Long greentext time

Long greentext time.

This is a story spanning a little over two years. It’s about a girl named Katie, who I still love dearly. While it’s mostly platonic now, it has been a long and depressing road for me with this girl. This greentext will be broken up due to Sup Forums’s word limit. Please read it’s a good story

>be me
>16yo male
>August 2015
>first day of junior year
>in my last class of the day, Spanish
>every class i’ve been checking out girls hoping one of them could be a potential girlfriend as that’s how 16 year olds function
>begin eying down every girl i can
>most of the girls in this class are annoying popular types
>Stacy’s if you will
>none of them catch my eye considering they aren't my type at all
>i’m a pretty big beta when it comes to flirting with girls but other than that i’m fine
>moving on
>one girl finally catches my eye and she was sitting one seat away from me
>i glanced over her cause she was looking away from me but eventually i saw her
>i swear i looked at her in slow motion
>every detail of her face was instantly and permanently captured into my mind
>our teacher began taking attendance and i began listening for her to say her name
>Katie
>one of the most important names to come into my life
>a few weeks later
>the teacher has moved everyone’s seats around
>Katie sits across the room from me and after awhile i began to stop thinking about trying to get with her because she never talked to me due to how far away she was
>however
>her best friend at the time, Ayla sat right behind me
>now i did say i was a beta when it comes to flirting with girls but i could very much talk to them
>i begin acting like my normal self around Ayla and soon become friends with her
>and over time Ayla began to develop a crush on me
>i don’t think anything of it because i’m much more interested in Katie and simply put, Ayla is a 5/10
>also i didn’t find out until much much later that she even had a crush on me
Cont.

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>Ayla and i had some good times in Spanish and it was all pretty fun
>i had no feelings towards her but she did toward me
>homecoming was rolling around and i thought about taking her just for the fuck of it but she slowly revealed herself to be a just a shitty, boring, average person
>one day she came in quiet and wouldn’t say a word to me
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>i fell asleep in class anyway and the day was over
>next time i see her
>same thing
>when i got home that day i decided to message her over snapchat asking what’s going on
>”someone told me you liked me and i was like :|”
>tell her i don’t
>she accepts my answer
>next time i see her in class
>still acting weird
>not sure why since i thought we cleared everything up but whatever
>she’s just weird
>seats get moved again
>i stop talking to her
>still haven’t talked to Katie
>i eventually forget about all of this but it comes around again later

>fast forward to around April or May 2016
>i’m chilling playing video games (battlefront EA i believe) when i get a notification from instagram
>katie.fake.username has followed you
>by this time i haven’t thought about her since i last spoke to Ayla
>scroll through the profile and realize it’s Katie from my class
>follow her back
>go back to playing video games

>a few days later she makes a post saying to add her on snapchat
>i add her and don’t think much about it
>one of her snaps on her story is her playing Gmod
>i message her asking what other games she plays
>she’s not big on PC games (neither am i) but she’s a huge Nintendo fan
>Zelda is her favorite game series of all time
>conversations continue and we begin messaging over snapchat more frequently
>i see her in class a lot and she eventually got moved into another class i had
>i still rarely talk to her in person
>she’s extremely shy when i see her but over text she’s super into memes and super dorky
>begin to develop a tiny crush over her
Cont.

>this wasn’t like the kind of crush where it was like “let’s fuck” it was different
>June 4th
>my birthday
>turning 17
>school just ended a few days ago
>i’m super underwhelmed for my birthday and really just kinda want to get it over with
>i still barely know her but she’s one of the few people who told me happy birthday and meant it
>we text a LOT that day
>some friends and family still showed up to a small birthday “party”
>i get a few gundam model kits as a present
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>she asks me what i got for my birthday
>reluctantly i tell her
>she thinks it’s cool
>”so are you just gonna build it and never touch it again”
>tell her how i actually take pictures of my toys and post them on instagram
>(i’m good at it and my pics are actually good)
>she still doesn’t think it’s weird
>responds with “AND YOU CALL ME A NERD?”
>starts telling me how good i am
>first person to genuinely like my pictures
>as i’m building my gundam we keep texting and eventually she falls asleep
>kept building until 3 am
>looking back on that day texting her and building that gundam were the highlights
>really great day
>next day
>wake up and start building my gundam again
>i get a text
>it’s from her
>simple “hey”
>i’m a little shocked because no one ever texts me first
>we talk throughout the whole day again
>few days later
>she posts a clip of On Melancholy Hill by Gorillaz on her instagram
>Gorillaz is my all time favorite band
>text her about Gorillaz
>I introduce her to more of their music
>i’m practically a Gorillaz Wiki at this point because i know so much about them
>she begins liking them more and mostly cause i introduced her to them
>(this will be important later)
>the routine of texting her every single day continues throughout the entire summer until school starts

