was that they all entered the fields of their desires (mostly music and production). By 22 all our various music projects had gone and theyd all seemed more and more entertained with things I found incredibly tedious (they smoked weed instead of camping, they binged watched netflix instead of working out or continuing to practice music, etc.)

Im 26 now and live in a rented bedroom. I still put myself through college and continously stay as healthy as I can and practice/study music as passionately as possible. I nearly never see my old friends, but when I do talk to them they vape and a few even use custom fidget spinners. Theyre all well enough off but complain about never really "doing anything". I live to overcome them. I must see myself outshine them despite their superior station. I will become the better man one day, and theyll feel as bitter and envious as I was growing up while knowing their Overwatch streams, Hawaiian vacations with their parents, customized GoT theme bongs, and strawberry-peach vape juice brought them only to ruin.

God keeps me going.

He didn't come to the world to have an easy, care-free life either. He came to suffer terribly, and so must we. It will be worth it in the end.