Guys, I'm so tired of life. I see how empty it is. I see that all philosophies rest on arbitrarily chosen axioms...

Guys, I'm so tired of life. I see how empty it is. I see that all philosophies rest on arbitrarily chosen axioms. I see the changing fashions of pseudointellectuals demanding conformity through praise of Atheism or Christianity or classic books or whatever academia or corporations demand.

I am fully blackpilled about my ugliness disadvantaging me to an incredible degree. I see everyone, even leftists, angrily denying this because ugly beta males are the disposable batteries of society.

My current full time job requires almost no work but if I had to work from 9-5 my life would be practically over. The few weeks I actually stayed from 9-5 in the office were soul crushing and terrifying.

My main hobbies are browsing the internet, walking around downtown Saskatoon, drinking coffee, hoping my 20s will spontaneously stop feeling wasted. Of course all that happens is that I feel crushed after seeing Chads and Staceys everywhere. Junk food is currently my main solace.

All sources of pleasure are hierarchies that require more work than my job. Read books? Read these boring classic books. Want to program? Go through these long, theoretical boring books.

I am bitter about everyone having easier lives: normies gliding through institutions filled with normies, judged solely on normieness.

Background:
>aged 26
>no friends or social life since 18
>no female attention ever
>went through university with zero social experiences
>became the loner nobody talks to within two days of my current job
>never been to a bar, club, or party
>missed out on all the 16 - 22 formative social experiences that people look back on fondly (teen crushes, school prom, school dances, university frosh week, any sort of relationships at all)
>know that women all have 5000 tinder matches and think the average male is ugly; seeing attractive women everywhere is demoralising
>feel completely bitter and detached from others due to being an ugly subhuman; lifting weights did nothing

stfu gay leaf

You see all these things and somehow you miss the fact your threads are a fucking eyesore.

How is it an eyesore?

Bump

I'm in a similar position. All I'm hoping for is that God has the mercy to put me through a freak accident where I die instantly and painlessly.

Are you praying to kara boga?

what race are you? if you are white, then that's something to be proud of. you could even very easily pick up an asian chick since they worship even the ugliest beta white guys. shouldn't be hard in chinada

I would kill myself immediately if I was wh*Te

you're chinese aren't you?
then life is basically irrecoverable for you

go to interpals, find some qt white girl bud

This is my personal philosophy.
>Is work/education unpleasant?
Don't worry about how unpleasant it is, think about $$$$$. You don't really have a choice anyways.
>Want pleasure?
Drugs, porn, vidya, shitposting, movies, shows, music, etc.
>Girlfriend?
Don't worry about it, their value in time and money is abysmal and they're very likely to fuck you over.
>Friends and socializing?
This doesn't hurt, but it's not like food and shelter like how society portrays this concept.
>Purpose?
That doesn't matter. Indulge in pleasures as long as you're not harming others or yourself.

>if you are white, then that's something to be proud of
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

But "le nothing matters" sounds dumb. Isn't that how you get to 45 years old with zero accomplishments?

>Drugs, porn, vidya, shitposting, movies, shows, music, etc.
All these but especially drugs. OP just get a drug habit, they're a blast

Doesn't that lead to nowhere though? Seems like it would make life worse.

Get a woman with a big ass
Your problems will be solved

Nah drugs are wonderful. I suggest cocaine.

Is it good for health? What is the future result of a cocaine addiction on my financial and physical health?

It's what is called natural selection. Good riddance.

don't do it.

Fucking up your health and wallet for short term pleasure doesn't make sense. In my opinion, most commonly used drugs with a lot of information on them (ie not shit with research chemicals) including hard drugs can be used in moderation as long as you don't have an addictive personality and are in an okay place mentally.