>first day of school
>my senior year
>she’s a junior now
Cont.

Bump

go on good sir

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>i’m excited because i didn’t see her all summer
>her mom is extremely strict and won’t let her hangout with any boys
>don’t get to see her but i’m not disappointed
>text her asking how her day went
>no response
>few days later i text her
>nothing
>a week passes
>i send her a meme
>she responds saying how funny it was
>finally
>ask her what’s been going on
>no response
>another week passes
>start to feel a little hurt
>ask her why she’s ignoring me
>she responds saying her mom caught her texting me and wouldn’t let her communicate with me anymore
>she checked her phone frequently to make sure she wasn’t texting me
>somehow this escalated into us fighting
>one thing after another i started calling her an asshole
>she’s pissed at me
>i’m pissed at her
>neither of understand why

>3 months pass
>still think about her every time i hear Gorillaz
>or see something Zelda related
>decide to text her and apologize for fighting with her
>she responds saying she missed talking to me
>we update each other on what’s been happening
>she has a boyfriend now
>i try not to care because that’s her business
>we start texting every day again
>her boyfriend wants to break up and of course they did
>she’s hurt
>i’m the shoulder to cry on
>only person that was able to help her through it
Cont.

yall niggas better screncap this I'm just a silly phone poster

>March 2017
>We’ve been seeing each other at school a lot more
>she’s a grade below me so we can only see each other during lunch
>at this point the tiny crush i had back in June finally grew and was in full swing
>i was straight up in love with her
>real love
>even though we see each other a lot she’s still a little off when she’s around me
>don’t think much of it
>i hangout with her friends more
>her friend Dianna and I quickly grew close
>Dianna and her boyfriend quickly figured out how much i liked Katie
>Dianna asks me if i know Nathan
>”yeah katie’s brought his name up a couple times”
>She’s hesitant to reply
>”i think katie likes him”
>...
>...
>...
>i’m not sure what to do at this point cause i don’t entirely believe her
>a week later i finally meet this cunt Nathan
>complete fuck boy
>she really does like him
>he could care less about her
>while we all sit and talk at lunch he barely acknowledges her and stays on his phone
>next day
>he doesn’t with us
>Katie starts to flirt with me slightly
>later that day i texted Dianna asking her if she could find out what the hell was going on
>She tries and gets mixed messages
>Katie admits to liking Nathan yet blushes and gets flustered when my name is brought up
>not sure what to do
>i decide to text Katie and confess how i feel
>”i’m not weirded out or anything, just a little shocked”
>not once does she straight up say she doesn’t like me back
>never brings up that she likes Nathan
>only real reason she has is that her mom won’t let her date
>i start to think maybe she doesn’t like him
>things continue on as normal and we feel okay about the whole situation
>she knows i like her but continues on as if what we talked about never happened
>Prom is coming up
>i begin to plan to ask her with a Zelda themed “promposal”
>but then
>i get a text from Dianna
>it’s a screenshot of a group chat with Katie, Dianna, and a few other people
>Katie is making prom plans
Cont.

