i am very depressed and drinking excessively, i feel like i can't stop drinking and i live to drink. it seems like the end goal in everyday is just to get as drunk as possible or just drunk enough to the point where i feel like i can go on with my day. i drink when i wake up, ive gained maybe 40 pounds in the last couple months. my personality is now reflective of my alcohol habits. girl i loved left me for all the bs that came along with being intertwined with someone who is addicted to alcohol. i drink the cheapest vodka which is essentially relabeled rubbing alcohol, i get stomach cramps when i sit on the fucking toilet and bend over to use the bodna, i avoid looking in the mirror for days, the amount of interest i put into my interests and performance in school reflect how i live my life. i am in a constant state of consumption, i'm lazy as hell and don't do my work, i am going to fail a couple of classes this semester, my roommate left because he couldn't stand how much of a slob i was and still am, i feel like i use people to get fucked up. i can't maintain anything. i want to kill myself daily. i am watching myself slowly kill myself. all i want to do is drink. i don't even like pot anymore, it's just alcohol. i don't feel like myself unless i have a drink, ill be a little antsy if i don't know where my next drink is coming from, i feel like i can't leave my room unless i'm a little drunk, i got fined for an alcohol violation. i have a strong dislike of people and i notice it becoming stronger when i am sober, that's probably a result of just getting older. i don't think i'm growing anymore, i'm just getting older. my mindset is still in high school. i feel like i probably already peaked. my dad was a shitty dad. i don't know man. i really don't what the hell to do anymore
I am very depressed and drinking excessively, i feel like i can't stop drinking and i live to drink...
>i don't even like pot anymore.
Is it legal where you live?
>Not being a functioning alcoholic
Full time job, still have the friends I've had for years, good relationship with my remaining family, and I get drunk damn near every day. Get on my level.
no, but it probably will pretty soon. we got a new governor who is dude weed lmao.
that's sounds pretty sweet man. i want to relate. i started drinking pretty young and it got out of hand before i was even of age.
New Jersey? Do you like Dryjacket?
Well if pots not legal where you live then I wouldn't be too hard on yourself.
How much vodka do you drink a week and how long has that been going on?
Uoure not an alcoholic if you don't get withdrawal attacks on the day you don't get drunk.
i've never heard of dryjacket, what is that? when i was back home, maybe a pint of vodka night, if i'm day drinking probably double that. nowadays a handle will last me 3 or 4 days.
just checked them out they sound like they know what they're doing and they do it well
I know this might be shocking so brace yourself.
Dryjacket is music. It's a band from New Jersey with an excellent album this year.
Yeah you're in trouble dude. You literally cannot adjust your drinking until you get medical attention which might need to happen like tomorrow. With that amount of alcohol you could have a seizure if you get a withdrawl attack.