Currently drinking coffee in central London to feel less alone

>currently drinking coffee in central London to feel less alone
>telling myself it's my last coffee until summer and I should stop wasting all my free time while I have it
>went in to my full time job at 3 pm, left at just after 5 and went home in a packed tube, as it was dark, and after I ate at home I realised how late it was (after 7 pm) and realised how awful any other job would be

Life is boring and empty even as I have lots of free time and a job that is ok on my CV and miraculously requires me to do almost nothing. I have nothing to tell my parents about when I phone them.

I finished war and peace yesterday. Why start reading another book like a consumercuck? I have no motivation.

Why put effort in to jobs when you need to be an extroverted normie to get anywhere? It's like I'm locked out of doing anything worthwhile. Society feels fraudulent, as if it constantly advertises stuff impossible for me to have because I'm trapped in the ugly beta male box. I'm in London and have nothing to do every day.

If I stayed at home I'd feel like I have to read moby dick or go through SICP and those bore me to death.

Background:
>aged 27
>no friends or social life since 18
>no female attention ever
>went through university with zero social experiences
>became the loner nobody talks to within two days of my current job
>never been to pub, club, or party
>missed out on all the 16 - 22 formative social experiences that people look back on fondly (teen crushes, school prom, school dances, university fresher's week, any sort of relationships at all)
>know that women all have 5000 tinder matches and think the average male is ugly; seeing attractive women everywhere is demoralising
>feel completely bitter and detached from others due to being an ugly subhuman; lifting weights did nothing
>feel like everything is work and have no passions

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What kind of comfy ass job is this. Tell me and I'll help on your other points. I am also in London

Public sector

It seems comfy but it is just boring and demoralising and aimless. When you look in to those big buildings you imagine cool things going on but it is all dull as shit.

get a hobby. come to /fit/. getting in shape and spending your free time more productively does miracles for your confidence. don't shit on your job though mate, getting paid to do nothing is a fucking sweet deal which many of us would literally kill for.

Lifting changed nothing . I have squatted 4 plate

get off SS/SL and go a split bro. even ugos can bang 6/10's if they have a rocking dad bod.

I've the same life except I'm age 26. It's not suicide-inducing yet but there's always next year.

>went in to my full time job at 3 pm, left at just after 5
>as I have ... ajob that is ok
I dont think you have one of those anymore. You typically dont get to keep them after you walk out mid shift.

Such is life. Yes, society is designed for extroverted normies, it's always been and will always be. You'll get nowhere without connections, sadly.

Try to find something that you feel passionate about or brings you joy and spend your time doing it, whatever it is (things that are physical or require creativity are usually better). Reading Western philosophy to sort out your mind can be like trying to put out fire by pouring gasoline, I don't recommend it, it's better if you just learn to ignore and observe from a third-person perspective whatever flows in your head. If you like 2D, watching cute and heartwarming anime can give you warm feelings and make you less bitter.

Stop thinking about women and reading "red pill"-like texts, it'll just make you bitter as you've already experienced. If you have really strong intimacy urges, just get a high-end escort and be done with it, though personally I wouldn't do it.

Even if you are introverted and don't like people, sadly (for most people) our shitty human bodies make us feel bad for unseemingly no reason if we get too little social contact. If you have a job, you shouldn't have trouble getting a bare minimum. Just go have breakfast/coffee with some group of colleagues that sit next to you, it'll be awkward the first time but it'll be much less bad than you imagine.

Take everything I said with a grain of salt since I'm also a somewhat bitter and depressed introverted virgin with a shitty job.

This is like the 4th time you post the same shit in the span of a month.

I'm sure that no matter what advice we give you have already tried it or will refuse to try. There's nothing really left to say.

Do you want your kids to be like you? No? Then kill yourself. Really. It's the only important thing in the world.

Get help with your social issues, humans are not made to be lonely we survived in tribes so your brain rewards you for socialising and meaningful interaction,sadly our modern society is far removed from tribal ones so you can be lonely with literally millions of people around you.

In that note maybe try a martial art. When trying your private life, job,status does not matter people are treated equally and judged by their dedication

>SS/SL
whats that?

Should we turn this into a pasta guys ?

why are you blog posting here?
get a hobby you dork

Why are Europeans such complete faggots? Holy shit take this mawkish trash to /r9k/

Go to fucking therapy OP. You sound mega depressed and need to fucking sort this shit out NOW
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it could be worse.