>only 3 posters
>phone poster

I can't either, cuz phone

welp, let's hope someone will screencap this for the future generatioms

>She want to go in a group
>she send a list if people she wants to come
>i’m not on it
>Nathan is
>Dianna texts “what about user?”
>”no” Katie replies
>i get another text from Dianna
>it’s an update to their texts
>Katie texted again “i’ll invite him”
>moments later i get a text from Katie
>”what are you doing for prom”
>...
>i’m not sure what to say
>i planned to ask her
>but she only invited me after she felt like Dianna wanted me to come
>i tell her i saw what she had texted in her group chat
>i tell her how i feel about what she said and how i’m hurt that she completely forgot me yet included Nathan even though he doesn’t like her at all at this point
>”fine then don’t go lol”
>tell her i want to go but i’m annoyed that she did that
>”it’s not a big deal i still want you to go”
>i reply “okay but i was actually planning to ask you”
>no reply
> i get a text from her other friend Andrea
>”you need to back off because you’re ruining Katie’s chances with Nathan
>i’m livid
>i thought things were going good with me and Katie
>but no
>fucking Nathan keeps getting in the way
>i don’t talk to Katie or Dianna for 2 weeks
>prom is closer now
>Katie had a fight with Nathan
>I start texting Katie again asking her about what happened
>Apparently Nathan was talking to another girl and she thought things were going great between them
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>She stops talking to Nathan
>starts talking to me a lot more
>the original prom plans she had fell through
>now she just wants to hangout with me, Dianna, Dianna’s boyfriend, and Ayla’s little sister during prom
>sounds like a good plan
>but this ended up falling apart too
>Kora couldn’t go
>Katie says she’ll feel “weird” if it’s just me, Dianna, and her boyfriend
>i ask why
> shenever tells me
>don’t talk for a few days
>prom finally comes around
>no one went to prom
>i went to a party and got high for the first time
>feel nothing but pain
Cont.

>It’s now May
>haven’t talked to Katie in a few days
>don’t want to
>but then something happens
>Gorillaz releases their first album in almost a decade
>nothing but excitement
>forget about everything that just happened between me and Katie
>out of habit i send her the album
>what did i just do
>it ended up being the one thing that was able to stop us from being so weird with each other
>things continue on as if the prom incident never happened
>she just tells me she’s disappointed that i smoked at that party
>(she hates drugs because of her dad btw)
>time passes
>my birthday rolls around again
>she makes a whole post about me on instagram
>texts me and calls me saying happy birthday
>”this is the day we pretty much started talking last year”
>finally everything is completely normal between us
>i don’t have a crush on her anymore
>but then
>she completely ghosts on me
>i start to grow concerned because she was going through her own shit with her mom
>no contact for 2 weeks
>then out of no where she makes a post about me on instagram
>she only had 80 followers on this account but no person should make anything public when it belongs between two people
>post is a paragraph long telling me to fuck off
>full of anger i text her another paragraph telling her to go fuck herself
>never get a reply as expected
>block her on everything
>Dianna takes my side
>a week later i was using the find my friends app to check my dad’s location but her location still came up even though she was blocked
>(we always shared our location with each other. Not sure why tbh)
>text her
>”can you stop sharing your location with me? I don’t want your fucking name on my phone”
>she stopped sharing it with me after that
Cont.

Story is already convoluted at this point

>another 3 months pass
>she’s a senior and i just started college
>think nothing but hate filled thoughts toward her every day
>Dianna and i have grown close and she stopped talking to Katie as much
>but something was about to happen again
>Life is Beautiful 2017
>I was going
>Katie was going
>and Gorillaz were performing
>we were supposed to go together
>i began to grow nervous
>tired of feeling nothing but hate
>don’t want her to ruin Gorillaz performing for me
>i hadn’t listened to them in awhile because of her
>i had to make amends with her
>i couldn’t let hate ruin this for me
>reluctantly text her
>ask her why she did what she did
>”you were acting like my boyfriend and it was annoying me and i wanted it to stop so Ayla told me to make a post so you’d see it and get the idea”
>ask her “how in the fuck was a good idea”
>she replies “idk but it was fucking stupid and i’m sorry”
>i accept her apology
>we go on to start making jokes and stuff
>she tells me she isn’t even going to Life is Beautiful anymore
>i don’t care because i was still able to clear all that hate out of my system
>face time her
>we’re talking and having fun
>”i have something to show you”
>i pull out my Gorillaz vinyl and start playing On Melancholy Hill
>she breaks down crying
>”i’m so fucking sorry user”
>”i fucked up everything”
>calm her down
>tell her it’s okay
>i finally realized she really did regret what she did
>Life Is Beautiful happens
>See Chance the Rapper, Two Door Cinema Club, Lorde, Cage the Elephant, De La Soul, the XX and of course Gorillaz all within 3 days
>Tell Katie all about it
>While i’m telling her she starts to act affectionate towards me
>something she’s never done before
>ask her why
>tells me she likes me
>has liked me the entire time i’ve known her
Cont.

