I'm so fucking depressed holy shit

I'm so fucking depressed holy shit

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me too

It's been years since I felt an emotion.

Good

My entire existence is worthless, I do nothing all day

>been in college forever, but still no degree
>will probably fail this semester
>very good chance that i will end myself soon

I enjoy my life and am very glad for being given the gift of existing in such a beautiful world

at this point in time, all I can do is just keep moving forward, aimlessly

Today Id thought about killing myself, went through a well made up plan like destroying all hard drives, throwing my phone away in the next city and stuff like that
Turned out I was just occupied with my thoughts for too long
If I dont get distracted for a very long time I will become suicidal

>constantly feel inferior, angry and anxious
>there is no definable reason for these feelings

>If I dont get distracted for a very long time I will become suicidal
The only real reason humans developed complex culture. If we were smart we'd be living like those native who "work" like 5 hours a week gathering berries and roots and spend the rest of the time fucking around.

>born into one of the top 3 countries in the world
>in best 50 years of human history
>physically fine
>moderate natural intelligence
>fine genetics and have had females openly show interest
>loving familly

>still never achieved anything except passing school or had anything non platonic with a female and anxious about basic tasks and incredibly insecure

>If we were smart we'd be living like those native who "work" like 5 hours a week gathering berries and roots and spend the rest of the time fucking around.
Don't think thats smart at all. Theres a reason why life expectancy soared throughout the 20the century, even with working over 40hrs a week, its just malnourishment has become a very rare occurence

agriculture was a mistake until post ww2 it just lets populations get bigger so it took over

Haha same

>own my own house
>own car
>have stable decent paying job
>have a good social group
>no bad habits like smoking/drinking
>physically fit
>save enough money to travel around the world
>hook-ups every so often
>loving and supportive family

>still fucking miserable and depressed every damn day

Have you ever tried the hunter gatherer lifestyle? Maybe you'd prefer it

Get the fuck out of here you normie shit

Y'all need to travel, change of scene, it'll both brighten you spiritually as you see new sights and reset your mind so you'll have new appreciation for some of the things back home

I recommend visiting Japan. It's safe and food's nice and not so expensive as you think if you wait for the right season to buy plane tickets

so basically, you're not actually depressed at all, you just feel kind of blue sometimes.

>Y'all
stopped reading here

this

Visiting a country that isn't Canada or Mexico is basically impossible if you're working a wagecuck job, doesn't matter the season

Yeah nice. Do you want my creditcard information to sponsor travelling to Japan for me to enlighten my spirit?

INCREDIBLE post

I don't even want anything from life. I have no idea why I am still alive.

You don't get vacations or days off? Are you a temp or what
It doesn't even have to be overseas, it can be some state you never been to. I work with nip businessmen and they would drive like madmen to visit """famous places""" like the Rocky steps in Philly

C'mon Germ public transport's better in Europe you can do better

The only things I want in life are extremely implausible and I cannot make myself to put in enough effort to reach them in spite of the odds

>implying that increasing your lifespan is a good thing

>kissless
>hugless
>handholdless
>friendless
>haven't had a conversation with a member of my peer group in over 3 years
>detrimentally shy, pathetic, weak, and submissive
>wasting money in college with absolutely no idea what I'm doing
>no goals, ambitions, plans, or interests

Give me your money

Sounds like me except I graduated and (somehow) found a job
Just get your degree, find a job, save money, find better job

Going to college is like going to high school in the old days, it sucks but you have to push through or you'll have a harder time finding work

Never, but I am not really interested anyway. I have other worries to work on
Wanna live like a dirty peasant working his ass off 12 hours a day,everyday, I mean you MUST work
Or
Working 8hrs a day with weekends and everything you need is in close proximity

I USED TO LIE ABOUT HOW LONG IVE BEEN ON Sup Forums TO IMPRESS OLDFAGS BUT I JUST REALIZED IVE BEEN HERE FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMEBER AND I DONT NEED TO LIE ANYMORE