>late 2016
>graduate in psychology, 0 interest in working as a psychologist after 5 years of a terrible course
>coast during Q1 2017
>march, check out what's new in webdev for shits since i made geocities sites back in the day
>learn shit for fun, eventually learn PHP, JS, react and node
>end up getting a fulltime job in july
>work is just as fun, work on a really big project but the hours near launch are insane
>launch, very tired, havent been going out since i live in a shithole of a dangerous city
>no friends here, all my friends are back where i lived
>sister i lived with and cat too
>daily routine is waking up at 5h30, getting to work at 7h30, leaving work by 4h30, in a packed bus then train then subway
>get home, play a match of dota, csgo or whatever else, have dinner, shower and go to bed, repeat every day
>work starts being shit due to incompetent management, entire dev division tired of their shit and actively looking for other jobs, me included
>tech lead being shut down nonstop by management
>last week they sold 8 projects with deadlines less than a week apart from each other, the first of which is due in 3 weeks and there's p much no devs to work on it
>tech lead literally told to stfu and work because they're not hiring anyone else OR giving anyone raises
i thought i'd be happy if i just got a job. i was so wrong. there's really basically no good things in my life besides living with my grandma. shes the best. i missed her when i lived in another city. (but sadly my stupid uncle who literally robbed my granma and mom lives in this house so that's shitty too.)

i want out

I don't come to this basket weaving forum to hear about real shit. Fuck you, and fuck your depressing life, and fuck off making me feel sorry for you. I wish I never read that.

it's okay user, don't worry. i ain't giving up.
sorry for breaking the illusion, here's a free anime girl on me

not that user but thanks for the happy anime girl i hope you get to post many more in your life

Thanks bro, means a lot.
You can make it, we're all gonna make it user.

Same boat, except my job sucks, people treat me like the sperg I am, and I work constantly. Is there light at the end of the tunnel somewhere? Probably not. I'll probably end it in a year or two, if I can't flip things.

As another user who moved to London a few years I go I understand what you mean. Every person in this city is either a thug or entirely worried about what other people think about them, left or dead is the sentiment here sometimes.

But seriously, who cares what those vapid cunts think. If you want to coast through life just be polite, smile and laugh at jokes, it's easy to fake your way through competent normality. Just don't sperg on people and do whatever you want with your free time. If you're only ready to seem well read, stop, it's just another thing that's making you depressed, start another hobby and go back to reading in the future.

>When you look in to those big buildings you imagine cool things going on
There's your problem user. Nobody in their right mind would look at a government building and think "cool".

youtu.be/xxmXeLEcs9s

this should help
youtube.com/watch?v=c7rCyll5AeY

if you hate consuming that much then why not create?

be an artist, comic artist, musician, gamedev, crafter, theres all kind of stuff you can do aside from watching tv or reading

It's like you want to be miserable and unhappy. Be the best you can be.

Yea this is good advice. A martial art is a great hobby. Perhaps if you don't want to, try getting really into an mmo, yknow guilds, organised pvp. You can make some great friends both ways

we're all gonna make this, anons. it's shit now but when it's the shittiest it can only get a bit bettter.

i'm 64330703, i was doing gamedev for fun in my neet hiatus but since i got a job i have no energy to do it anymore.
it was one of the greatest, most fulfilling things i've ever done, but being a member of society doesn't really leave you much free time to do it.

try drugs, something like mdma or cocaine.

shitty advice

I envy you
I started uni telling myself to avoid making "friends" and to just stick with who I already know outside.

Few months in now and i'm being invited to their discord group and csgo games. I enjoy it at the time but want it to end.

There is this autistic kid that hasn't spoken a word to anyone and turns the work in ahead of time. I fucking wish i was that guy

fucking kill yourself

Psych pre-phd here.

Have you ever tried doing the stuff you like but with other people? There are gatherings for coders, you can join up with people for vidya, there are movie watching and discussion clubs, try a running group, like boardgames? There's a group for that. Like food? There are dinner and cooking clubs.

The first group will not always have the people you are looking for but there are people interested in the same things you are and if you find them you'll feel less alone. Even if they're not immediately your friends you'll see that there's options. Go from there. You'll have to put in the effort though. Like seriously, don't be a bitch and put in the effort, ask anyone for help if you can't do it alone. They won't mind.

I am the same way but I live in Seattle.

The things people do for fun I have no interest in. Kratom is really helping stave off my depression and anxiety but it is a temporary fix cause tolerance.

>hang out at some overpriced bar or restaurant.
>watch some boring Seahawks American football game.
>Stand in line for hours just to eat at a newly opened, overpriced hipster eatery.
>hike and camp in the same crowded wilderness over and over.
>boring board games.
>abuse illegal drugs.

Sounds like you need to read some Nietzsche.

jobs are a thing that you do to earn money. its not fun or something that you want to do.. its something that you just have to do if you want to get money.

Work on a project you actually like on the side.

I'm starting work on a small but fun VR game soon

I always relate to ronery threads and I wish you the best, user. If I were from London I'd meet up. Try to think about your situation this way: you have a more ore less decent job, that's something you can build up on, and since you got this job without good decent social skills (I assume), it is not too far-fetched to assume that you're at least somewhat intelligent, which is something you should not take for granted.

hang in there op

yeah hang as in suicide right?

same

Don't you have work friends user?

Start your own shit retard. how can you plebs force yourselves work for someone else?

No

find something you like and let that be your passion in life. even if it's 2D cartoon waifu's. or whatever else. take up travelling once a year. go fuck some slags in amsterdam or los vegas. take up low key recreational drugs. if your bored of lifting, take up a sport like water polo. whatever.