>never said anything because she felt it was wrong to Ayla since she liked me first
>pretended to like Nathan so she could bury her real feelings for me
>everything i felt for her before comes back
>tell her i want to date her
>she wants to date too
>make plans to go to this shitty Hawaiian festival coming up
>festival is September 29th - October 2nd
>i live in Vegas
>some of you may remember what happened October 1st in Vegas
>but i’ll get back to that
>go to festival with her and some friends
>fun times
>hold her a few times on the ride she’s scared on
>feels weird since this is the first time we’ve shown affection towards each other
>normally she’s a little distant and hates when people touch her
>take her home
>i play Gorillaz in the car like the smooth bastard i am
>She’s falling asleep
>On Melancholy Hill comes on
>she wake up and smiles at me
>i’m driving with only my right hand
>”two hands” she tells me
>i think she’s making a joke about me not driving safely
>put two hands on the wheel and laugh at her “what is this safer?”
>she doesn’t respond and reaches over and grabs my hand and holds onto it the entire way back to her place
>feel nothing but love and her soft hands holding tightly onto mine
>drop her off
>head home
>don’t bother texting her since i know she already got in trouble with her mom
>i was right
>watch tv
>2 dead 24 injur-
>”whatever, happens all the time” i think to myself as i put on the new rick & morty instead
>mom comes downstairs
>”some guy had a gun on the strip and was shooting at people”
>i respond “oh yeah i think i just saw that. Only two dead so it’s okay”
>she goes back upstairs a little shaken up
>next morning
>find out 50 people were killed and 500 injured
>this was the first thing that began a snowball called depression
>try to forget about what happened while i’m in class
>text Katie about it
We’re close to the end now

>only talk for a little bit about it cause we both don’t want to think about how close we were to it
>just keep flirting and being cute
>it helps
>we start to plan out more dates and all that cute shit
>things feel off though
>we’re both depressed
>can’t continue a relationship at the moment
>nothing feels right
>i can’t figure out what to do with my life
>keep thinking of the shooting
>can’t stop thinking of the shooting
>ask her if she thinks she could do a relationship right now
>she can’t
>neither can i
>we both stop trying
>continue to talk every once in awhile
>i try getting with another girl only so i can fuck but i cared so little about her that she stopped liking me and fucked one of my friends
>i don’t even care
>grow apathetic
>miserable
>depressed
>lost in life
>almost fail one of my classes
>grades begin to slip
>find out my best friend’s dad has been doing meth for the last year and coke for the past 9
>go to his house to talk about it
>his dad showed up and threatened to kill me
>was about to kill his wife with rocks
>i was tempted to run him over at one point but i restrained myself
>regret not killing him
>this piles on all the other shit i’m feeling
>start to feel better any time i text Katie
>feel safe around her
>she begins to become my only source of happiness
>ask her is she wants try to date again
>she doesn’t know
>says she needs some space
>she’s depressed too
>a couple weeks later she sends me a song called Ti Amo
>My Love
>don’t talk much

>December
>stop being depressed
>classes are over
>feel better about myself
>ready to take on 2018
>want to work with Life Is Beautiful as a photographer
>ask a guy i know and he says he’ll hook me up
>life is looking good now
>everything feels better

>January
>text Katie
>talking about Zelda and stuff with her
>things are finally normal again

That’s where i’m at now. Wish me luck boys, we’ll see where this gravy train takes me.

Luck is wished. Sounds like a roller coaster, but hope you manage it well.

This is the dumbest shit ever. Shut the fuck up fag.

It gets better. Trust me. I finished posting it all

Then why’d you read it all?

Finished posting

Was a nice read user, good luck with her and the future.

Thank you kind sir

That was a long fucking read

What a shit story.
I expected more.
Depressed because some randoms died in Vegas? That's not normal.

>randoms
People i know were there.
The guy went to LIB to shoot it up and he didnt