I don't know how to achieve my goals but am too afraid to look for help, so I spend the prime years of my life wandering around helplessly and waiting for time to pass, thinking the solutions will magically appear

yeah I'm doing alright academically, I'm just worried because next year I need to declare a major and I really just have no idea

at least you guys are all young. I'm 30 and it's too late for me now

>Wanna live like a dirty peasant working his ass off 12 hours a day,everyday, I mean you MUST work
That's not what pre-agriculture life was like

My dad had a stroke last month and will probably be dead by the end of the year

Where do you live dad

My dad died New Years Day, treasure your time together and make sure he's comfortable

Goddamn man, nothing itt had an effect on me but this made my heart drop. Im sorry lads

in my dad's basement

I might have melanoma but I don't have insurance and even if I could afford treatment I wouldn't go to the doctor because really what meaning does my life have?

I also lost my job recently due to poor performance (they couldn't give a shit about personal circumstances) so all that I have to support my father and my younger brother is governments handouts. All while I'm trying get through uni.

MY LIFE IS A FUCKING MESS :))))))

That's me.
Only add a little bit of back pains and skin problems.

>lower middle class but not reason to complain
>mildly successful in academics but manage to get 3.8 GPA, 32 ACT, eagle scout, musical skills, going into college with 22 credit hours already
>college is almost free because of it
>still feel like a failure
>can hardly help myself so I want to be a nurse and try to help other people with my life but don't feel like I'll make it
>not all that bad socially but anxious all the time
>drug and alcohol problems
>maybe two friends
>no money for a car or license
>kissless/never had a relationship
>5'11" 135 lbs can't hardly make gains
>drugs and alcohol definatly not helping
>18 and in the flower of my youth but can't get out of feeling like I want to die
>i don't even fucking know what to think of myself and never did
>i dont even fucking know in general I've got so much going for me

>probably have 140 IQ
>read a lot and can play piano really well
>still have depression and anxiety

Those people only live to be about 25-30
Wait nevermind that's fucking genious

The only thing in life I'm good at is baking, I fail at everything else
If I were a girl I would be 10/10 marriage material but I'm a dude so I'm just some dude who makes really good cookies and casseroles

Yeah I guess thats more like it. It doesnt seem like I should but its just really hard to shake once I do

youtube.com/watch?v=ZhKGtgcZghc

I know this won't mean anything to you right now, but it's at times like these where a man's character gets made. If you survive and keep your head above water nothing ever will come close to how you feel right now. You will always be in control, because no matter what, "I've been through worse"


It's at times like these

how do single people even have hobbies like baking? I tried baking once and 1 recipe made like 20 fucking cookies or a 12 inch diameter cake. That's more cookies and cake slices than I'll eat in a month.

Then again, I don't even like sweets. I would consider a "baking gf" too much of a risk. High risk of becoming fat

Same. Now i pretend to not even know old memes fron '05

"""Depression""" is a gimmick made up by attention whores.

Big fucking whoop, you're sad, what a special snowflake (and I mean "special snowflake" in the original sense of that expression, not in the Sup Forumstard sense).

>26 years old male
>no friends
>no money
>no job
>no parents
>no human interaction
>my sisters live in another city
> born in third world cunt

Same

Well, there's more things to make in an oven than just sweets. I can make a lasagna that can last me a week or so, make it on Sunday and eat it for lunch every day. You can make a giant batch of cookies and keep them in a ziploc bag and bring one or two with you to work or whatever.

You also save a lot of money making everything yourself, it seems like a terrible time investment at first, but as you get used to it you can prep everything fairly quickly (as long as it's not something complex and highly involved) and be set. While it bakes you can watch TV, do some homework, whatever and peak at it around the time it should be done and see if it needs more time.

Of course, once you start getting really into it, it can become a real money sink. Most of the shit in your spice cabinet is probably junk and you'll end up realizing that and slowly replacing all of it with good stuff, which is not cheap but is still cheaper than buying premade food/eating out in the long run (and it tastes better). Plus whenever you do have someone over you can impress them.

Are you hot? Marry me and move to Canada.

Finished college long ago but still no degree because few subjects remaining

>Is my son going to get a good job and a girlfriend soon? I raised him the best I could, didn't I? Yes, I'm sure I did.

>I can make a lasagna that can last me a week or so
ugh I don't know if I can eat food that old. I waste a lot of time making a new meal from scratch erry day

sorry I just don't see the value in baking, not unless you have a large family who consume lots of food

inb4 freezing, it just doesn't taste the same

Honestly at this point, Im just waiting for death.

...

I spend 14 hours a day on Sup Forums

on Sup Forums

only when I get bored of Sup Forums

>browsing Sup Forums and Sup Forums for 14 hours a day as an American
>this is what comes as self-harm in 2018

>hear someone laughing nearby
>think that they are laughing at me

>born as male
why even live?

Stop bombarding your dopamine circuits with sex, action, destruction and whatever other pleasure. The consistent lows immediately follow

I have no pleasure.

>17 years old
>rich family
>some young grills 9/10 prom.
>dick 23 cms
>still depressed

Because you've raised the threshold too far and become incapable of enjoying basic stuff, blunted affect we calls it

Try to remember before Sup Forums the simple pleasures you had in your childhood, for the most menial things.

>I'm so fucking depressed holy shit

Brexit will save you

>haven't had a conversation with a member of my peer group

How hard can it be to find obese assholes in the States?

>17 years old
>dick 23 cms

Oh hello

I had none to begin with.

>Russian
>happy childhoods

>hear someone whispers something nearby
>think that they're talking shit about me

Unless you're one of the infinitesimally rare cases of familial depression with inherited brain structure, not true

Anyone here, especially self-wrecking Canadanon will attest to the therapeutic benefits of leaving Sup Forums for a while. The stress levels and ADHD naturally plateau, you feel time is slower, that harrowing depression begins to leave and pleasure begins coming back

Even people who spend time at farms/rural resorts will tell you this. Our brains are not designed to get off to porn, war, death 24/7.

Define happiness and give me your personal views on Russian childhoods

I just want to feel, that someone needs me.
Is that too much?

Start interacting with people in a different frame of mind, without anticipation, dread or foreboding, and zero expectations.

Don't presume any judgement on their part because that will unironically make them consider you weak

Bada bing bada boom, life is too short and difficult to live according to other people's definitions

>that sinking feeling in your stomach you realize that there's literally nothing about the world that makes you want to be alive

Omg this guy is so smart. I love you desu :3

>consider you weak
But I am weak.
I was bullied at school, never won a fight and when I had bone fractured no one helped me.

can i have your stuff then

Can't tell if sarcastic

There will be a point where you realize that undervaluing yourself, being doormat mode has no-one to blame but yourself, this world can't afford to be nice and you'll hate yourself even more

Embrace that innate individualism, if you make mistakes and people get angry, you'll feel alright, they're reflective of who you really are and thus not as bad as being possessed by what you are now

all I really own is a shitty decade old hp laptop

I used to be depressed and shit. Not anymore there’s no point in being sad. I just play vidya as hard as I can.

>17
get him boys

>get him boys

I'm trying but he won't respond

>there are people born in the 2000s lurking this thread right now
I-I'm not young anymore?

I spend 100% of my day looking at a screen. I get constant headaches now and have terrible vision.

>moved to a new place almost two (2) years ago
>have made zero (0) friends here so far

I'm a 28 year old hideous kissless virgin NEET who will never know what female affection feels like

b-but Sup Forums told me neet life is best life? Why are you not all working on your novels?

I just abuse hard drugs every day in the hope that I don't wake up one morning